The Power of Conscious Emotion
by Jorge Candelaria
Some people want to improve their lives, but they don’t want to do anything differently. They are addicted to their way of being. To improve one’s life and make the difference on the planet requires trying different ways of being. Sometimes it requires challenge and sacrifice, but sometimes it’s just about enjoying the journey.
It has been six years since I started my journey to know myself. I had no idea at that time where I was going to end up, and that allowed me the freedom to have new experiences and to be different, From my heart I knew that there had to be something more out there because nothing that I was doing was fulfilling me.
Some parts of the journey have felt like a struggle, and in other parts I am reaping the fruit of my efforts. The first step in my journey was exploring discipline, and I experienced how powerful it was. I learned the influence of discipline on my feelings and emotions, and I started to understand my environment at a deeper level. I also became aware of other people’s behavior around me and the influence of our thoughts and our choices on each other and each other’s behavior.
I fell in love with discipline, meditation, and spiritual exercises, that allows me to be in the present moment and get me closer and closer to have a quiet mind. I started practicing self-observation and objectivity with my thought; this process allowed me to discover all the baggage that I needed to change or get rid of. At some points I was face-to-face with anger, self-pity, and sorrow. Sometimes I reacted, blamed, and complained, blending all of those emotions. In those moments I realized the effect of discipline and commitment in the process of spiritual development, in being able to see how I was actually creating my reality. I also observed past patterns of thinking, including coping mechanisms I used to hide myself in, using unproductive habits like overworking or excessive internet use when things got tough. Then instead I started developing ways that I could be in those challenging emotions, experiencing them. I observed myself in the present moment, observed how I was creating the experience. I could then see if the feeling was habitual, an addictive behavior that was that an unconscious reaction to the experience. In that process, I learned that I had so many wounds that I needed to heal, like blaming other for triggering a negative emotion. I realized it was something that I learned at home when I was little. Through this process I began to discover and trace how I developed my personality, and how I became who I am.
I also started to observe the usefulness of discipline to consciously create in my life. This is something that I have always enjoyed. I see the benefits of discipline in creating a business and focusing on one direction without the hassle of the standard ways of marketing, just maintaining the positive and direct thoughts of serving and loving what I do.
The objectivity and mindfulness I have developed has helped me stay conscious in my work. The unconscious habit that I catch myself in is thinking that just working harder is going to help me to solve a problem in the business, in my life or in being ‘productive.’ I think I am going to fill some emptiness. In those moments I now stop and look for what I am avoiding, what problem or what emotion I need to face.
In the journey of breaking my addictive behavior, I have found that the most important thing is to experience a deeper understanding of love. I am looking to receive all new people in my life into my heart, to experience divine friendship. Also, just as importantly, I look to experience and practice self love.
Posts tagged ‘growth’
I think it’s funny that certain subjects/ideas/quotes sometimes seem to come up for me around the same time of year. I discovered I posted about this almost exactly 2 years ago:
I’ve really been thinking about this again. Do you feel comfortable? REALLY comfortable? If you do, that may not be a good sign!
Oftentimes discomfort comes from reaching the edge of our boundaries, from stretching farther than we ever have before. It can feel pretty awkward — even painful!
But then, once we make it through that boundary, extend that wall, we have more space. We are freer. And this continues until we completely break through all of our walls, until we no longer have any limitations.
So, how comfortable do you feel now? Is it time for a little stretch? I’m telling you, it’s worth it!
Are you working toward your vision? Seeking growth and self-improvement? Make sure you have a solid foundation to build the faith and trust in yourself to move forward.
I’m reading Psychic Intelligence: Tune In and Discover the Power of Your Intuition by Terry & Linda Jamison. The book includes an activity to practice seeing auras and descriptions of what the auras represent. The aura is your outer energy field, extending beyond your physical body.
Think about what thoughts and emotions you’ve expressed today. What color is your aura?
Here’s a snippet of each color to get you started:
Red: strength, physical and sexual energy, passion, courage
Orange: opportunity, creativity, organization, adaptability, and caring for others
Yellow: vitality, intellect, prosperity, playfulness, optimism, communication
Green: growth, change, healing, prosperity
Blue: peace, tranquility, healing, caring for others, compassion, verbal communication
Purple: passion, spirituality, psychic power, clairvoyance
White: protection, spirituality, innocence, purity
Brown: stability, grounding, practicality
Silver: Clarity of purpose
Gold: spiritual energy, inspiration
I’m thinking a little red or silver today. Can’t see it yet. How about you?
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I was driving to class, and I noticed the license plate of the car directly in front of me: “THINK 5”. 5 in Numerology is “change”. This seemed like a pretty obvious message. Then, I glanced at the time on the clock. It was 5:55. Now, the angels really had my attention! I thought for a minute and was startled when I realized what day it was. May 15, 2015. 5/15/15. OK! If there was any doubt in this synchronicity, this last sign had now cemented my belief! “Change. . . hmm?” I thought. “Ok, I am ready! ”
I thought about what that change could be. What form would it take? What newness would come into my life? I waited expectantly. It took some weeks of pondering and the assistance of my School of Metaphysics lessons (always so applicable to my current situations!) to realize I had it all backwards. THINK CHANGE didn’t mean to watch for change. It didn’t mean that change was going to happen to me. THINK CHANGE mean that change would come from me.
This is affirmed by one of the books I just started reading: Angels Whisper in My Ear, a book by Kyle Gray, the Angel Whisperer. In his Preface he says: “Angels don’t want us to rely on them, nor will they let us — they encourage us every day to realize our own power so that we can surmount our setbacks — but they will support us.”
Thought is cause. I cause change. We cause change. And the angels are saying the time is now! What are you causing in your life right now? Are you ready to grow, young caterpillar? Are you ready to change?
Let’s do this!
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I’ve just come back from back-to-back Spiritual Focus Sessions through the School of Metaphysics: Spirit of the Healer and Powers of 10. They were amazing from start to finish. Besides the highlight of the sessions — the in-person intuitive reports — the lessons, activities, meals, reflections, and personal interactions were eye-opening and life-changing. I left with an open heart and a stirred soul (and a lot to process!)
Please check out the upcoming sessions, and maybe I’ll see you there 🙂 :
One of my classmates asked the students at break/announcements if we had anything to share about divine friendship, as relating to our experiences through the School of Metaphysics. I was focused on the rest of the lesson plan for the evening and did not contribute at the time.
However, I have definitely experienced divine friendship, along with every other student. I cherish my classmates, my teacher, the director, and all of the students/teachers of the School of Metaphysics. We ALL love each other. Just because we are. And that is the key to the community. We recognize every individual as a soul, as a spirit, and we honor every existence. And we honor truth, allowing us to be every bit of who we are: the beautiful stuff about us, the stuff we don’t want to face and/or don’t know how to change, and the ideal Self that we will someday be. And the best part is our friends will accept this, accept us, every bit of us. That doesn’t mean we are accepted as just what we are. It means also seeing what we intend to become and not letting us stagnate. And neither does that mean everything is all roses and butterflies; on the contrary, some of the most uncomfortable exchanges have brought about the most growth!
As an example, today the director asked me how I was doing, and I said “Ok.” Of course, she probed further, and I expressed my displeasure with my job. She talked with me about the importance of having a goal and purpose for every day at work, and she told me she didn’t leave one of her jobs until she loved it. I didn’t want to hear any of this. My ego was negatively motivating me on this one. I wanted to be miserable. I was afraid of being stuck and stagnant. But I saw the wisdom in her advice. I knew the damage negative thinking could do — I am an expert negative thinker and visualizer! — and the angels like to warn me about it, and I knew the power of gratitude. (My sister read that when you give thanks the angels dance about you!). Later that evening my teacher stopped by, and I shared my earlier conversation. She liked what the director had to say and added the importance of staying focused on the image of my ideal position. She said she’d like to check in about it once a week and assured me that what I wanted would happen.
I am grateful for all of my friends this life time. They have loved me, encouraged me, and supported me. Some have helped me learn my value. Others have helped me take a deeper look at myself and what I need to change. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I thank God for the wonderful people I’ve attracted into this lifetime.