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Beautiful Teacher

"Yellow Rose" courtesy of artur84 /

“Yellow Rose” courtesy of artur84 /

I would like to give a “shout out” to my beautiful, wonderful sister today.  She asked me to come visit her classroom for the last day of her school year to play some clarinet for the students and to bring the ice cream. 🙂

Being a teacher is a very difficult job, a job that is not for me.  But it is clearly for my sister.  The love and work she puts into her profession is clear if you visit her classroom or hear her talk about her day.  Her students really understand that her class is a “family”, and it was amazing to see many of the students crying today, even students that have been a challenge throughout the year.  Why are they crying?  Because they know they have experienced love.  To be in her classroom is to know love.  She loves them and shows them how to love each other. She is their protector, their comforter, their motivator, and their cheerleader.  Her students are blessed to have her.  Congratulations to my sister and her wonderful class.  I hope they continue to find happiness, success, and love for the rest of their lives.

Precious Moments

"My Family" courtesy of AKARAKINGDOMS/

“My Family” courtesy of AKARAKINGDOMS/

I’ve been going through a transition and have struggled with feeling stuck and lost without a purpose.  Some of the speakers talked about how the universe is shifting and how what I’m going through is normal.  That’s a relief.  The whole thing has been very difficult for a sensitive, emotional person like me.  I can’t compare myself to anyone else, because I don’t have the ability to climb into their brains, but the rolling emotions, especially the low lows have been hard for me.  Sometimes I don’t know why I feel as I do and don’t know what to do with my depressed emotions.  I do what I can: I improve my diet, I exercise, I distract myself, I look on the bright side, and I have special moments like last night when I take notice of how completely happy I am.

Last night I played dominoes with my grandma, Mom, Dad, my sister, and Brian, and I was all happiness.  No sadness or worry.  Some of you may be thinking: “Dominoes?  People even play that anymore?  That makes you happy?”  I don’t know what to tell you; I used to think the same way.  But I have the best time playing with this group, and I won’t forget it.  Those are moments to remember and live for.  People have told me that you can’t be happy all of the time.  I think you can. Or you can much of the time, depending on how enlightened you are, how at peace you are with yourself and within yourself.  But I think it’s true that for most people it is very difficult.  And I think I will add to my toolbox (a term I got from my psychotherapist long ago) the “This Too Shall Pass” wisdom saying.  All of the other stuff and techniques are  good, too –like the sacred place in our minds (mine’s by the ocean) — but sometimes you’re just wallowing in the muck and feeling stuck there, and you just got to make it through, knowing it won’t last forever.  Sad times pass, just as the happy ones do.  The cycle continues.  Lessons are learned.  Life moves on.

To My Mom

"Mother And Daughter Hugging" courtesy of digitalart /

“Mother And Daughter Hugging” courtesy of digitalart /

WordPress community: As it is now sometime between my mom’s birthday and Mother’s Day, I dedicate this post to Mom.  (I have recently discovered that she found my blog and has been reading it!)

Mom: I hope this makes up for the card that I didn’t give you.  Think of it as a way of being green and also as me proclaiming my love for you to the universe. 😀

Ok, now the pressure is on. . .  Mom, writing this, I don’t know how to start.  I only know that I am glad you are my mother.  You have told me that you love me unconditionally, and I believe it.  You accept me for the way I am, the ways I’ve changed, and for what’s to come (and sometimes you’ve said you anticipated it before I did!)

Thank you for introducing me to rebelliousness 😉 (and not in a bad way!) and to organic foods and healthy ingredients (even though I didn’t appreciate it at the time!).  Thank you for my first experience of the healing power of white light on that day we prayed about our neighbor’s cancer.  Thank you for your appreciation of the blessed mother, a connection I still feel today, though I see her now in quite a new and special way.  Thank you for your appreciation of music.  For supporting me through all my events.

I love how calm and strong you are.  I love what a great listener you are.  I love how when I am with you, it feels like home.  I feel safe; I feel loved.  I love how excited you are about new ideas, and I love your ideas!  (Even if I don’t use them right away, I know they’re great!)  You are my master researcher and material-finder!

I love how beautiful you are, every part of you.  (And I meant it when I said you are gorgeous without makeup — you are my hero!)  I love how devoted you are to your family.  I love how open you are, how caring you are.

I know we’ve had our moments, Mom!  We’ve butted heads.  We didn’t understand each other.  I know there have been times I haven’t appreciated you as much as I should have.  But I know you’ve always loved me.  I know you’re thinking of me.  And I’m so glad you are my mom.   So, here’s a kiss :-* and a [[hug]] until I see you next.

I love you, Mom.

Dreams: Answering Machine, Valentine, Job, Houses, Houses, Houses, and More!

"Blue House" courtesy of dan/

“Blue House” courtesy of dan/

More dreams this past week.  2 days in particular really stood out.  This is what I copied in my journal from a few days ago:

  • Houses — was with my sister and kept returning to “my house” for some reason.  Lots of houses around.  Measurements being made by real estate agents.  Houses had popped up everywhere.  Zelda got out one time while I was walking around to look at houses with my sister.  She dutifully followed me back home when I called to her.
  • Mom and Dad were over.  Dad had just gotten back from a trip?  They were on the phone.  Talking with each other but at the same house.  Dad became annoyed and told Mom to hang up.I had an answering machine.  It had picked up 4 SPAM messages.  I wondered why I even kept the home number.  Clearly I didn’t need it.  Or was it connected to my cell?
  • Dad was trying to show me that authors borrow stuff from other stories, that Dr. Seuss had taken his book from someone else’s ideas, which explained why the cover made references to parts of the book that weren’t even there anymore.  I felt like the world had opened up to me.

And then my memory of last night’s dreams:

I was at the dining table of my parents’ house, I’m pretty sure, and I was sitting around the table with some friends to celebrate something (birthday?), and I had brought a card, but I had brought the wrong card accidentally.  It was a Valentine to me from a woman I knew.  The Valentine seemed odd to me, and I was embarrassed and couldn’t believe that I had brought it to this gathering and almost given it to the birthday girl.

I was looking for a new house, and the one we were considering looked rather small.  A small but adequate sized kitchen and dining room, but that was about it.  But then I looked more closely and saw that there was another room behind the kitchen, half-obstructed and hidden from view level.  So, we ducked down and continued on to a bedroom (a master bedroom).  The house seemed a little more appealing with the bedroom, and then I noticed another room hidden behind that room.  We continued on and found a guest bedroom (better and better!)  Beyond that we found a living room.  At some point I remember commenting to my dad (who was suddenly in the picture) that one of the beds had a large built-in urinal to the side of it, which could be convenient for needing to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night.  Overall, the house seemed a little more complete and doable, though a bit cramped and oddly constructed.

I was contemplating returning to my old job.  The position had opened, and I was debating whether to apply for it.

Corresponding interpretations from

Answering Machine

To see an answering machine in your dream suggests that you are not listening to a message that someone around you is trying to convey. Perhaps you are experiencing difficulties and frustration in understanding some idea or viewpoint.

To dream that you are in the bedroom signifies aspects of yourself that you keep private. It is also indicative of your sexual nature and intimate relations.

To see a cat in your dream symbolizes an independent spirit, feminine sexuality, creativity, and power.To dream that you cannot find your cat highlights your independent spirit.  You need to allow yourself to be free and not let anyone or anything hold you back.

Dining Room
To dream that you are in a dining room represents your quest for knowledge and understanding. You may be reaching an important decision in your life.

To see your father in your dream symbolizes authority and protection. It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant. Consider also your waking relationship with your father and how aspects of his character may be incorporated within yourself.

To see a house in your dream represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system.


If you dream that you are still working at your old job, then it suggests that there is an old lesson that you need to learn and apply to a current situation.

To see a kitchen in your dream signifies your need for warmth, spiritual nourishment and healing. It may also be symbolic of the nurturing mother or the way that you are for your loved ones. Alternatively the kitchen represents a transformation. Something new or life altering is about to occur. The dream could also be telling you that if “you can’t stand the heat, then you need to get out of the kitchen”. You need to abort your plans.

To see a new house in your dream indicates that you are taking on a new identity and developing new strengths. You are becoming more emotionally mature.

In general, dreaming of new things and new places corresponds to what is new in your waking life. It refers to something that is different or unfamiliar.

To see your parents in your dream symbolizes both power, shelter, and love. You may be expressing your concerns and worries about your own parents. Alternatively, it represents the merging of the female and male aspects of your character.


To dream that you find or discover a new room suggests that you are developing new strengths and taking on new roles. You may be growing emotionally. Alternatively, such rooms are symbolic of neglected skills or rejected potential.

To see your sister in your dream symbolizes some aspect of your relationship with her, whether it one of sibling rivalry, nurturance, protectiveness, etc

To see a urinal in your dream signifies disorder in your personal relationships.


To dream that you are receiving a valentine represents your likeability, compassion and good-hearted nature.

All in the Family

“Dining Table Set” by piyato /

I went to Ohio over Thanksgiving to see the other side of my family.  It’s been 3 or 4 years.  And 3 or 4 years is quite a long time.  I’d never seen my newest cousins, and no one had met Brian yet. I wondered if things would be awkward.  And I wondered if things would have changed too much.

But it was wonderful.  There was limited awkwardness.  As always, we were able to pick up where we left off.  Everyone looked great, and was doing great.  I bonded with my grandmother and bonded over an evening of Lincoln and a sushi lunch.  I had a great chat with my godmother during Thanksgiving dinner.

Thanksgiving was amazing.  My cousin did a fantastic job hosting.  Her basement was recently remodeled, and it was decked out in holiday decorations and home cooking.  The turkey was moist, the wine was perfect, and my aunt’s cheesecake and grandma’s nut bars were to-die-for.

And everyone loved Brian.  Everyone wanted to meet him, and he got more than one stamp of approval.  And my little cousins were adorable. We spent our last evening playing make-believe with the little Batman, Spiderman, and Buzz Lightyear figurines who were periodically attacked by the various monsters: the crocodile, the mechanical Godzilla-looking head, a great white, and Zurg.

I got my baby-fix, my dad got his grandkid fix, Brian had his big introduction, and we all had a nice little get away.


Today I am grateful for. . .

  • remembering some basic guitar (just like getting back on a bike!) and having a great lesson with my Dad
  • having self-control and not overeating at Easter (maybe only slightly this time)
  • a nice little nap after an Easter meal
  •  lying on the couch, meditating on a perfect view of a vibrant yellow green tree, peeking through the window
  • time with family
  • awkward questions about my religious status that keep me on my toes
  • great food!
  • friends who are looking out for me during my time of change
  • new friends and old friends and GAMES!  (I LOVE games.)
  • Easter chocolate. . .
  • a great boyfriend
  • hope
  • crazy dreams about tornadoes and houses (yes, again!) that remind me to look inward and keep onward — change is coming!
  • gorgeous weather
  • doing weights for the first time in weeks and not losing a lot of ground!
  • yoga tonight (need it badly!)
  • monthly conversations and spiritual discussions with my favorite uncle
  • music — itunes has changed my world and taken me back down memory lane oh, so many times.
  • plans for getting some great fresh air and sunshine with some good people at one of the most beautiful parks in Illinois — Starved Rock

Have a wonderful day, everyone.

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