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Guest Post from Jorge Candelaria: The Power of Conscious Emotion


The Power of Conscious Emotion

by Jorge Candelaria

Some people want to improve their lives, but they don’t want to do anything differently. They are addicted to their way of being.  To improve one’s life and make the difference on the planet requires trying different ways of being.  Sometimes it requires challenge and sacrifice, but sometimes it’s just about enjoying the journey.

It has been six years since I started my journey to know myself.  I had no idea at that time where I was going to end up, and that allowed me the freedom to have new experiences and to be different, From my heart I knew that there had to be something more out there because nothing that I was doing was fulfilling me.

Some parts of the journey have felt like a struggle, and in other parts I am reaping the fruit of my efforts.  The first step in my journey was exploring discipline, and I experienced how powerful it was. I learned the influence of discipline on my feelings and emotions, and I started to understand my environment at a deeper level. I also became aware of other people’s behavior around me and the influence of our thoughts and our choices on each other and each other’s behavior.  

I fell in love with discipline, meditation, and spiritual exercises, that allows me to be in the present moment and get me closer and closer to have a quiet mind. I started practicing self-observation and objectivity with my thought; this process allowed me to discover all the baggage that I needed to change or get rid of.  At some points I was face-to-face with anger, self-pity, and sorrow.  Sometimes I reacted, blamed, and complained, blending all of those emotions. In those moments I realized the effect of discipline and commitment in the process of spiritual development, in being able to see how I was actually creating my reality. I also observed past patterns of thinking, including coping mechanisms I used to hide myself in, using unproductive habits like overworking or excessive internet use when things got tough.  Then instead I started developing ways that I could be in those challenging emotions, experiencing them. I observed myself in the present moment, observed how I was creating the experience.  I could then see if the feeling was habitual, an addictive behavior that was that an unconscious reaction to the experience. In that process, I learned that I had so many wounds that I needed to heal, like blaming other for triggering a negative emotion.  I realized it was something that I learned at home when I was little. Through this process I began to discover and trace how I developed my personality, and how I became who I am.

I also started to observe the usefulness of discipline to consciously create in my life. This is  something that I have always enjoyed.  I see the benefits of discipline in creating a business and focusing on one direction without the hassle of the standard ways of marketing, just maintaining the positive and direct thoughts of serving and loving what I do.  

The objectivity and mindfulness I have developed has helped me stay conscious in my work.  The unconscious habit that I catch myself in is thinking that just working harder is going to help me to solve a problem in the business, in my life or in being ‘productive.’ I think I am going to fill some emptiness. In those moments I now stop and look for what I am avoiding, what problem or what emotion I need to face.

In the journey of breaking my addictive behavior, I have found that the most important thing is to experience a deeper understanding of love. I am looking to receive all new people in my life into my heart, to experience divine friendship. Also, just as importantly, I look to experience and practice self love.

A Joyedian’s Tale: The Return of Sra. Crankypants


Dear angels, God, Ascended Masters, Entities of Light, saints, Mother Gaia (Earth) . . .  and any and all beings for the good of all concerned, thank you for another day and for being a part of it.

Today Sra. Cranky Pants is back (my alter-ego).  It occurred to me a few minutes ago — after riding out another of my many emotional rollercoasters — that I could actually be grateful for these experiences.  With this much emotional impact, I’m bound to grow.  It’s even inevitable for me . . . even when I try not to.

Yesterday I got triggered multiple times, this after being slammed a few days earlier on Monday and Tuesday with some high emotions and tough karmic learning.  I just wanted to quit caring.  I visualized closing doors over my heart.  It just felt like too much.

However, thanks to a husband who can’t accept “I’m fine.  I really don’t want to talk about it” — both honest “Thanks” and sarcastic “Thanks” there because I actually really didn’t want to talk about it, and yes, there is still a little bitterness there — a lot of it spilled out.  I didn’t feel great afterwards, but I would also like to quit judging myself, particularly on how I think I’m supposed to be for other people.

So, I’m still a little edgy today.  The ten degree weather really isn’t helping because I’m a sun and heat girl, and I’ve decided I’ll be riding out Chicago winters until our dream of living mobile happens — which is related to yesterday’s triggers, so I won’t be touching on that anymore today, thank you!

And in other news — though I am thinking this may actually be connected to what I was just writing about —  I am on Day 2 of Self-Healing with Reiki.  I decided it’s time to advance to the next level(s) of healing, and circumstances are pointing toward Reiki at the moment (though I enjoy the Healing Touch Chakra Connection sequence and will probably end up creating some combo of the two).  I’ve reconnected with my Reiki I teacher, I read through the entire Reiki I binder yesterday morning, and I am completing 21 days of the self-healing practice before I touch base with her again.

Sometimes you’ve gotta clear out the gunk so the light can stretch further.

Much love and many blessings. ❤

A Joyedien’s Tale: Angel Number 195


Dear angels, God, Ascended Masters, Entities of Light, saints, Mother Gaia (Earth) . . .  and any and all beings for the good of all concerned, thank you for another day and for being a part of it.

This post is a little overdue.  Soon after my last post, I spoke again with my husband Brian and discovered that we were still on the same page afterall.  We just both acknowledged that this transition from living in a home to living on the road could be a challenge, even mentally.  As someone who had lived a month with only the contents of her backpack, the idea was a lot easier for me personally to grasp.  We have time to adjust.

Today on the odometer I saw 195,195 (Almost to 200,000 baby! — Side Note: Giving up my car will probably be THE HARDEST thing for me to give up when we go mobile.)  When I looked up the angel number meaning from Doreen Virtue’s Angel Numbers 101, I immediately resonated with the message.

The changes that you are making are well timed.  You are clear about what you will and won’t accept in your life.  These changes put you on the path of your Divine Mission . . .  and will result in you helping others to do the same.

I connect with this on 2 points:

1.It encourages me to continue with my dream of going mobile (living on the road).  My forward momentum took a hit yesterday when a strong internal emotional struggle (mouthful!) tore at my resolve, but I’m getting back on track.  It reminds me that following my dream will inspire others to do the same.

2.It encourages me to continue through my struggles.  I’m not sure how it happened, but suddenly I felt myself enmeshed in some of the biggest karmic lessons of my current lifetime (and before!): facing potential confrontation, boundary-setting, perception of value, perception of time, and self-judgement.  Perhaps not surprisingly, it was the last that nearly shredded me to pieces, but what I found most interesting was that I didn’t even recognize it — or its impact — until my coach pointed it out to me.  The more I open my awareness to judgement, the more I realize how powerful it can really be.

Here’s to your learnings!  Here’s to your dreams!  Much love and many blessings. ❤

A Joyedian’s Tale: The Fragility of a Dream


Dear angels, God, Ascended Masters, Entities of Light, saints, Mother Gaia (Earth) . . .  and any and all beings for the good of all concerned, thank you for another day and for being a part of it.

I don’t think I really understood the fragility of a dream until this dream.  I’m open to some tweaking of it, but my obsession with it grows stronger every day.  I tell Brian that I think about it 24/7.  Of course not THAT much, but I think about it more than anything else.

So far I’ve been able to weather my own skepticism and the surprise of others.  Every time I share it with another soul, I become a little more confident.  But, yesterday the dream faced its biggest challenge: my dream partner said he wasn’t sure he shared the dream.

I knew I faced potential trouble here.  All my big travel dreams up until this point had been easy for me to manifest — but they only involved one person: ME!  This one involves a partner, one who perhaps is not really on the same page.

I’m at a crossroads here.  What do I need to do? This dream is pretty big and already involves some ingenuity with 4 pets in tow.  I know I can’t stay here anymore, not for long.  Mentally I’ve already moved on from this life.  To give up this dream would be to give up myself.

The question then becomes: How badly do I want this?  I don’t want to drag him through this dream.  (I’ll already be dragging my fur babies, and that is enough!) I can feel the potential resentment lurking — on both our sides.  I will let it lie for today and set it in the hands of Spirit.

Much love and many blessings. ❤

A Joyedian’s Tale: Living with the Remnants of Another Me

Dear angels, God, Ascended Masters, Entities of Light, saints, Mother Gaia (Earth) . . .  and any and all beings for the good of all concerned, thank you for another day and for being a part of it.

Attempting to write blog posts in chunks is not so great for this Virgo, Gemini Moon, Aquarius Rising individual. This is my third time sitting down to write this post, and I find myself saying: “Oh, that was SO this morning.”   I blame the Gemini.

This is the house, the house that I live in.


Hi, Bowser!

I’ve lived in it for 10 years, most of those years with Brian, the love of my life.  When I bought this house I had just moved out of my parents’ house, was 4 years into a career, and imagined I would settle in, maybe for the rest of my life.  Soon after, Brian moved in, then 2 cats (to keep each other company) . . . then a dog (for Brian) . . . and then finally another dog because  — obviously — we are crazy.

Now, looking back, much has changed.  I left that “career” job years ago.  I’ve had at least 6 other jobs since then, and now I have absolutely no urge to “settle down.”  In fact, I’ve spent some of the best moments of my life in other states and countries.

I realized: I’m an entirely new person, living in the shell of an old me.

The good news is that Brian and I now finally have a shared dream.  We’re going to go mobile.  Today we started a shared Google Doc so that we can work on our plan whenever the mood strikes us.  (Planning can be tough with two entirely different work schedules.)   We’ve begun talking about the bare essentials we’d need to take with us and some changes we’d need to make, such as:

  • selling our home and finding someone to host us so that we’d have an actual “permanent address” for mail and the like
  • a shared crossover vehicle, instead of our 2 compact cars. (Enough to hold 4 pet carriers as well as all of our belongings!)
  • new health insurance

This is my dream — to make my life the Camino: to live every day as an adventure.  It’s time for the next adventure, and the whole family’s going this time!

Here’s to our dreams!  Much love and many blessings!

A Joyedian’s Tale: I Like My Name


Dear angels, God, Ascended Masters, Entities of Light, saints, Mother Gaia (Earth) . . .  and any and all beings for the good of all concerned, thank you for another day and for being a part of it.

Often when I am thinking of what to share in the blog or through other social media, I look one of two things: 1. what I’ve been learning that week or 2. where I’ve had the strongest emotional reactions.  (Many times they are connected.)

The past week or so I’ve had some interesting emotional reactions, following the Occassion of becoming  a married person.  My biggest emotional trigger was the question of what would become of my name.

I like my name.  I’m even a little attached to it.  So, I knew pretty early on that I was going to keep it.  The funny thing about it is that I often assume other women will change theirs.  Most women do.  So, it’s only natural that others would assume I’m changing mine, right?

But I’ve had quite an internal reaction to the issue!  Why would I want to change my name?  I think.  I LIKE my name, I think.  It’s who I am.  I’m not that I’m particularly attached to “Karl” for the family name, nor am I super attached to my German ethnicity — nothing like that.  It’s just — I like myself, and I associate myself with that name: “Teri Karl.”

Am I a little feminist?  Sure.  Am I a little rebellious?  Certainly.  But I don’t think those facts ultimately have much to do with it.

I like my name. I’ve had no desire to change it.  So, I didn’t.  

Any thoughts on your name?  Much love and many blessings to you all, now and always. ❤

A Joyedian’s Tale: Life in Winterland


Dear angels, God, Ascended Masters, Entities of Light, saints, Mother Gaia (Earth) . . .  and any and all beings for the good of all concerned, thank you for another day and for being a part of it.

It’s very cold.  It’s 6 degrees and lightly snowing as I’m typing this.  I don’t like avoiding the outdoors.  But I am extremely grateful for the organization of the state and suburbs in making sure the roads are cleared and salted.  And the drivers are being pretty safe, too.

I watched a beautiful video this morning that a friend posted on Facebook.  It’s called If MLK Sneezed.  I cried almost immediately while watching, but the most powerful words for me were: “I just want to do God’s will.”

I feel like I am getting closer to something.  A sense of peace, in the face of anything.  I’m not there, but I’m getting closer.  I’m on the edge.  Not attached, not detached.  Somewhere in the middle.  And sometimes when I wake in the morning, I can feel energy pouring through my hands and feet.

I want to see the world.  I want to take a cruise around the world.  I also want to walk all of the “Walks” of the world.  I’ve walked the Camino, and I want to walk the Kumano Kodo next.  But I want to walk a walk in every country that has one.  What if I could bring others with me?  Some to walk with me, some to virtually walk with me?  I have this vision of a camera strapped to my head.

I’m more aware of my intuition.  I’ve had 2 hints about cancelations in the past few days.  I’m back in the groove with media postings.  I need to get back to reviewing my 2017 finances, and I need to make some moves with my web-site.  I still lack vision on exactly who I am and where I’m going.  But the angel messages tell me to keep doing what I’m doing, so I’m here.  I’m on Facebook, I’m on Youtube.  I have workshops scheduled.  I’m open to healing.  I’m open to guidance.  And I dream of travels.

Much love and many blessings. ❤

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