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46 Days ‘Til el Camino: The Valleys

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There is definitely something to be said for taking decisive action.  For me it was buying that plane ticket.  I knew that cemented things for me.  And that’s so important to me now, as the honeymoon period of a brand-new, beautiful idea is petering out.  Do I still want to walk el Camino?  Absolutely.  Do I still plan to?  Definitely. But without that plane ticket, I may have been tempted to hedge a bit this week.

It was one of those weeks for me.  More easily agitated.  A little less motivated.  Thank goodness I still walked, though. I felt much better once I’d started.  I was a bit sore Monday evening and then Tuesday day after that 3-hour walk on Monday.  It’s good to know the muscles are changing.  Wednesday and today I took one-hour walks with a half-packed backpack, and this weekend I intend to walk another 3-hour walk with an even fuller backpack. (Tomorrow I swim.)

I’m changing.  Some of it feels good, and some of it doesn’t.  My self-confidence has definitely improved (although this week it dipped back down a bit).  I feel like I’m also becoming more assertive and less flexible.  I’m not sure how I feel about that.  But it has meant that my resentment levels have dropped, and that definitely feels better.  I’m more focused, more directed . . .  and more stubborn. 🙂  It’s all a learning process, right?

So much I could say, but this is good for today.

Much love, many blessings. ❤

Movie Monday: Building a Foundation for Growth

Are you working toward your vision?  Seeking growth and self-improvement?  Make sure you have a solid foundation to build the faith and trust in yourself to move forward.

Ode to Myself, or “On Why I Am So Awesome”

As part of my new plan for positivity and confidence, I am now going to enumerate why I am so fabulous.

Most importantly, I am awesome because I am.  I exist.  I breathe.  I move.  I share the same energy as every other part of this fantastic universe.  I am just fantastic by being here, by being me.  (And I would be fabulous in alternate dimensions, too.)

Anything else I list doesn’t compare, but I will continue anyway. . .

I am a renaissance woman.  I want to be a part of EVERYTHING.  I want to play softball, play volleyball, join theater, join band, sing, be in book clubs, go on trips, go biking, have pets, know all about the world, become an activist, become a gardener!, watch all the new documentaries, go to museums!, learn to cook, work out, go dancing, write write write!  I want to DO IT ALL.  And I do.  I have done all of those things.  Most recently,  I joined a theater production, which is something that I have dreamed of doing for a long, long time.  And I DID IT.

Also, I’m pretty awesome because I just took a whole bunch of tests for Wyzant, a tutoring service, and I passed 26 of them.  Oh yeah, I did.  And that included the likes of SAT Reading, SAT Math, SAT Writing, Biology, and some Math and History subjects that I am tickled pink that I remember.  (I’ve still got it, baby!)

I am determined.  Once I set my mind to something, there is no stopping me.  I work hard.  I believe in doing the job, doing it right, and getting it done.

I am genuine.  I’ve been told that I wear my feelings on my sleeve.  I may feel vulnerable, but it also means I am being my true self.

I am a risk-taker.  I am willing to take a chance, not wanting to look back at my life when I’m 100, realizing I never lived at all.

I am strong.  I can withstand sickness.  I withstand trials.  I withstand disappointment and learn from failure.

I care.  I know I was put on this Earth for some purpose and that we all were.  I know there is more to life than ME (even with how awesome I am :-)).  I want to help this Earth rediscover the glory it once knew and be a part of the evolution of this planet.

And I am awesome because I choose to be.  I can do anything!

Wowza!  I feel awesome already!

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An End to Dual Language

The yin and the yang. . . They are not separate. They are one!

Actually, I am a huge proponent of dual language programs.  But that can be another post. . .

What I mean is, I no longer want to be part of “us” vs. “them.”  I want to look at something for what it is and not pick sides.  I am a part of everyone and everything.  And even though there are some things and people I am not pleased with at the present, I can make that part of the past.  As long as I dwell on what was, I am not being a part of what IS.  And what is, is right now: sitting on the couch and typing this post.  That is all.

And I also want to work on what thoughts and language I use toward myself.  Becoming self-confident starts there.  If I believe I can’t do something, I won’t.  If I believe I’m not something, I won’t be.   People give me encouragement; I’m given signs — but I don’t believe them.

I want to be the type of person that I want to be with.  I don’t want to be critical.  I don’t want to be self-conscious and afraid, overly apologetic and pushed aside.   I know that once I believe in myself and stop criticizing myself, I will stop judging others.    I will open myself up to positive experiences.

I can do this.  I am awesome.  I will find awesomeness.

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