On Kambo, “Adulting,” and Turning 40

A few months ago I turned 40.  Despite all the typical negative hype for this decade, I was looking forward to it. This was the year I was going to start hitting my stride.  This is when I was going to really “make it.”   And maybe finally feel like an “adult?”

For my birthday I gave myself the gift of a “kambo ceremony.” “What is that?” I told my friends and family with a laugh that I was burning holes in my leg and then topping them off with frog poison. . . and that’s true. . . but the holes are pinprick size, and a very conservative amount of Amazonian frog poison is applied by a gentle, sanitary professional (if you work with someone like Julie — highly recommended)! During the ceremony I experienced nausea and the pulsing of my whole body (mainly my arms and hands). I didn’t get sick, grow 3 heads, or suddenly know the meaning of life — but I do think I got something out of it and will probably do it again.

That’s how I started my 40th year.  Not too long after, my husband and I bought foldable bikes and I left one of my jobs, which both have added wonderfully to my overall health and well-being. 

Now that I’ve ceremonially kicked off the prime of my life and cleared some space with some major “lifekeeping”, I’m turning more attention to the “adulting” part of things.  I’m starting to center myself more and allowing and accepting my emotions.  I’m swallowing more of my pride more and feeling the fear and doing it anyway. I’m communicating better with my husband, accepting more criticism, and taking more risks. I’m learning what I enjoy, who I am, and how to play (very important part of “adulting” actually!)

Where are you on your journey? Have you purposefully chosen any ceremonies to kick off a new stage in your life? If so, what did you do?

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