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Where Do You Spend Your Time?

"Just Awake" courtesy of luigi diamanti/ FreeDigitalPhotos.net

“Just Awake” courtesy of luigi diamanti/ FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Time has been on my mind a lot this past month.  It’s something that I want desperately and also something that stresses me out immeasurably.  I know I’ve come to this Earth with many, many lessons to learn.  I have a feeling I’m not even aware of at least half of them.  Today I woke up with the intention to prioritize my time.

How do I spend the majority of my time?  By my estimation, these are the top areas:

1) Sleep  2) Metaphysics  3) Work  4) Worry  5) Facebook/E-mail/Other Internet  6) Castle/Other relaxation.  7) Cleaning

1) The greatest chunk of my day is spent on sleeping (1/3 or more), and I’m still struggling to get up early.  I’m beginning to think that I should just let myself sleep and get things done later in the day.  Since I don’t have an early morning job, my mind and body see no reason to leave happy-subconscious-land.  And so I continue to berate myself — later, having to forgive myself — for not getting up on time.  So, for this week, I’m allowing myself the extra sleep.  I still need to figure out why I don’t want to leave the bed — I know there is something that needs to be addressed there — but for this week I’m not going to fight it, and I’m going to see what happens.

2) I don’t spent tons of time on Metaphysics per say, but I know I’m getting in at least an hour every day between writing down my dreams, doing my exercises, sometimes reading a book for class, and making connections to metaphysics in my daily life.  It is a solid part of me now, and I’m glad for that consistency.

3 and 4)  These two need to go together because most of my worry is about work.  So, I’m either working or worrying about work.  This is something that I’ve been struggling with for a long time.  I thought it would go away when I left teaching full-time, and then teaching part-time.  Alas, the worries still hound me.  So, I’ve finally figured out that it’s not the job.  It’s me. I think staying in the moment could be a big help here.  Also, more time management.

5) I don’t spend as much time on the Internet as I have in the past.  I’m not on it as long.  But now I’m just checking it more frequently.  And now that I’m waiting to hear about a very exciting job opportunity, I feel I have even more of an excuse to come running back to my laptop every hour. (More on that in a future post.)  This is an area where I can definitely start looking at how I spend my time. (*I checked Facebook at least once while writing this blog.)

6) Something that Brian and I like to do together is watch a show together.  Though the shows are enjoyable, they are generally 45 minutes long, and one episode can turn into 2, or sometimes 3.  That’s 1.5 or 2ish hours gone from each day that I could be spending on creative outlets. So, this is another area I would like to explore.

7) Cleaning.  Ugh.  I do like cleaning sometimes.  In fact, I become an overly-zealous cleaner when I’m avoiding #3.  However, overall it seems to take so much time and effort, and neither Brian or I are neat-freaks, so preparing for company can be quite an ordeal.  We keep things pretty picked up for the most part, but the actual de-furring, dusting, vacuuming, and scrubbing are a struggle.  Mostly we are weekend warriors (or at least, I am) who spend half the day cleaning before a big event at our place.  This gets the job done, but, again, it’s a struggle and pretty unpleasant.  My latest cleaning project has been our new fish tank (new for us, but we got it off of Craigslist, so quite a bit of cleaning and prep has been required) that I plan on finishing after this post.  (Mind is beginning to worry about it as I type this.)

8) Yes, I know there’s no number 8.  This is the number that should be up there at the top.  It’s my creativity time.  Thankfully, I’m off to a good start today.  My tutoring lessons were cancelled for today, so I took the opportunity to write this blog, and I already feel much better for having done it.  I’m still struggling with resisting play time/creative time.  You’d think it would be easy to have fun, but I think creativity has seemed like another job/chore that I’m supposed to do each day, and that’s the mentality I’ve got to change.  Clearly playing around on the Internet and Castle are a lot easier for me to fall into, so I need to make sure my play time doesn’t resemble work time so much.

That’s my current status.  I’d like to see where I am in a week.  Also, I need to blog every day again.  I’m going to add that consistency to my daily metaphysics exercises.  I’m already in that habit, so I’m just going to pretend they go together.  So, you will be hearing from me again tomorrow. 🙂

Today’s “Yay”s

Well, “Today’s Yays” are actually yesterday’s yays because today was really yesterday because I’m scheduling this post ahead of time, so ya know.  Anyway. . .

Zumba was fantastic.  I made myself try the full hour, and it felt great.  Yes, I was exhausted by the end, but I felt refreshed and like I worked some muscles that hadn’t been worked in a while.

The weather is beautiful.  I don’t know why I’m not sitting outside enjoying it right now.  Maybe I will after I finish this.

Freebie time.  I had a cancellation in my tutoring.  Not great money-wise, I know, but I always appreciate surprise free time.  It’s like the universe gave me a bonus to have a little more fun.

Fabulous backwards walk.  Got some great sun time in my cutoff shorts and sun top.

Breaded fake chicken.  I have decided I could probably eat most anything as long as it has breading on it.  (Except for those fried peppers I had that one time  . . .)

Sweet things.  I asked Brian to pick me (us . . . ?) up something on his way back from yoga.  Probably ice cream.  🙂  I don’t really need any more dairy and sugar, as my poor skin has broken out like crazy.  But, yes, I DO need more!  It is decided.  Can’t wait. 😀

Finally, I read a post with essays by unemployed people and watched a video on a homeless person, and while these posts were depressing and made me feel I need to be more involved in helping these people, it also reaffirmed that I am truly blessed in what I have.  I will end with this tidbit from a post on Facebook by “The Idealist.” (Yes, sometimes Facebook actually does cheer me up, too.):

(I need to be more like this guy.)

Good Decision/ Bad Decision

"Deer From Forest" courtesy of anankkml / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

“Deer From Forest” courtesy of anankkml / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Today’s Mistake: Going on Facebook

I told myself I wasn’t going on Facebook today.  And then sometime later I sat down on my couch, laptop in my lap, and I said “Just 5 minutes.”  Then, “Just til 2:30,” and then 40 minutes later I finally got off.

And it brought me down.

Conspiracies surrounding the events of the Boston Marathon, criticism of Fox News network and some of their newscasters’ wishy-washyness on the Bill of Rights, and negative comments on one of my posts.  Plus, I felt the guilt and disappointment of my broken commitment not to go on today.  The frustration, the anger, the overall negativity. . .I became upset and depressed..

And then came —

Today’s Good Choice: Going Outside

First I went for one of my backwards walks with Bowser (to build up my hamstrings).  It was gorgeous outside, and I took in the view, hugged my favorite tree, and saw an egret!

Then Brian got home and we went for a bike ride.  We’ve saved some time by starting out from the house and making our way to any paths along the way.  The wind was tough, but we had a beautiful ride (6 deer near the path!) and made good time.  We got home at 18 miles, and then Brian had us bike our nearby walk path and a couple times around our court so that I got my full 20 miles. in 🙂

So, I got back on track with exercise since the flooding. and the endorphins restored my emotional balance.  There were a few moments today — right after yoga and at times when I was outside — when I realized — “Wow!  I’m truly happy.”  And: “No matter what happens in the future, I am happy right here, right now.”

Random Musings

There was this guy who I was with in choir in high school. And I was pretty sure he had a crush on me at some point. I definitely caught him staring at my breasts on the day I was wearing my skin tight lavender turtle neck. Some years later I was on a train, meeting up with my boyfriend in Chicago, and I bumped into this same person, who was now a very gay young man who was headed of to the Gay Parade downtown. I was a bit confused but went with it. This wasn’t to be the only guy to take an interest in me in high school and then turn out to be gay. Apparently I attract ambiguous men? Not sure what to think of that.

Anyway, I could have sworn I bumped into him again a few years later; he had gained some weight, and he had just gotten married. . . to a woman. “Well,” I thought, “Maybe he was confused. Maybe he was experimenting. Maybe he’s bisexual! Who knows?” I was a bit confused, but after spending some time pondering it all awhile, I shrugged and moved on.

So, recently, in one of my extracurricular activities, I again bumped into this same guy, who I was told was possibly dating someone in the group. “What?” I said to my informant, “I thought he was married!” I’m sure I fed the gossip-mill on that one. But now I was really curious: What happened with this guy? Was he still gay? Was he cheating on his wife? Was he ever married? Was he divorced? Then, I realized I had a possible source of information that could save me from the awkward: “Hey, I thought you were gay at one point, and then, weren’t you married? And are you dating someone now?” question: Facebook. I could usually count on Facebook for a relationship status or informative picture(s). My gay?/married?/not married?/I-don’t-know-what guy was engaged. To who? I didn’t know. That was not important. It still left some of my questions unanswered. There was were no “divorced” or “recently gay” status options on Facebook. That was ok. Maybe at some holiday party the two of us would get snockered, and I’d ask him my crazy question. Of maybe I’ll just continue musing about it.

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