Time has been on my mind a lot this past month. It’s something that I want desperately and also something that stresses me out immeasurably. I know I’ve come to this Earth with many, many lessons to learn. I have a feeling I’m not even aware of at least half of them. Today I woke up with the intention to prioritize my time.
How do I spend the majority of my time? By my estimation, these are the top areas:
1) Sleep 2) Metaphysics 3) Work 4) Worry 5) Facebook/E-mail/Other Internet 6) Castle/Other relaxation. 7) Cleaning
1) The greatest chunk of my day is spent on sleeping (1/3 or more), and I’m still struggling to get up early. I’m beginning to think that I should just let myself sleep and get things done later in the day. Since I don’t have an early morning job, my mind and body see no reason to leave happy-subconscious-land. And so I continue to berate myself — later, having to forgive myself — for not getting up on time. So, for this week, I’m allowing myself the extra sleep. I still need to figure out why I don’t want to leave the bed — I know there is something that needs to be addressed there — but for this week I’m not going to fight it, and I’m going to see what happens.
2) I don’t spent tons of time on Metaphysics per say, but I know I’m getting in at least an hour every day between writing down my dreams, doing my exercises, sometimes reading a book for class, and making connections to metaphysics in my daily life. It is a solid part of me now, and I’m glad for that consistency.
3 and 4) These two need to go together because most of my worry is about work. So, I’m either working or worrying about work. This is something that I’ve been struggling with for a long time. I thought it would go away when I left teaching full-time, and then teaching part-time. Alas, the worries still hound me. So, I’ve finally figured out that it’s not the job. It’s me. I think staying in the moment could be a big help here. Also, more time management.
5) I don’t spend as much time on the Internet as I have in the past. I’m not on it as long. But now I’m just checking it more frequently. And now that I’m waiting to hear about a very exciting job opportunity, I feel I have even more of an excuse to come running back to my laptop every hour. (More on that in a future post.) This is an area where I can definitely start looking at how I spend my time. (*I checked Facebook at least once while writing this blog.)
6) Something that Brian and I like to do together is watch a show together. Though the shows are enjoyable, they are generally 45 minutes long, and one episode can turn into 2, or sometimes 3. That’s 1.5 or 2ish hours gone from each day that I could be spending on creative outlets. So, this is another area I would like to explore.
7) Cleaning. Ugh. I do like cleaning sometimes. In fact, I become an overly-zealous cleaner when I’m avoiding #3. However, overall it seems to take so much time and effort, and neither Brian or I are neat-freaks, so preparing for company can be quite an ordeal. We keep things pretty picked up for the most part, but the actual de-furring, dusting, vacuuming, and scrubbing are a struggle. Mostly we are weekend warriors (or at least, I am) who spend half the day cleaning before a big event at our place. This gets the job done, but, again, it’s a struggle and pretty unpleasant. My latest cleaning project has been our new fish tank (new for us, but we got it off of Craigslist, so quite a bit of cleaning and prep has been required) that I plan on finishing after this post. (Mind is beginning to worry about it as I type this.)
8) Yes, I know there’s no number 8. This is the number that should be up there at the top. It’s my creativity time. Thankfully, I’m off to a good start today. My tutoring lessons were cancelled for today, so I took the opportunity to write this blog, and I already feel much better for having done it. I’m still struggling with resisting play time/creative time. You’d think it would be easy to have fun, but I think creativity has seemed like another job/chore that I’m supposed to do each day, and that’s the mentality I’ve got to change. Clearly playing around on the Internet and Castle are a lot easier for me to fall into, so I need to make sure my play time doesn’t resemble work time so much.
That’s my current status. I’d like to see where I am in a week. Also, I need to blog every day again. I’m going to add that consistency to my daily metaphysics exercises. I’m already in that habit, so I’m just going to pretend they go together. So, you will be hearing from me again tomorrow. 🙂