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A Joyedien’s Tale: Angel Number 195


Dear angels, God, Ascended Masters, Entities of Light, saints, Mother Gaia (Earth) . . .  and any and all beings for the good of all concerned, thank you for another day and for being a part of it.

This post is a little overdue.  Soon after my last post, I spoke again with my husband Brian and discovered that we were still on the same page afterall.  We just both acknowledged that this transition from living in a home to living on the road could be a challenge, even mentally.  As someone who had lived a month with only the contents of her backpack, the idea was a lot easier for me personally to grasp.  We have time to adjust.

Today on the odometer I saw 195,195 (Almost to 200,000 baby! — Side Note: Giving up my car will probably be THE HARDEST thing for me to give up when we go mobile.)  When I looked up the angel number meaning from Doreen Virtue’s Angel Numbers 101, I immediately resonated with the message.

The changes that you are making are well timed.  You are clear about what you will and won’t accept in your life.  These changes put you on the path of your Divine Mission . . .  and will result in you helping others to do the same.

I connect with this on 2 points:

1.It encourages me to continue with my dream of going mobile (living on the road).  My forward momentum took a hit yesterday when a strong internal emotional struggle (mouthful!) tore at my resolve, but I’m getting back on track.  It reminds me that following my dream will inspire others to do the same.

2.It encourages me to continue through my struggles.  I’m not sure how it happened, but suddenly I felt myself enmeshed in some of the biggest karmic lessons of my current lifetime (and before!): facing potential confrontation, boundary-setting, perception of value, perception of time, and self-judgement.  Perhaps not surprisingly, it was the last that nearly shredded me to pieces, but what I found most interesting was that I didn’t even recognize it — or its impact — until my coach pointed it out to me.  The more I open my awareness to judgement, the more I realize how powerful it can really be.

Here’s to your learnings!  Here’s to your dreams!  Much love and many blessings. ❤

60 Days ‘Til El Camino: What?? Crazy Dreams


I like having a countdown!

Bizarre dreams this morning.  Sorry for the mish-mosh.  In one I was in a very open area that was kind of like a girl’s locker room or bathroom with a reception desk (I think there was a woman there), and I had stepped into the shower. Soon after my dad stepped in!  I was very uncomfortable.  I didn’t want him in there, and I didn’t think that he would be allowed in the woman’s area, but he insisted they would be fine with us sharing the shower.

My other dreams kind of morphed together.  One started with a murderess that we were trying to prepare for.  We knew she was going to try to kill us, and the time was getting closer, and we were trying to think on what to do to prepare for her. I think we may have killed her first in the end (but it’s unclear).  There are other fragments that may or may-not have connected to that one.  But in one there were many of us in a room and we heard something that may have come from that murderess.  It may have been an ominous spoken message.

In another part I was in my parents’ old backroom bedroom, and my sister and Mom were lying on a bed.  I think I thought my sister had died and was surprised to see her back.  At one point I think she may have been missing a hand or part of her hand had decayed or something.  And then there was a separate, whole hand (hers?), and I was freaked out and trying to figure out what to do with it, and I think Mom and sis were telling me to get rid of it.  There was a whole in the floor, and I think I dropped it in there.  There was a zombie-like feel to this dream, but I can’t remember exactly.  Like maybe my sister had regenerated or parts of her.  Or maybe the murderess?  Or maybe they were the same person?

Then there was a mosh of other dreams.  I was at the tutoring center, and the boss was presenting, and he had a Powerpoint that we all had on our devices.  I was reading along with his presentation, and he told me to stop and pay attention, like he thought I was goofing around on the computer? — But I was paying attention!

I was at an event, there was a pre part.  I think there was some presenting going on by ladies, maybe by teachers from my old district.  They did ok but weren’t completely organized.  Then, everyone moved out of the room across the way to the big event.  There were many, many tables, and they were filled with people.  I knew I had decided not to be a part of this, and I was ok with this and deciding to be happy for their success (maybe a tinge of regret).  I set down my walkie into the charger and made my way to the door.

There was also a part with maybe an old friend(female) or an aunt, and we were walking about where there was this indoor display of shoes hanging from a small wire box enclosure, kind of like an open cage.  The person with me was taking shoes off the hanging hooks and looking at them.  A woman came by and warned us to be more gentle.  The shoes looked like they were for smaller feet, maybe size 5, and I think they were labeled as Jacqueline Kennedy.

I haven’t had such vivid dreams in a while.  I guess they stuck with me because of some of the extreme emotions (fear).  When I last received a report I was told to relax into my dreams, not over-analyze them, but me more intuitive with them– and the meanings would come.  I’m going to sit with them a while and see what comes up.

Dreams tend to be a re-play of the last 24-48 hours, though sometimes it may be a longer period, and sometimes dreams are precognitive, problem-solving, visitation dreams, or even other worldly!

My alma mater, the School of Metaphysics is having it’s 29th National Dream Hotline® this weekend.  Coincidence?  I think not!  Check out for more information or go directly to the hotline numbers.

More to come on el Camino. And I may have a follow up on the dreams!

Much love and many blessings. ❤


A Haunting Dream & A Message of 2’s

ID-10059174From my dream journal yesterday:

I am living in a house that my family has just moved into.  I can’t seem to get the front door shut, and the place is clearly haunted or something.  Every time I lock the door it ends up opening, like the lock won’t hold.  At one point there is a very tall apparition, a man with the attire of the 19th century (like Pride and Prejudice clothing), and suddenly he vanishes and becomes a wolf.  And the wolf runs around through the yard.  I’m like: “Great.  A werewolf.”  Rudy and Emily pulled up earlier (in cars).  Emily has been balancing on a parking stop strip.  Rudy is amused.  Dad is there.  Rudy wants to go somewhere with me.  (I guess we have plans?)  But I keep trying to go back and make sure the door is locked and closed.  Dad and Rudy are trying to distract the werewolf because they think it is what is keeping me from coming out with them.  But it is the door that is the issue.  I run at the wolf with confidence, and it is scared away.  But I tell them about the house.  Then, I hear a low, demonic sound coming from inside. And it turns out there is this large tree (Muppet-looking) that fills up the whole room.  And there are people sitting in chairs listening to it.  And some (I don’t’ remember who) are like basically “This is a all hooey.”  And don’t even believes this demon guys and his plans/words.

What sticks out most for me is that most of my attention in this dream is one the door.  I’m so concerned about keeping things out, but it seems like the problems are already within the mind.  (Just as our environment is not the source of our issues.  Our thoughts are the source of our issues.)  There are inner parts of me that haunt me, old inner parts (the apparition), and some of it is clearly just my imagination (the tree), and I recognize this.  I also identify a habitual part of myself (the wolf) that is really no threat.  My inner authority has a plan for me, wants me to move forward (my school director and my father) and not be distracted.  I am definitely conscious of some of the ridiculousness of what is going on in my mind.

I’ve been struggling lately with faith.   I’ve felt a little disconnected from Source and from my angels.  It doesn’t mean that they aren’t trying to connect, though!  While at my referral group meeting Thursday, I noted that my “Thank You for Closed Business” amount was $2,222.  Within 10-15 minutes another 222 number popped up.  And it was rapidly followed by 111 and 1111 in some other form.  Those angel messages are all about faith and starting fresh. ID-100280151

Here is what Joanne Sacred Scribes says for Angel Number 2222:

“The number sequence 2222 indicates that newly planted ideas are beginning to take form and grow into reality for you.  Your manifestation will soon be evident, so maintain a positive attitude and continue with your good work.  Keep holding positive thoughts, continue positively affirming and keep visualizing.  The reaping of rewards is just ahead of you.”

I may not see it yet, but good things are coming!  Hold the image.  Keep the faith.  Live in gratitude and positivity.

Wishing you all lots of 2’s in your life! ❤

Images courtesy of Stuart Miles and Simon Howden at

What Energy Are YOU Emitting?

ID-100144459I’m reading Psychic Intelligence: Tune In and Discover the Power of Your Intuition by Terry & Linda Jamison.  The book includes an activity to practice seeing auras and descriptions of what the auras represent.  The aura is your outer energy field, extending beyond your physical body.

Think about what thoughts and emotions you’ve expressed today.  What color is your aura?

Here’s a snippet of each color to get you started:

Red: strength, physical and sexual energy, passion, courage

Orange: opportunity, creativity, organization, adaptability, and caring for others

Yellow: vitality, intellect, prosperity, playfulness, optimism, communication

Green: growth, change, healing, prosperity

Blue: peace, tranquility, healing, caring for others, compassion, verbal communication

Purple: passion, spirituality, psychic power, clairvoyance

White: protection, spirituality, innocence, purity

Brown: stability, grounding, practicality

Silver: Clarity of purpose

Gold: spiritual energy, inspiration

I’m thinking a little red or silver today.  Can’t see it yet.  How about you?


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 "Poppies By The Sea" courtesy of Evgeni Dinev/

“Poppies By The Sea” courtesy of Evgeni Dinev/

I don’t exactly remember the order, but this is what I remember:

I was exploring the coast along Lake Michigan, but it was rocky, and my friend was exploring down below, closer to the water.  Two creatures had washed up on a boulder below.  They were transparent like crystal, and one resembled a crawfish.  I don’t remember the other.  I pointed them out to my friend and asked her if she had noticed.  She said that she had.

My aunt was visiting with my mom for a while, and my mom dropped me and my sister off at a daycare.  I was frustrated, thinking “Aren’t we old enough?”  (And we didn’t actually have anyone watching us.  We were just dropped off at the building and had to stay inside.  I remember there being multiple rooms and staircases.)  Eventually, my aunt came to pick us back up.

I was at my house, out on a balcony, I suppose, but my house opened up to a center grassy area, surrounded by houses on all other sides, and in the distance was either the ocean or the sea.  Then, military helicopters began flying in.  I didn’t know why they were there.  They dropped of children who I assumed were there for military training.  They were marching in rows, sometimes locking arms, but they were dressed normally.  They were all white with blonde hair — I remember the girls’ long blonde curls — and some looked as young as 5 years old.

I apologize for the conglomeration of notes that follow.  I feel like there’s a lot here, but I’m not ready to pinpoint and analyze it all at this point.  Needless to say, I felt absolutely wonderful waking up this morning;I know that much!

Symbols from (leaving out what doesn’t relate):

To see a lake in your dream signifies your emotional state of mind. You feel restricted and that you can’t express your emotions freely. Alternatively, the lake may provide you with solace, security, and peace of mind. If the lake is clear and calm, then it symbolizes your inner peace.

To see a crawfish in your dream represents your tenacity.


If something is transparent, then it represents clarity and understanding.

To see a rock in your dream symbolizes strength, permanence, stability and integrity, as conveyed in the common phrase “as solid as a rock”. The dream may also indicate that you are making a commitment to a relationship or that you are contemplating some changes in your life that will lay the groundwork for a more solid foundation. Alternatively, a rock represents stubbornness, disharmony and unhappiness.

To see the coast in your dream suggests that you are on a spiritual quest. The coast symbolizes the meeting between your two states of mind – the rational and the irrational. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor of how you are “coasting”. through life. You may need to take things more seriously.�Or the dream may be telling you that “the coast is clear”. You are free to move ahead.

To dream that you are at a daycare indicates that you want to be taken care of and not have to worry about anything else. You want to go back to a simpler time. Consider the condition of the daycare for additional significance.

To see your mother in your dream represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Some people may have problems freeing themselves from their mothers and are thus seeking their own individuality and development.

To see your aunt in your dream represents family connection, heritage and value. The aunt may also represent aspects of yourself that you like or dislike. She can also be seen as a substitute mother.

To see your sister in your dream symbolizes some aspect of your relationship with her, whether it one of sibling rivalry, nurturance, protectiveness, etc. Your sister may draw attention to your family role.

To see a staircase in your dream symbolizes change and transformation.

To see an ocean in your dream represents the state of your emotions and feelings. It is indicative of spiritual refreshment, tranquility and renewal. Alternatively, the dream means that you are feeling empowered and unhindered.

To see the sea in your dream represents your subconscious and the transition between your subconscious and conscious. As with all water symbols, it also represents your emotions. The dream may also be a pun on your understanding and perception of a situation. “I see” or perhaps there is something you need to “see” more clearly. Alternatively, the dream indicates a need to reassure yourself or to offer reassurance to someone. It brings about hope, a new perspective and a positive outlook on life no matter how difficult your current problems may be.

To see a plane in your dream, may be a pun on someone or something that is “plain”. Perhaps the plane refers to a new level.

To see a house in your dream represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche.

To see an airplane in your dream indicates that you will overcome your obstacles and rise to a new level of prominence and status. You may experience a higher consciousness, new-found freedom and greater awareness. Perhaps you need to gain a better perspective or wider view on something.

To see the military in your dream signifies rigid authority and emotional repression. Perhaps you need to be more disciplined.

To see a blond person in your dream suggests that you need to enjoy life and live it up. Be a little glamorous.  

To see children in your dream signify an aspect of yourself and your childlike qualities. You may be retreating back to a childlike state and longing for the past. You are trying to still satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurture. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Alternatively, the dream may be highlighting your innocence, purity, simplicity, and carefree attitude.

To dream that you are watching children but they do not know you are there is a metaphor for some hidden knowledge or some latent talent which you have failed to recognize.

More Crazy Dreams

"Man Hand Hanging On" courtesy of olovedog /

“Man Hand Hanging On” courtesy of olovedog /

Last night I dreamt that my hair was a bit longer, and I had grabbed it in a bunch and held it in front of my face.  It was a nasty rat’s nest — so bad that I decided to just chop it off.  I took a look at the severed hair in my hand and noticed that it looked really oily with some flecks of cheese, like the veggies I had last weekend at Ted’s Montana grill.  Then suddenly they turned into green beans.


To see hair in your dream signifies sexual virility, seduction, sensuality, vanity, and health.  It is indicative of your attitudes. If your hair is knotted or tangled, then it is symbolic of uncertainty and confusion in your life. You may be unable to think straight. If you dream that you make a drastic change to your hairstyle, then it means that you are making a drastic, new approach to some issue in your waking life.

To dream that you are cutting your hair suggests that you are experiencing a loss in strength. You may feel that someone is trying to censor you. Alternatively, you may be reshaping your thinking or ambitions and eliminating unwanted thoughts/habits.

To see vegetables in your dream signify your need for spiritual nourishment. It may also indicate that you are lacking in a particular nutrient. Look up the specific vegetable for additional interpretation.

(I could not find “green beans” on the site.)

The night before I dreamt of something like a “Leaps and Bounds” — an indoor playground/obstacle course — except in this particular play area, the ramps moved around like the staircases in Harry Potter’s dorms.  Not only that, but the drop off was far —  to who knows how far — and I’ve always had a slight fear of heights. . .

It was kind of hard to describe and find what was in my dream, so this is the best I could come up with (“heights” and “high” were not in there):

Obstacle Course
To dream that you are going through an obstacle course symbolizes the hardships and difficulties that you are experiencing in your waking life. It represents the things that you must overcome in order to reach your goals. The elements in the obstacle course is analogous to the barriers and problems in your life.

To dream that you are on a playground indicates your desires to escape from your daily responsibilities. Perhaps you need to be more carefree. You need to acknowledge your talents.

To dream that you are standing at the edge of a cliff indicates that you have reached an increased level of understanding, new awareness, and a fresh point of view. You have reached a critical point in your life and cannot risk losing control. Alternatively, it suggests that you are pondering a life-altering decision.

Monkey Bars
To see or play on the monkey bars in your dream denotes the carefree nature of childhood. Alternatively, it represents your strength, competence, determination and ability to achieve your goals. Don’t give up.

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