There is a phrase that we use in the DreamBuilder program: “What if it were easy?” I’ve used a few times — I’d like to use it more! This evening, as I am about to drift off to sleep, I share a phrase I just created: “What if it were freeing?” Let me rewind.
This morning I experienced surprising pain twice. When talking with my coach and the person I’d like to be, I’d named 6 “Teri’s”: “Guru Teri”, “Speaker/Entertainer Teri”, “Coach Teri”, “Alone Teri”, “Normal Teri”, and “Insecure Teri.” She surprised me by zeroing in and asking me about “Normal Teri.” When she had me check in with myself, I realized that I didn’t know who “Normal Teri” was. And then when she had me ask myself if I “wanted to get to know ‘Normal Teri'” I was shocked to hear myself answer “No.” Followed by: “She is boring.” This was not nearly as fun and exciting as discussing future Teri, but I knew this was going to be about “self acceptance” for me. This needed to be addressed, or else “Guru Teri” and “Coach Teri” would just be other layers of masks on an empty face.
The second shock of pain came after my very first “Teri’s Ticklers” on Facebook. I felt extremely vulnerable and insecure immediately after posting it. What if it wasn’t funny? What if no one liked it? What is it about a new creative endeavor that can feel like you are presenting your heart on a silver platter for the world to play with?
Self-Acceptance. True Self. New Expressions.
These can be very painful learning experiences. But what if they weren’t? “What if they were freeing?” What if instead of protecting myself I began to unveil myself? What if instead of hiding, I could live my truth? What if I were finally FREE?
A lovely thought. 🙂 How about you?
Much love, many blessings. ❤
“Every appearance in the visible world tends to produce a corresponding form in the mind, which observes it; and this can only be prevented by holding the thought of the TRUTH. To look upon the appearance of disease will produce the form of disease in your own mind, and ultimately in your body, unless you hold the thought of the truth, which is that there is no disease; it is only an appearance, and the reality is health. To look upon the appearances of poverty will produce corresponding forms in your own mind, unless you hold to the truth that there is no poverty; there is only abundance. To think health when surrounded by the appearances of disease, or to think riches when in the midst of appearances of poverty, requires power; but he who acquires this power becomes a MASTER MIND. He can conquer fate; he can have what he wants.” — from The Science of Getting Rich by Wallace Wattles, Chapter 4, page 19
This is another incredible read. Every day I am reading chapters 4,7, 11, and 14 of this book, as recommended by Mary Morrissey in my Quantum Leap class. I read aloud and recorded those 4 chapters and have listened to them every day for the past few weeks. As I begin implementing my morning routine again, I’ve made it a part of the very beginning of my day. Every time I listen a particular part strikes me. I’ve been thinking about the above passage a lot lately.
Especially in a time of darkness, or feeling stuck, this passage reveals a wonderful truth: My “reality” isn’t real. If the true nature of our bodies is health, our natural state is health — then our circumstances are of our creation. We need to believe in our natural state; we can keep our attention on our natural state of health. The same goes for abundance. Wattles talks about knowing you are rich, in all circumstances. This is something I just read in Rich Dad, Poor Dad, as I blogged on Sunday. The Rich Dad knows he is actually rich, holding that mindset even when he is struggling financially. Do you remember those WWJD bracelets? We have sometimes asked: “What would Jesus do?” We might also ask: “What would my rich (or abundant or healthy!) self do?”
Start noticing what you’re noticing in your day-to-day life. Be aware of your current environment and your thoughts about it. Start to notice what is “real.” Start to realize what is “truth.”
Much love, much health, and much abundance to you all! ❤
Forever I’ve wanted to be authentic. I’ve wanted it so desperately, and it temporarily cost me a friendship. And since then I was afraid to ever embrace it again.
But I still want it wholeheartedly. Even when I think I don’t. Even when I am more comfortable not being authentic, I WANT it. I do not choose lies out of fear, but inside my soul cries out for the truth. I want to be me. I know this to be true — it is so clear — I cannot be there for others, not be judgement-free of others because I will not let me be me. Is that why I lack confidence? Is that why I lack strength? Because of my lack of authenticity?
Because everywhere I turn, people tell me to be fake. The boss/employer will not want to hear that. You can’t say that. You can’t share how you feel. You can’t speak the truth. People want the lies.
How can that be? I know the lies are comforting. They are nice. I feel good when they are said to me. But how do I grow without the truth? How do I learn to face the pain of my own faults when I avoid the truth? No. . . though I don’t want to hear it, I know I NEED it. And I too want to be truthful.
Fear. I live in fear. I am tired of living in fear. I want to be free. I want to be me. I want to spread my wings and leave the cocoon. When I was in college, I left my country. When I started a career, I left my religion. As I am changing now, I must release the shackles and leave my old self. I will be me.