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Friday Fun: Story Time — “The Wanna-Be Strawberry Plants”

Image courtesy of Serge Bertasius Photography /

Image courtesy of Serge Bertasius Photography /

There was a young man who had a new garden and wished to grow strawberries.  He had transplanted some strawberry plants in the garden last year, and he anticipated them coming back again.

However, there were many rabbits in the area.  Last year the rabbits and chipmunks had not been a problem.  However, this year there were the rabbits had proliferated, and the plants were very young and vulnerable.

The man erected a wire fence around the garden, hammering down stakes and attaching the fencing with zip ties.  However the hold was flimsy, and the man was disappointed to find the plants eaten away.

Then, he staple-gunned the fence to the wooden frame that lined the garden.  However, the rabbits still ravaged the young plants, and the plants couldn’t produce fruit.

The man wished to next put a wire hatch cover over the garden to completely protect the strawberries from the rabbits.  However, he believed he had invested significant time in this undertaking, it was late in the season, and he was losing motivation and also any hope that the strawberry plants would still produce.

How would your story end?  Do you have faith in the ideas you have planted?  Can you visualize the fruit they will produce and how you will benefit — are you giving them enough attention?  What is the habit that is eating your creation?  Is it your negative thinking, your doubts and fears?  Is your will strong enough to protect your offspring from this habit so that it can grow and flourish?  And how else can you support,  love, and encourage growth?


Let it Be

"Clouds" courtesy of Janaka Dharmasena /

“Clouds” courtesy of Janaka Dharmasena /

I hate experiencing panic. And the worst part is that logically the stimulus often seems completely ridiculous.

Today I was having a conversation, and I thought I detected a negative emotion in the person’s response. After we finished our conversation, I spent the next half hour fretting about it. Did I upset the other person? Offend? Did the person take what I said personally? Or think what I said was dumb, maybe? Or insensitive?  I don’t think other people freak out about these things as much as I do.  My logical brain told me that this was not a big deal.  It told me I could move on.  But my insides were all a flutter.  I was full of this negative energy, this worry, and all that I could think about was that I wanted that energy gone.  And that I couldn’t get rid of it.

Sigh.  I’ve thought it over since I’ve eventually calmed down, and what I’ve decided is that I just have to live through it.  Live through the negative energy and know that “This too shall pass.”  When I’ve tried to rid myself of the energy, it has been fruitless.  A punching bag does no good.  Exercise doesn’t necessarily cure it.  Trying to will it away or relax it away doesn’t help.  Talking myself through it only works sometimes.  Distraction and time are the only two sure-fire solutions.

So, I’ve decided that the next time I feel awful, I’m just going to let myself feel awful.  Just let the energy take its course.  I remember reading somewhere that if you just let a feeling be without attaching anything to it, it will go away in 45 seconds.  And if it gets to the point where I can’t take it anymore, I’ll just have to find a way to distract myself.  But eventually it will pass.  It is not the end of the world, even if it does feel that way at the time.

Energy Check, Please!

"Pink Abstract Backgrounds" courtesy of photoraidz /

“Pink Abstract Backgrounds” courtesy of photoraidz /

I’ve been paying attention to my energy lately and noticing when it’s pretty negative.  It’s been even more apparent now that I’m eating better and exercising more — if I’m negative and cranky, I usually chalk it up to what I’ve eaten or not getting enough exercise or sleep, etc — but now I feel like I have no excuse and need to monitor more of what’s coming out.

Areas I need to look at are gossip and home life.  I’m pretty good at working the positive energy with people I encounter, but Brian and Bowser get the brunt of my venting.  And in the last couple of days I’ve been gossiping a bit about work-related things and about people from my past, and I could just feel the negative energy oozing out like a toxic sludge.  If it felt that unpleasant coming out, it must have been just as awful for those taking it in.

So, starting now I resolve to continue monitoring my energy output and to sift what goes through my mouth.

Health Summary: Improved diet?  Check.  Improved sleep?  Check.  Improved exercise?  Check.  Improved energy?  In process. . .

Just Do It — Be Happy!

I am inspired to write this post based on experiences this week, most recently, reading the blog post Get Happy by Amy Keast.  If you get the chance, check out the video she posted, too.  It was different and really interesting.

So, basically, if you’ve been following my blog, you’ve gathered that I’ve been struggling a lot.  A lot of what’s happening around me frustrates me, and I feel afraid and powerless.  My life is at a cross-roads, and sometimes I don’t know where to turn with my frustration and anxiety.  Often I’ve turned to addictions like bad food and beverages, which is presently wreaking havoc on my digestive system.

What I have found interesting, though, is the people and experiences that I have found attracted to me (or perhaps I am attracted to them?)  Although I feel that my thoughts are dark and my perceptions are dismal, I keep finding myself surrounded by happy, hopeful people.  I don’t know if this means I actually do want to be happy and have hope, or if the spiritual force here in our universe is nudging me in that direction.  I think it’s both.

Here’s what I’ve noticed:

1) The people who respond to and like my posts are happy people.  Many of them seem enlightened and/or really creative, and some have recently gotten through a struggle of their own.

2) I’ve been getting some good kicks in the pants from my friend and coworkers, that really make me squirmy inside.  One of my great friends, who somehow always manages to look on the bright side had this phone conversation with me:

Me: “I’m so miserable.  I had an awful day.  I don’t know what to do anymore.”

Her: “What do you think about in the morning?”

Me: “I hate ___________; I hate _______________; I hate _______________”

Her: “Ah, so you’re attracting negative energy to yourself every day.”

Me: “Yep”

Let me say, I believe what has been happening to me has been good.  It has been necessary for my growth process.  And I believe dissatisfaction is necessary for change; it can be the necessary push to get out of a static position and move to the next phase in your life.  However. . .  I also believe I have become one of those people.  I’m one of those who complains all of the time to those I’m close to and drags myself out of bed and through each day.  I remember when I used to be on the other side, observing grouchy people and thinking: “If they only knew that they were drawing this to themselves.”  Because negativity breeds negativity.  In this case, opposites do not attract.   But negativity can also be like a drug.  It is powerful and can give a false feeling of strength, which can become another bad addiction.  I’m not sure I’m ready to give it up yet.  But I know I need to.  I do.

3) Yesterday’s conversation with another co-worker really put me at peace.  This woman has faith, too.  I could feel it flow from her during our conversation.  She told me that I was a great person and that I would be ok.  We would all be ok.  And I could feel she believed it.  She told me that she had always had faith in her God and that God had never let her down.  I realized, as I listened to her, that I had experienced the same.  Though I am no longer religious, I do believe in a spiritual power or energy that encompasses everything in the universe — I feel it would be foolish to deny it because I have felt it and known it.   I don’t know exactly what it is, or how it works, but I know that when I’ve been at the end of my rope, and  I’ve let go, turning myself over to faith, I’ve felt comforted.  I have always come out ok.  But then, the next time I face a challenge, I often forget my previous success and feel the world is falling around me, all over again.

I could write pages on this.  For now, I end with this:  I am inspired by people who have lost their innocence, who have discovered the evils of the world, and who still persevere in faith.  I get choked up, even typing these words.  I feel I walked blindly through most of my life, and I survived that way.  Now that my eyes are open, I must rediscover faith.

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