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A School of Metaphysics Experience: Bible Interpretation in the Universal Language of Mind

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I am so pleased that I decided to go to the Bible lecture tonight.  It was a wonderful community event in which students from the schools in Bolingbrook, Palatine, and Chicago gathered together to share a potluck dinner — every single dish was A-MAZING! — and then participated in a fascinating lecture by Dr. Laurel on the first 3 chapters of Genesis, as seen through the Universal Language of Mind.

Dr. Laurel had us start by sharing our names, lessons we are on, and our experience with the Bible.  Students ranged from Lesson 5 through lesson 39, and surprisingly, a significant number of the participants tonight came from Catholic backgrounds, like me.  One student truly touched my heart when he shared his own journey with his faith and his excitement at what he was learning through the School of Metaphysics.

Then, the lecture began.  We were mesmerized, like eager children, gobbling up delicious knowledge.  Some students’ pens flew across their pages as the interpretation reached our ears.  Others sat back and just listened, taking it all in.  The room was so crowded that some of us chose to sit on pillows, and I was reminded of one of my favorite childhood Bible stories of workaholic Martha, and her sister Mary, rapt listener.  We were sitting in a circle, ourselves a bunch of “Martha”s, absorbing the message.

Time flew, and like waking from a dream, I emerged in a peaceful daze.  I asked: “Can we do this again?”

I realized the School of Metaphysics is bringing my faith back to me.  For many years I was a devoted Christian follower, but I sometimes felt a nagging, like something just wasn’t quite right for me.  Persistent nagging and doubts gave way to many “dark nights of the soul”, and then gradually I came to completely dismiss my faith.  I stopped participating in parts of mass that I didn’t agree with, and then I stopped going to church.  I quit struggling to pray.  I cringed at the words “God” and “Jesus.” I avoided Christmas songs.  I gave away my Bible.  I felt awkward at wedding ceremonies and cringed at Christian Facebook posts.

But then I went to the Cantata this year and learned that Jesus is the part of ourselves that is the conversion from “believing” to “knowing”, and I began to sing again.

I learned about the Creator in our lessons, whose creations became the sparks of life within us, and so I made peace with “God.”  I’m still struggling with the “Father” part of it, though.

Then, I learned about the mind triangle and Christ-consciousness/Buddha-consciousness, and I began to see Jesus and Buddha as the wonderful teachers and enlightened beings that they were.  I put Buddha, Jesus, and Mary — the ultimate example of receptivity at the center of my “People to Emulate” collage.

Then, through healing service, meditation, and visualization, I have began to try to pray again.

Tonight, I have renewed my relationship with the Bible. Here is a brief summary (which does not compare with Dr. Laurel’s wonderful full interpretation):  Genesis is the story of creation — of our creation.  It is the story of life that began with the heavens (superconsciousness) and the blankness below (consciousness without form).  We are the sparks of superconscious mind who also became subconscious mind (Adam), and then conscious mind (Eve), who together create a whole.  In the Garden of Eden we began to reason, with the impetus of the ego (snake). One day we will return and walk past the fiery sword (karma) when our learning is complete.

And the most valuable lesson of tonight is: We are created in the image of God. We are all beautiful, amazing creatures because we are children of God.  The Genesis message is not of sin and judgement, but a story of creation and growth.  Growth means learning, and learning can be challenging, but the resulting expansion is world-changing.

The School of Metaphysics welcomes you!  Some schools start new classes every month, and for some, coursework by correspondence.  School centers include:

345 Manor Court • Bolingbrook, Illinois60440 • (630) 739-1329

5021 W. Irving Park Road •Chicago, Illinois 60641 • (773) 427-0155

222 West Wilson • Palatine, Illinois 60067 • (847) 991-0140

1009 E. Main Street • Urbana, llinois 68120 • (217) 344-2270

6138 North Hillside • Indianapolis, Indiana 46220 • (317) 251-5285

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908 NW 12th St • Oklahoma City, Oklahoma 73106 • (405) 228-0506

429 S. Memorial •Tulsa, Oklahoma 74112 • (918) 582-8836

5832 Live Oak Street • Dallas, Texas75214 • (214) 821-5406

SOM World Headquarters College of Metaphysics
Windyville, Missouri 65783 • (417) 345-8411

Everyday Extroardinary-ness

ID-10052095“When your life is filled with the desire to see the holiness in everyday life, something magical happens: ordinary life becomes extraordinary, and the very process of life begins to nourish your soul!” — Rabbi Harold Kushner

I’ve been on a break for the last 2 weeks (unpaid, but still wonderful!), and at some point I finally hit the point when I felt a little bored.  I realized I had finally slowed down enough to just be.  I thought of the above quote and how I’m now focusing on “being”, more than “doing”, and I realized that “boring” can really be where it’s at.  This will take a revamping of my identity.  I’ve always associated myself with being busy.  I think it made me feel important.  Now I want to feel important because I AM.   It’s not about the destination, right?  It’s the journey.  Make every moment count!

It’s a Grand, Connected World

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“Network Concept” courtesy of suphakit73/

I love connecting with people in other parts of the world:  Canada, the United Kingdom, Australia, India, New Zealand, Germany, Indonesia, Mexico, Malaysia, the Netherlands, the Philippines, Singapore, Armenia, South Africa, Ireland, the Republic of Korea, Switzerland, Brazil, Thailand, Hong Kong, Israel, Italy, the Bahamas, France, Moldova, Belgium, Sweden, Denmark, Austria, Taiwan, Zimbabwe, Croatia, Russia, Puerto Rico, Spain, Japan, Portugal, Venezuela, the United Arab Emirates, and other parts of the United States (according to my site stats).  And that’s not including people that I’ve visited!

On-line dating introduced me to a special guy I might never have met, and blogging has introduced me to friends and sympathizers who I never knew existed.  There are people struggling with what I’ve struggled with.  There are people who are at that point that I hope to reach.  And we’re all walking together along our journeys.  Not only do these people share in my journey; they’ve let me see a piece of their world.  This restless girl has found her means to travel the world in her own way.  The world is huge, but now it seems connected.

I know technology is pushing us farther apart from each other.  It’s allowing people like me who are shy and introverted to hide behind our computers probably more than we should.  But it’s also connecting us with people who are like us.  Who understand, who believe the same things.  Who laugh at the same things and break their hearts over the same things.   These are people who seek what we seek, who have similar goals, similar dreams.  I know I am unique, but now I feel a little less like an oddball.

This is the way.  Now that I’ve gotten a taste of it, I can’t imagine going back.

I Can Be Happy? I Can!

I think I’ve been unhappy for so long that I forgot how to be happy.

Don’t get me wrong.  I don’t have a miserable life.  I have my basic needs met: food on the table, a roof over my head, clothes, transportation, etc  I’m not struggling for survival.  And I do fun things.  I’ve gone on trips, watched movies, read great books, been in a musical, and spent time with those I love.  But overall?  I’ve been unhappy.  Very much so.

I never felt like I knew what I wanted to do with my life, and after college I continued on a path that I felt I’d randomly chose, increasingly aimless, heart-less, listless, and eventually frustrated and depressed.

But I didn’t know I could do better, and I was afraid to try.

Until I had to.

Sometimes it takes hitting bottom to quit digging yourself deeper.  When I realized I was coming home depressed, stressed, and/or angry every day, I knew something had to change.  I am thankful for Shaklee, or I know I would have become sick.  And yet even that may not have been enough, but forces within my environment also began pushing me on.  And though I was upset, angry, and resistant to the changes at the time, I am ever so grateful now.

Because I’m beginning to find what happiness is.  For example, I think I actually like teaching.  People kept telling me that I just needed the right situation, that I truly am a teacher.  But I didn’t believe them.  I believed that I was awful, teaching was awful, and the half-hearted decision I’d made on my major those many years ago was awful.

How do I feel now?  Terribly nervous:  “Do I know what I’m doing?” “Can I handle so many different grades? “What will the students be like?” But I’m pleased to notice other feelings also emerging: excitement . . .  contentment.

Can I work and like it?  Yes!

And I can also play.

The little girl who danced around the house to the Nutcracker in her fluffy ballerina skirt now rocks it out to pop, rock, and latin tunes in her kitchen and living room.

The girl who started stories now journals, blogs, and still dreams.

And she’s finding some fun new things to explore, like meditation,  her intuition, and her artistic side.

So, this is the story of the girl who found what she was looking for.  She veered of the path and began to explore the forest.  The girl was scared — the forest was be dark — but then she began to see light through trees.

And then the girl was happy. . .


Life Journey Update (Overdue)

Whatever happened to my updates?  I completely forgot I was even supposed to BE updating.  I look back and shake my head.  Well, to clear up what I left unsaid (starting from the end and working my way back up):

I took the writing class. I really enjoyed it. It was expensive, though, so as much as I would like to take more classes, I won’t right now because I want to have savings and not fall apart when I change careers. I didn’t actually finish the class. I did my rough draft sample and was determined to turn that into a memoir on my life, but my motivation for that project died. Too overwhelming, I guess, or maybe my inner critique gouged it out.

Writing has been sporadic. Reading has been sparser than I’d like. But I’m reading about WRITING, so I feel like that should count double or something. I’m also listening to my second book on CD in the car (for book club). And enjoying it much. My first fiction book on CD that I am actually enjoying. (The Book Thief)

I want to publish the children’s story that I wrote in my high school Creative Writing class, but after reading through Write That Book Already!, I see that it’s going to take a little more work than I thought; i.e. looking through Children’s Writer’s & Illustrator’s Market, looking into agents (by reading Acknowledgments in books or some similar process), and writing query letters. So, much for my — just submitting a copy to a whole bunch of publishers – idea. That’s a no-no. Read the book. Write a query letter. Submit to 1.

I know I can do this. I’m just always afraid of something I haven’t tried before. I think I will blog about that.

A few more ends to tie up on my career journey in 10 sentences or less:

I haven’t spoken with Janet (my career counselor) in a while. I went on the bike trip, but it ended in disaster. So, I didn’t really have an experience to submit to a magazine. (But I could submit my traumatic experience!) I have become even more disenchanted with my job and have been close to remediation (to my shock and further displeasure). I now feel desperate to find a completely different career path and find out who the heck I am and what the heck I’m doing here.

Life Journey V

Since I’ve met with Janet, my goals have been shifting a bit. I’ve decided to focus more on writing. I want to write more often. I want to devote much more of my day to writing and reading. I just started reading my book club book yesterday, and I am 1/3 done. I hope to finish it by the end of the week. (I have to finish it by a week from Wednesday anyway.) It’s The Last Stand, and though it’s a little dry, I am enjoying it. It seems to be matching Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee, in that it’s not glorifying U.S. Soldiers and vilifying the Native Americans. It’s also giving a really neat perspective into the U.S. side, which I got little of from reading the other book. I have four other books that I just got from the library this week: Poor Women in Rich Countries, All Labor Has Dignity, Toil and Trouble, and Poorly Made in China. I’m hoping to read the last one first (after I finish the Custer one). I don’t remember where I got all of these from, but I know I got some ideas from the union paper.

Random aside: I can’t stand watching movies with really bad acting or really bad dialog. If the movie has both, it’s a crime. Brian says my movies are predictable (my 19th century drama/romances). But some of his are a crime!

I’m really excited about a new development on my career path. I signed up for an on-line writing course! (It’s a course through Writer’s Digest University; I found it through SCBWI — Society of Book Children’s Writers and Illustrators.) It perfectly fits what I’m looking for:

“Course Description:

Do you have an aptitude for writing that you’ve never had a chance to develop? Perhaps you write memos and reports for work, but yearn to try something more creative. In this workshop, you will explore your writing interests and discover your personal aptitudes for writing. You will be introduced to a wide variety of categories of writing, and learn basic techniques to improve your narrative skills.
This workshop provides an introduction and overview to a number of types of writing, from fillers, to short stories, to books. You’re encouraged to experiment with a variety of forms with the goal of discovering your own writing path.
Required Book: Keys to Great Writing by Stephen Wilbers
Workshop Length: 12 weeks
Course Structure
This workshop will consist of six two-week sessions. Each session will include online lectures and associated textbook reading assignments, along with a writing assignment related to the session’s topic, which will be submitted to the instructor for private review at the end of the first week of the session. During the second week of each session, work will be posted for group review and feedback. Throughout the workshop you will be able to participate in asynchronous lecture discussion and encouraged to take advantage of ongoing informal discussions and posted self-directed writing exercises. Each session will also include a “Writer’s Glossary” to help you become familiar with terms related to the craft and business of writing. (2.4 CEUs)
In this course you will learn:
The fundamentals of grammar and mechanics
Using description and sensory detail to enhance your writing
How the principles of creative writing apply to both fiction and nonfiction
The types of short nonfiction, including fillers, research articles, personal experience articles, how-to articles, books, and memoirs
The different categories (genres) of fiction, and the various fiction forms, including short stories, short-short stories, novellas, and novels
The importance of revising and rewriting
Who should take this course:
Individuals who have always been interested in writing but have found it difficult to dedicate the time and/or weren’t sure how or where to start
Beginning writers who want to explore multiple disciplines to discover what writing style they enjoy most
Those looking to kick start their writing with the help of a Published Author”

More to follow later! Starts Thursday!

Life Journey Part IV – Goals?

According to the Myers-Briggs test, I need to work on creating goals, since I am an INFP person and less likely to be systematic.

My current goal is to put any goals on hold until I find out what direction my district is taking with its bilingual program. The incoming superintendent responded to an e-mail I sent about dual language/late-exit programs, and I am awaiting a meeting to discuss the subject. If the program goes through, I think I would like to stick around for a while to see things to fruition. If the program is a no go, I have all the more reason to GET OUT!

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