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A Haunting Dream & A Message of 2’s

ID-10059174From my dream journal yesterday:

I am living in a house that my family has just moved into.  I can’t seem to get the front door shut, and the place is clearly haunted or something.  Every time I lock the door it ends up opening, like the lock won’t hold.  At one point there is a very tall apparition, a man with the attire of the 19th century (like Pride and Prejudice clothing), and suddenly he vanishes and becomes a wolf.  And the wolf runs around through the yard.  I’m like: “Great.  A werewolf.”  Rudy and Emily pulled up earlier (in cars).  Emily has been balancing on a parking stop strip.  Rudy is amused.  Dad is there.  Rudy wants to go somewhere with me.  (I guess we have plans?)  But I keep trying to go back and make sure the door is locked and closed.  Dad and Rudy are trying to distract the werewolf because they think it is what is keeping me from coming out with them.  But it is the door that is the issue.  I run at the wolf with confidence, and it is scared away.  But I tell them about the house.  Then, I hear a low, demonic sound coming from inside. And it turns out there is this large tree (Muppet-looking) that fills up the whole room.  And there are people sitting in chairs listening to it.  And some (I don’t’ remember who) are like basically “This is a all hooey.”  And don’t even believes this demon guys and his plans/words.

What sticks out most for me is that most of my attention in this dream is one the door.  I’m so concerned about keeping things out, but it seems like the problems are already within the mind.  (Just as our environment is not the source of our issues.  Our thoughts are the source of our issues.)  There are inner parts of me that haunt me, old inner parts (the apparition), and some of it is clearly just my imagination (the tree), and I recognize this.  I also identify a habitual part of myself (the wolf) that is really no threat.  My inner authority has a plan for me, wants me to move forward (my school director and my father) and not be distracted.  I am definitely conscious of some of the ridiculousness of what is going on in my mind.

I’ve been struggling lately with faith.   I’ve felt a little disconnected from Source and from my angels.  It doesn’t mean that they aren’t trying to connect, though!  While at my referral group meeting Thursday, I noted that my “Thank You for Closed Business” amount was $2,222.  Within 10-15 minutes another 222 number popped up.  And it was rapidly followed by 111 and 1111 in some other form.  Those angel messages are all about faith and starting fresh. ID-100280151

Here is what Joanne Sacred Scribes says for Angel Number 2222:

“The number sequence 2222 indicates that newly planted ideas are beginning to take form and grow into reality for you.  Your manifestation will soon be evident, so maintain a positive attitude and continue with your good work.  Keep holding positive thoughts, continue positively affirming and keep visualizing.  The reaping of rewards is just ahead of you.”

I may not see it yet, but good things are coming!  Hold the image.  Keep the faith.  Live in gratitude and positivity.

Wishing you all lots of 2’s in your life! ❤

Images courtesy of Stuart Miles and Simon Howden at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

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A Little Duality

ID-100286034I felt a little dip in energy last week, and I dipped again today.  I can recognize some factors, and I think the strongest one is my struggle with the duality of my present state of mind.  There is a discrepancy between what I know I can be and what I have been.  Change comes from a shift in perspective, and the whole of me has to catch up!  We are habitual beings with habitual ways of thinking and doing.  Awareness is just the first step — Though an important one! —  in our evolution.

So, today I find myself struggling the old struggles and frustrated with the whys.  The lesson in this?  To keep my eyes on the prize — my ideal.  And yet have patience with myself.  I can see clearly now.  It is my responsibility to act.  However, I must love myself through it.  Though, life is filled with peaks and valleys, the path leads steadily upward into the beyond.

Image courtesy of Rosemary Ratcliff at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Wednesday: Dreams and Angels

Angels

I received this message yesterday: (looked it up on Joanne Sacred Scribes Angel Numbers site)

Angel Number 1414 is a message from the angels that your thoughts and feelings are being elevated to a more positive state.  Give any fears or concerns of any kind to the angels for healing and transmutation, and have faith and trust that you are being supported, encouraged and guided by the angels along your path.  You are safe and protected  –  always.

Angel Number 1414 is a reminder to maintain a positive attitude  mind-set and optimistic outlook to attract positive energies and auspicious circumstances into your life.  Practice positive affirmations and prayers to maintain a strong connection to the angelic and spiritual realms.  Be mindful of the Law of Attraction as the energy you send out comes back to you.

Angel Number 1414 is a message to be careful what you wish for, as you just might get it.  Stay positive, optimistic and practical to ensure that you manifest what you want, rather than what you don’t.  Building strong foundations from well-laid plans ensures future stability, progress and success.  Put your efforts and focus towards your long-term goals and aspirations and work with purpose, passion and drive.  Courageously step forward in the direction of your true life purpose  and trust that the things you require will manifest when needed in your life.

At each new phase in our lives we are somewhere we have never been before.  Have faith and trust that you have the skills, talents and abilities to face all that lay ahead of you.  You are where you are meant to be at this time.

We do best what we enjoy and feel passionate about.

That’s exactly what I needed to hear.

Dreams

I was able to make sense of my dreams this morning!  The key really is to know what is going on with myself the day before.  If I KNOW the struggles and learnings I’m going through, if I’m aware — then my dreams make so much more sense!

Dreams and Interpretations:

Going up and down hills (snow or something on hills?)  Indoors?  Brian opts to take the route on the ground level.   I stay above.  Way is treacherous.  I’m creating unnecessary challenges for myself, and this relates to being stuck.

I’m looking at the cats and I see Misty!  I ask Brian why Misty is with us.  Something about trouble with Tigger maybe.  Old, familiar habit that doesn’t belong.  I’m giving it safe haven.  (Could be my return to a lack of attentiveness? Or the increased running of the mouth?)

Need to put on (music?)  My cousin is to help.  Is she doing a performance, maybe?  Lots of people around in unknown building.  (And my Aunt there?)  An assured, business-like aspect of myself desiring harmony.  I believe this is relating to my struggles with how to be the best teacher I can be.

Dancing on my parents’ balcony with Dad but a little awkward for some reason. Not an easy flow and not an ease with closeness, though it is pleasant and sweet!  Song unexplainedly stops, so I go back in to house and forget about dancing, though Dad wants to go on.  I am in a place hovering between conciousness and subconsciousness (balcony), and I am harmonizing with superconscious.  It is not as seamless as I would like, but it’s good!  I believe this related to my meditation yesterday, which was wonderful.  However, I cut it a little short, a few minutes short of the whole meditation, thinking I was complete.  I believe this dream is telling me I should have done at least the full 30 minutes.

Scene between woman and Hugh Grant.  I notice her roots are showing.  They are in bed.  Affectionate, but no hanky panky.  Imagination — imagined connection between conscious and subconscious, not complete or clear; and the thoughts have not been refreshed.  They need to be updated.  (Perhaps relating to my understanding of metaphysics and subconscious and conscious mind in general.)

Some comment to someone — between guy and girl of disinterest, not offended, just nonexistent. The need/desire for further connection between the conscious and subconscious minds.

Summary:  A lot of male/female here.  Subconscious presence and superconscious presence.  There are not complete connections, but attempts — making progress.  Follow the subconscious — take the way of lease resistance!  Stick with the superconscious today.  Keep your mind focused on your life’s plan, on the good of all concerned — and meditate for the full 30 minutes!  (Or more!)

Dreamy Wednesday (Belated)

I don’t know if I have permission to share about my sister’s dream that she recently shared with me.  So, I’ll just say that it was unique and cool. 🙂 My dreams this week progressed from being an adult in an elementary school classroom to a substitute teacher in an elementary school classroom to getting the house ready to have people over.

Translation: Needing to learn an overdue lesson –> Experimenting with getting back my inner authority –> cleaning up my state of mind in preparation for interaction with different aspects of myself.

This morning I had a dream smorgasbord.  So, maybe it’s good I’m running behind this week; I’m looking forward to working with these.

Here they are (not necessarily in this order):

Dream #1: I’m driving.  There’s a dogwalker (female) in the left turn lane where I intend to turn.  Sh has TONS of dogs.  One gets away and is running across the street.  I watch it with concern.  It doesn’t get hit.  I make a VERY slow stop and slow left turn to avoid the dogs and walker.  Conditions are bad, too.  It’s snowing and slushy.  When I turn to go up the street it’s a hill, and there are HUGE vehicles in the road that are attempting to pass each other, driving in my direction.  They look like the hockey rink machines that put down ice; HUGE.  I swerve around to avoid them. 

Dream #2: Something with me and Golbahar.  Someone in the bathroom.  She knocks on the door and sends them off to do something (answer the phone?)  because maybe there’s no one downstairs to do it.

Dream #3: I am looking through textbooks, and I find one that is from one of my tutoring students.  (A boy or his sister.)  I try to figure out which one it was.  It is the boy because it is a 5th grade math book.  The reason I’m interested is because there is a $55 bill sticking out of it alike a bookmark.  I think that is a weird denomination.  I check it, and it is indeed real American money.  I now say (to whoever I’m with)  that I have a dilemma.  But I decide the best thing to do is mail it back to him.  I am happy I will be reconnecting with him.  I see lots of writing in the front cover when I check it.  Some swear words.  This is a huge stack of bank slips that I could send with the money (maybe belonging to his parents?), but I decide not to.  They will require extra postage.  I’m sure the mom/dad can get more.  Slips seem to have lesson notes on the bottom; blue pages with lines and comments.  I see a note about snacks.  I write a letter but then decide against sending it.  It turns out the money actually is yuan.  I’m not sure how much it is worth, but in the dream I have now assumed that it will be useless to the boy.  It is two-sided.  One side is green, which could be a mistaken for dollars.  The other side is yellow.

Golbahar finds my original letter (one I had started but not finished, maybe crumpled).  She asks me what my purpose is, like the letter is unclear.   I go to get the actual letter to show her (in envelope?)

Dream #4: Something about a girl created a show and she realized that only one of the actors could actually sing.  She wondered why she did this.  A singing/dancing sequence follows, and the individuals mostly lip sync, and they are terrible at it.

Dream #5: Something else with a play . . .  learning part?

Dream #6: A picture is being taken.  Group shot(s).  I try to kind of hide.  Photographer is annoyed with me.  (male?)

Group shots with lots of people.  Trying to fit in with group shot.  Different gatherings.  I’m not sure when to smile.  My smile is goofy.

Dream #7: Teeny tiny “badger.” in house.  Bowser checks it out.  (I think he wants to eat it, but he stops.)  I wonder if the badger got him.  Clear long quill has gotten stuck in Bowser’s nose.  (Badger sting!)  I try to carefully and quickly pull it out and get part of it off, not all.  Now I feel I need to get the badger out.  Increasing in size?

Wow. . .  I forgot how much I had here.  Let’s see.  Dream #1: I’m headed in a particular direction, but I’m facing difficult conditions.  I’m slowed down by many habits and huge. . .  somethings!  Since the dream seems to be about challenges (the hill, the slush, etc, the snow suggests being stuck.)  So, I think it’s about trying to take a positive, decisive direction in my life but finding myself slowed down — and even stuck — amidst habits, challenges, and environmental circumstances.  Makes sense.

Dream #2.  I’ve got a subconscious aspect, a place for cleansing, and some unknown aspects that may be dealing with communication and different levels of mind (downstairs).   I would guess that it’s telling me I need to be available to receive communication between levels of mind.

Dream #3.  Yikes.  Well, what really sticks out to me is the 55.  I’m really into numbers.  Money has to do with value and “5” is “reasoning” in a dream.  Last night we focused a lot on reasoning in class, so that only makes sense.  A summary of the dream seems to be that I receive a tool for information /information — at a lower level — that includes something to do with value and reasoning.  I’m not sure what it really is, and I’m confused about the value.  I eventually recognize that it is not as much value as I thought and not as useful (since it is the wrong currency).  I am also originally intent on doing the “right thing” and returning it to a developing subconscious aspect of myself.  I’m excited about connecting with this aspect because our connection was severed.  I would describe this part as impulsive/impatient and brilliantly creative.  I have even prepared communication with it.  I later don’t go through with the communication when I decide the bill is useless.  There is something about communication and value again with the bank notes, which also ties into productivity and taking in knowledge.  But I do not see that as important. Finally, my superconscious gets involved, wanting to know about my purpose in the communication.  But she has grabbed the wrong communication, so I update her.   Most importantly, I can’t identify “reasoning”, and I’m confused about its value.  My impulsive/impatient, brilliantly creative side may be the connection.

Dream #4: I am attempting to create harmony within myself, but I have not chosen the correct aspects to do it, so it is not working out perfectly. . .   That may have to do with understanding myself part and getting aligned within.

Dream #5: I am preparing for some sort of creativity, imaginative work.

Dream #6: The use of memory.  I’m involving many aspects of myself in this, but I am not putting my whole self enough in the picture.  (Maybe related to our class conversation or our visualization exercise.)

Dream #7:  These animal-on-animal dreams are confusing to me.  I should ask about those in the next Dream Webinar.  I have two habits here.  One is one that I love and am very comfortable with.  The other is unknown.  I can’t even recognize the animal for sure, it doesn’t look like a real life badger at all, and the size keeps fluctuating.  I think there’s something significant in the stinger/quill and the nose.    The nose is part of the face.  It may be part of a human’s expression, but for a dog it is a main means of receiving information.  The quill is a protective/aggressive measure  Perhaps I was using one habit to explore a new/unknown habit, and there was some resistance.  However, after I saw the damage done, I wanted to get rid of the habit.

Dogs showed up twice in my dreams.  The main unproductive habits I’ve been facing lately are lack of confidence/insecurity; bossiness, worry, lack of purpose, and stubbornness.  These have impeded my journey . . .  but I’m not sure which one is the badger.

Happy dreaming tonight!

Dreamy Wednesday: Death and Cats

Disclaimer: No cats were harmed in the making of this dream. . .

I’m super excited about this next week.  Tomorrow is our Dreamcatchers Meetup, and it looks like there will be some new attendees, some awesome regulars, and Brian! ❤ ❤ <3!

Also, my next Metaphysics lesson for 2nd cycle is all about dreams, which I’m thrilled about. One of our exercises is based on connecting our conscious life to our dream life, and I can’t wait to start tomorrow.   I put understanding and applying my dreams as one of my 10 Most Wanted, so it looks like it’s coming to fruition. 🙂  And this morning I was thinking about how frustrated I was that I couldn’t figure out a lot of my dreams.  So, I’m happy to be giving them some extra attention.

Now for my dreams from this morning.  I realize after sharing the “knight” dream that I don’t need to go all crazy trying to figure out my dreams.  Even focusing on one important symbol from the dream can be helpful.  We had the Dream Webinar today, and I asked what “knights” mean.  I figured they would be something like “police”, which is the symbol for discipline, and the dream coaches agreed with me.  She said to focus on how I’ve been feeling and perceiving discipline lately.  That made perfect sense.  I’ve been struggling and rebelling a bit with discipline these last few days.  Cats in my dream symbolize habitual ways of thinking.  Since I am afraid of them, they are habits that I find intimidating and wish to avoid (but I conquer some of them!)  There are elements of death (not seen, but talked of ) in the other dreams, which means that I am thinking about change.  Here we go. . .

Dream #1:A woman is sentenced to death.  (At one point is me?) She ascends the stairs to the place where she will be killed.  She is not surprised.  Awaiting execution, she and a close female are not sure what to do in her last moments.  I say something about touch, about being close to each  other.  They do touch (lie down next to each other? Cuddle?) And I join them.  Tears are shed.

Dream #2: Black knights, like the ones from Monty Python.  The kingish-type/lord? asks the man if they have all been killed.  The man shows all of the knights impaled in a line before them.  But then the real black knights are called forth to come kill the king.

Dream #3: Going down to the water place below.  To kill the man leading them?  There is something special about the water.  Maybe it can be set afire because of what he put in it.

There are huge cats at the entry to some place (same place?) Tigers.  I ask how you get past them.  A man tells me to embrace them head on.  I am afraid, but I do this.  I find the cats do want me.  We hug and cuddle together.  A man comes to check on me.  I say it worked, but show him that I have apparently only approached the medium-sized cats (like bobcat-size, but short-haired and pet-cat-ish).  The tigers are nearby.  He tells me that I can approach the tigers the same way.

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