I’m starting a new life. I never imagined this, but my real self has been wanting this. I’ve gone from a girl who followed the crowd to a girl who is making some waves. I always felt like I was meant for something “bigger.” I’ve finally found it. The universe brought me to it (with a little help from family)! 2 years ago I started my first business (Early Education Enrichment with Cindy Venckus). At this time next week I will have launched my second business” a Life Mastery Consultant with Mary Morrissey.
It’s funny how things turn out, work out. Being a teacher and tutor — besides having some wonderfully fulfilling moments — has prepared me for this. Becoming a student of the School of Metaphysics has prepared me for this. These days I’m noticing that I sometimes have trouble seeing the whole big picture. I have trouble imagining what can be. I have an inkling, and then the universe fills in the rest. Would things be even bigger, grander if I could imagine them first? Perhaps. Or maybe the universe knows best?
I don’t know what’s going to happen from one day to the next. My friend Jorge says: “Welcome to the life of an entrepreneur!” If that’s the case, I welcome it! I am done with safe and stable. I welcome change (within reason, be patient!) I am bursting out of my shell, and I’m going to take as many people as I can with me (who are willing!). I’m becoming a believer. I also want others to also know the truth.
In other news, I have a lot of attention on the Law of Prosperity. I’ve been experimenting with tithing (time, money, and talent), and so far it has been going pretty well. And I’m also finding that I’m being given more and more chances to give! “That’s great, universe!” I say. “How about I receive some, too?” And I am. Part of it is timing. Part of it is visualization. Part of it is attention. It has started coming, and I see more flowing soon.
I’m also facing my old kharma — insecurity and a dependence on feedback for others. (Funny how that spiral circles back. . .) I think something opened up for me in class last night. My teacher said something like he says: “I don’t give a care” as an example for me to follow. “But I do care!” I exclaimed. However, I was tired of where I was. I was tired of feeling insecure and also like a tantrumy child. There is no love there. How can I elevate others in that way? So, I tried it on. I imaged release. I imaged disconnection. I did think: “I don’t give a care.” And it worked. I felt a release. I felt a relaxation. I felt some freedom.
Don’t get me wrong. I love everyone very much. I just don’t care want to care about what others think about me anymore. And I love myself very much, too. I want to grow up. (But still be young-at-heart, of course!) It’s time to mature, and it’s time to do my work here and let go of these energy sappers like doubt and worry.
It’s working. I’m changing. I’m believing. I’m growing.
Last thought: Some people are so nice. I don’t understand it, and I want to. It completely overwhelms me how absolutely giving and loving people can be. I want to be that for others. I intend to accomplish that this lifetime. My latest example is one of my tutoring parents. She hasn’t needed me for a while, but she called me again today. She welcomed me into her house last minute. (Today was the only day I could fit the lesson in!) She gave me some slippers for my feet. She shared some of her very expensive tea with me (a gift from her brother!) And then she walked ahead of me from her door to my car to make sure I didn’t slip. (I’m getting choked up just reading this last one!) I can’t understand such kindness, such consideration. The ease in selflessness boggles my mind. But I want to understand. My intuitive report says that my creative mind opens through emulating others. I want to be just like her.
Here’s to growth! Here’s to the new me! ❤ I’ll see you again when I get back. 🙂 Much love and blessings to you all now and always. ❤