Actually, every week is karma week. Karma is the Law of Cause and Effect, and we live it in every moment. With every choice we make, we choose a path, that leads us down a particular road. To a new collection of places.
Emotions are wonderful teachers. I’ve had some strong emotions rise up the last few weeks. Some have already been resolved. Some are still hanging out, ready to teach me.
I welcome this opportunity without judgement. (I also welcome this as an opportunity to release judgement!)
I seek to observe (but not judge). To marvel and not impose. To appreciate the workings of karma in my life and the lives of others, seeing it for the wonderful teacher that it is. (Up until now, not often easy to do!)
Have a wonderful karmic day, everyone! (Got squeamish a bit, just saying that!)
I took an Akashic Records class this weekend at Equilibrium in Chicago. I was really nervous about it because I’d read the book on it and listened to some of the CD, but I hadn’t felt like I knew for sure I was doing it. I really wanted a teacher to tell me how I was doing and classmates to practice with. I also wanted to believe it was working. I decided that if the class went well, I would take more classes; if it didn’t, I was done with classes. I would try again to go it alone.
But the class was wonderful, and I got exactly what I’d hoped for, and I’ll be going back in November for an advanced class. In the meantime, they say we have all the tools we need to get started, so I’ll be practicing, practicing, practicing! And I will write tomorrow’s blog post from within the records.
I had so many dreams last Friday morning! This after telling the acupuncturist two days before that I wasn’t remembering my dreams. Thank you, Source and All for the good of all concerned!
My favorite was the flying dreams. I absolutely adore flying dreams. In this one an object was allowing me to fly. I believe it was something like the obsidian ball I received recently as a gift. I couldn’t readily control it — I kinda had to get it revved up somehow, but when I did — wow, I really soared! At the end of the flying sequence I was heading down a road and then suddenly shot high into the air. (“This is wonderful!” I thought.) I was flying down the highway, high in the air. But I was carrying a lot, in my arms, and I worried about dropping something. Then, I did. I immediately dropped to the ground to retrieve it. As I was gathering myself, I saw a young man walking toward me. I was worried he was up to no good and desperately tried to elevate myself again. Finally, I was able to, and I shot off again. The same man (or a version of him) showed up a little later in my dream/s. He was asking me if I could see into a point of time. He wanted to know what happened to his girlfriend. I said I couldn’t do that (I only knew I could fly, but then I sort of was suddenly 2 people), and I saw the other self start to reach out and then ask for the person’s name. And this person was able to bring back the image of what happened (Kind of reminding me of the part of Harry Potter when they move backward through time.) We could see that where the girl was heading was no good, (out the door with some people), and we were shaking our heads about it.
There were some other dreams. In one that was related to the obsidian one, I was in a metaphysical/spiritual shop. There was a table of crystals, and I was thinking of choosing one. I was watching how my body was reacting, moving forward or backward when I picked it up. When I reflected back, I realized there was one I had leaned forward for, but when I picked it up again, I moved back. I settled on another item in the store, and it was a large ceramic candle holder that could hold two taper candles inside. There was wording on the other side, and it was in a different language, but I could make out the cognate for Catholic.
Random other dreams: sitting in a chair next to a woman with a puppy. The puppy is “disturbing” me, and the woman moves away to not bother me, but I’m not really bothered. I enjoy the contact. I am running away from a bad man, along with some other people. (Maybe a kidnapper?) I have family over for a party (like the reception we’re planning). But it’s at our house. And we have some food, but it’s a little unorganized. One of our friends asks if she can use the vacuum, since she spilled parts of a taco shell on the floor, and I then notice/realize that we didn’t vacuum before the guests came, and really, the whole floor needs to be vacuumed. I also was conscious of recently having another party, like a birthday party, and I felt a little weird about having two parties so close together. And something about a few of my cousins going to a very fancy party in Russia (very elaborate clothes and drawing room).
What sticks out most to me is they flying dream. The feeling of complete freedom and bliss I experienced. It’s also significant that I was flying along a highway (headed in a clear direction), headed “home”, and also that I was carrying a lot of stuff. I can definitely use this dream as a reminder to LET GO. Release the baggage, and release the past. This can hold me back. I can also look into the thought forms that have helped me to fly. Focusing back on my vision, and working with — and talking about — my written vision has definitely helped elevate me. I’m also changing my diet and activity.
The Catholic part is intriguing. I get the sense that my Catholic upbringing is a tool. Though I don’t identify with the being religious, my spiritual upbringing is a gift that can be used to connect to my inner Self, Source, and love.
Parts of the other dreams may be precognitive dreams or reflections of my current focus. I am very focused on the akashic records and learning to read them, and I seem to to have been doing something like a reading in one dream. The vacuuming dream reminds me of going out to lunch with one of my tutoring families — and being surprised that the mom wished to ride in the car with me. (My car is currently a mess and could use all sorts of cleaning!)
I look forward to continued visits in the dream world, especially as I focus on going deeper and deeper!
Here’s to your dreams. ❤ Much love and many blessings.
Some people want to improve their lives, but they don’t want to do anything differently. They are addicted to their way of being. To improve one’s life and make the difference on the planet requires trying different ways of being. Sometimes it requires challenge and sacrifice, but sometimes it’s just about enjoying the journey.
It has been six years since I started my journey to know myself. I had no idea at that time where I was going to end up, and that allowed me the freedom to have new experiences and to be different, From my heart I knew that there had to be something more out there because nothing that I was doing was fulfilling me.
Some parts of the journey have felt like a struggle, and in other parts I am reaping the fruit of my efforts. The first step in my journey was exploring discipline, and I experienced how powerful it was. I learned the influence of discipline on my feelings and emotions, and I started to understand my environment at a deeper level. I also became aware of other people’s behavior around me and the influence of our thoughts and our choices on each other and each other’s behavior.
I fell in love with discipline, meditation, and spiritual exercises, that allows me to be in the present moment and get me closer and closer to have a quiet mind. I started practicing self-observation and objectivity with my thought; this process allowed me to discover all the baggage that I needed to change or get rid of. At some points I was face-to-face with anger, self-pity, and sorrow. Sometimes I reacted, blamed, and complained, blending all of those emotions. In those moments I realized the effect of discipline and commitment in the process of spiritual development, in being able to see how I was actually creating my reality. I also observed past patterns of thinking, including coping mechanisms I used to hide myself in, using unproductive habits like overworking or excessive internet use when things got tough. Then instead I started developing ways that I could be in those challenging emotions, experiencing them. I observed myself in the present moment, observed how I was creating the experience. I could then see if the feeling was habitual, an addictive behavior that was that an unconscious reaction to the experience. In that process, I learned that I had so many wounds that I needed to heal, like blaming other for triggering a negative emotion. I realized it was something that I learned at home when I was little. Through this process I began to discover and trace how I developed my personality, and how I became who I am.
I also started to observe the usefulness of discipline to consciously create in my life. This is something that I have always enjoyed. I see the benefits of discipline in creating a business and focusing on one direction without the hassle of the standard ways of marketing, just maintaining the positive and direct thoughts of serving and loving what I do.
The objectivity and mindfulness I have developed has helped me stay conscious in my work. The unconscious habit that I catch myself in is thinking that just working harder is going to help me to solve a problem in the business, in my life or in being ‘productive.’ I think I am going to fill some emptiness. In those moments I now stop and look for what I am avoiding, what problem or what emotion I need to face.
In the journey of breaking my addictive behavior, I have found that the most important thing is to experience a deeper understanding of love. I am looking to receive all new people in my life into my heart, to experience divine friendship. Also, just as importantly, I look to experience and practice self love.
I’ve been looking for joy, and I found it today! It was a wonderful day today. I started with concentration and meditation exercises. Then I went to the Y to swim, followed by a super hot shower and a few minutes in the sauna. As I drove home, I listed all the things I was grateful for. Then I headed over to see my mom and sis and we cooked up some food, listened to some metaphysical goodness and did some visioning homework. We also did some goofy dancing and, my sister and I ended our visit with singing a few harmonized duets together. (“Come What May” from Moulin Rouge, “I Still Believe” from Miss Saigon, and “We Make a Beautiful Pair” from Shenandoah. Then I headed over to the School of Metaphysics. I had a pleasant, long talk with the director and then borrowed some audio recordings of some more awesome metaphysical content from one of my classmates. (We plan on getting together to work on the study course together.) Then, I attended the last class of the Spiritual Ethics course, led the Healing Service for the week, and had a jam session with the director and my dad in preparation for the Universal Hour of Peace on December 31st at the school. On my way home I listened to some of my more recent intuitive reports. All in all a truly wonderful day. I can’t wait to see what I dream about tonight. (And, subconscious mind, PLEASE give me something that I can understand. Seriously.)
Wishing you all a wonderfully, joyous week! ❤
Photo explanation: This was my creation for the day, my artsy outfit. (It looks a little better in person.) What’s fun about this is that every piece has a little story. I’ve had my glasses for around 5 years. (Thankfully, my vision hasn’t changed much.) One of the earpieces is chewed away from when Bowser was still in his chewing phase. The scarf is a recent purchase from Clothes Mentor, a resale shop near my house, after I first started changing my look to more of a Type 1 from Dressing Your Truth. The turtleneck is a Kohl’s purchase when I was looking for some simple backup tops for teaching. The necklace is Lia Sophia that I won at one of my friends’ parties. The purple frilled vest is a recent gift from one of my Metaphysics students after she noticed my wardrobe shift. The skirt is a purchase from a visit to Maplewood, Missouri during an SOM teacher’s conference. One of the girls had forgotten her teacher’s skirt, so we went walking to the nearby clothing shops together before the first meeting started, and we each purchased a skirt. The bright pink tights are from when I was in a Back Street Boys 80’s dance with other teachers from the elementary school where I used to work. The socks are. . . just regular socks. I think I ordered them on Amazon. And the shoes are ones that I was recently reunited with when my Mom was cleaning out her things. (They are so cute and perfectly snug around my narrow feet! Such a happy reunion. <3)
I just came back from the Still Mind Weekend in Windyville, Missouri. It was fantastic. I didn’t want to come back. . . mostly because I didn’t want to deal with the odds and ends that were waiting for me back at home. But I realized 2 things with that thought: 1. I need to honor my entire existence, including the physical (Can’t avoid it!). 2. All this stuff is really not a big deal in the whole picture of existence, anyway (so no point in freaking out about it).
I got my 4th intuitive report in the last 5 months. I really did not intend to get that many reports this year (and at once!). I just wanted the Creative Mind report and the Dharma report this year. Buuuut I jumped on the Meditation report when it moved weekends — I’d really been wanting that one. And I really wanted to get another Health Analysis report in solidarity with my metaphysics students who were getting theirs. (Great decision.) I’m glad it worked out this way because all 4 have been connected and have helped me understand myself better and my purpose this lifetime.
So, in a nutshell, I need to be with people, and I need to help people. This idea was cemented for me when I listened to all 11 of my intuitive reports back-to-back on the ride back from Windyville. My first past life profile from my earlier lessons says: “This one needs to aid others in the way that this one has been aided.” And all 4 of my recent intuitive reports mention people. My Creative Mind report says that I open my creative mind when I emulate others. My Dharma report says that I need to understand, respect, and appreciate others’ kharma — what they are working on in this lifetime. My health analysis says that I need to share my imaginative visions with others while having a healthy respect for others’ thoughts, ideas, and gifts. And my Meditation report says that I need to better understand influence — how it affects me and others — and to use it in leadership and for understanding, for the good of all concerned.
It is then no wonder that I get out of my mental slumps when I get out of the house and am around people. It is no wonder that I LOVE teaching metaphysics and enjoy helping my tutoring students. When I get wrapped up in my own thoughts I am in ego and conscious mind. When I am with others I reconnect with subconscious and superconscious mind. I suspect that the plan tucked away in my superconscious mind is basically about serving others to the benefit of humanity. My last report says I’ve already been putting things in place for the work I’m to do. I am in a service field: tutoring and teaching. I have expanded my volunteer work in the School of Metaphysics (teaching, lecturing, attending events, becoming the director-in-training). And I intend to serve through media, too, by continuing to blog and to start writing inspirational children’s stories.
A lot of what we talk about in the school comes down to purpose. Why are we doing what we’re doing? My answer: serving others for the good of all concerned.
Sending you all love, joy, and renewed insight into your purpose for this lifetime! ❤
Image of the World Headquarters in Windyville, Missouri (www.som.org), location of the Still Mind Weekend.