Posts tagged ‘change’

46 Days ‘Til el Camino: The Valleys

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There is definitely something to be said for taking decisive action.  For me it was buying that plane ticket.  I knew that cemented things for me.  And that’s so important to me now, as the honeymoon period of a brand-new, beautiful idea is petering out.  Do I still want to walk el Camino?  Absolutely.  Do I still plan to?  Definitely. But without that plane ticket, I may have been tempted to hedge a bit this week.

It was one of those weeks for me.  More easily agitated.  A little less motivated.  Thank goodness I still walked, though. I felt much better once I’d started.  I was a bit sore Monday evening and then Tuesday day after that 3-hour walk on Monday.  It’s good to know the muscles are changing.  Wednesday and today I took one-hour walks with a half-packed backpack, and this weekend I intend to walk another 3-hour walk with an even fuller backpack. (Tomorrow I swim.)

I’m changing.  Some of it feels good, and some of it doesn’t.  My self-confidence has definitely improved (although this week it dipped back down a bit).  I feel like I’m also becoming more assertive and less flexible.  I’m not sure how I feel about that.  But it has meant that my resentment levels have dropped, and that definitely feels better.  I’m more focused, more directed . . .  and more stubborn. 🙂  It’s all a learning process, right?

So much I could say, but this is good for today.

Much love, many blessings. ❤

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555 and . . . Unicorns?

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Recently I’ve been seeing quite a few 5’s.  3 of them, to be exact: 555. I’m very into angel numbers, so I immediately looked up the significance in Doreen Virtue’s angel numbers book and got this message:

“Huge changes are rumbling throughout your entire life!  To keep these changes on the highest possible course, be sure to keep your thoughts positive, and stay centered in prayer and affirmations.”

What an exciting message!  (Particularly for someone who believes in the power of transformation!)  What a great chance to play . . . what could this be?  Is this an advancement in my coaching career?  Is this spiritual progress?  Is some part of my vision coming to fruition?  (Or many parts?)  What could these changes look like?

And . . . unicorns?  Unicorns came up 3 times today — 1st Time: listening to part of one of my Vision Workshops, in which I chose “unicorn” as my animal; 2nd Time: It came up on a card in a clip on the Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon; 3rd Time: Doreen Virtue was riding her unicorn and used her unicorn deck today.

As I mentioned in one of my Facebook Lives, repetition — particularly in 3’s! — really gets my attention!  I’m not really sure what to do with it, though.  I’m not sure what a unicorn symbolizes.  Maybe I’ll get some insight from my dreams tonight!

What changes would you love to see in our life?  Much love, many blessings. ❤

Think About It Thursday: How Uncomfortable Are You?

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I think it’s funny that certain subjects/ideas/quotes sometimes seem to come up for me around the same time of year.  I discovered I posted about this almost exactly 2 years ago:

Metaphysics Monday: Are You Uncomfortable Yet?

I’ve really been thinking about this again.  Do you feel comfortable?  REALLY comfortable?  If you do, that may not be a good sign!

Oftentimes discomfort comes from reaching the edge of our boundaries, from stretching farther than we ever have before.  It can feel pretty awkward — even painful!

But then, once we make it through that boundary, extend that wall, we have more space.  We are freer.  And this continues until we completely break through all of our walls, until we no longer have any limitations.

So, how comfortable do you feel now?  Is it time for a little stretch?  I’m telling you, it’s worth it!

Think About It Thursday: Losing Your Mind?

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I was traumatized by my dream this morning.  It put me in a funk that completely threw off my morning routine.  I actually talked with my sister about it before I posted it here because it involved her.

I dreamt that my sister was killed by a train.  I saw her from above, out a 2-story window.  She looked to be a little out of it and was walking along the tracks, sometimes on the tracks, then to the side and above the tracks, and back.  I wanted to warn her, but I think I was afraid she wouldn’t hear me.  A train came by and  somehow missed her.  But then another train came by, and after it passed I saw splattering on the track and knew she was dead.

I remember feeling completely devastated in the dream, that my life had might as well be over. I no longer wanted to live.  I thought I had to tell my dad, and I remember going to talk to him.  I asked him if he was sitting down for this (though I could see him in front of me), and then I told him.  I figured he’d be very upset, but he seemed to take it in stride, even telling me that one of Brian’s aunts had predicted that my sister would be killed by a train!

The translation:

I’ve often thought of my sister as my conscious mind.  In the School of Metaphysics we say that our fiancee/husband is representative of our entire subconscious mind, so since my sister is the very closest female in my life, I’ve seen her as my entire conscious mind.  Death = change.  So, I believe my dream is telling me that my entire conscious mind is changing, and an organization (symbolized by the train) is affecting that change (perhaps the Coop or my DreamBuilder/Life Mastery training).

This makes sense to me.  I’ve been making some major shifts, particularly in my relationship with a higher power and in spiritual writing.  I’m also overcoming perfectionism and putting more attention on being positive.  These are major changes.   That a very religious/spiritual aspect of myself was the one who predicted this change makes a lot of sense.

Have you ever dreamt of the death of someone extremely close to you?  Occasionally that is a precognitive dream, but often it symbolizes a major change happening within a part of yourself.  What internal changes have you been making recently? (If there was a death in your dream, what would that signify for you right now?)

Much love and many blessings. ❤

Zombies

I had a dream this morning that I was in some kind of videogame (more like live action play), and I was aware that I was now on the zombie level.  The zombies would be waking up soon, and I needed a gun.  Then I had a gun and needed to figure out how to work it.  I ran out of the house, hoping to buy myself some time.  Then they were coming at me.  I was shooting at them but missing, almost as if something inside me was making me miss.  I ended up waking myself up from the dream.

I know what the dream was about.  It’s about those monsters inside me, those aspects that should really be dead but that I’m keeping alive.  In class today we shared our inner monsters.  We’re now working on imagining how we actually do want to see ourselves.  I’ve been receiving “imagination” and “visualization” quite a bit from the universe lately.

And apparently the universe really wants my attention on this zombie thing because I had three references to zombies today after I’d had my dream: I noticed a paintball billboard for shooting zombies, I saw a sign outside a classroom that said “Zombies Ahead,” and one of my tutoring students talked about Plants vs. Zombies. I guess this is important. . .

Peace, love, and zombie-less-ness to you all. ❤

On Perspective, Finding the Gold, and “Ms. Self-Righteous” and “Disgust”

Perspective and “Ms. Self-Righteous”

My dharma has been coming up quite a bit in the last week (or at least I’m more aware of it now).  The old dharma, that is.  My dharma report says I need to evolve my dharma.  I notice my dharma these days when I get all riled up over something that I disagree with or that I want to control.  Yesterday it came up with Brian.  That’s when I became aware of another aspect of myself: “Ms. Self-Righteous.”  I think she’s twin sisters with “Ms. Manipulator.”  When I want to control something, they team up.

Basically, what I’m talking about is when I get a particular perspective and the blinders go on.  This one thing is right, and this other thing is wrong, and I want the other person to see this or fix this — or in general, I just want to control this.

Last weekend on the car ride back from our National Teacher’s Weekend I found myself in a situation that I hadn’t expected, and I had a pretty confident opinion about how I thought things should go.  I presented a compromise,  but I secretly hoped that the others involved would see the light and go along with my original plan.  Nope.  They took the compromise with no problem.  This was a shock to me because sometimes the manipulation worked with Brian.

So, when I spoke with Brian yesterday and he called me out on my self-righteous tone, I was shocked into awareness and began to reflect on last week and some of my other experiences.  I realized that I have an attachment to my way of thinking, my way of seeing things, and I feel frustrated and helpless when I can’t get my way.  This is not what I want.

New plan: go with the flow. Allow for different perspectives.  Expand the possibilities.  Invite experiences.  Also, I would like to see learning as more of a game, as an exploration.  I would like to experiment with life with clear intentions and observe how things unfold.  And then at the end of the day, gather all the clay, rework it, and see what enfolds.

Finding the Gold

We’ve got to take the “good” that we can out of every learning experience.  One of my classmates commented on a presentation he’d heard and how one thing the presenter said in the beginning caused him to shut down and not pay any attention to the rest of the presentation.  I was amused by this because I had listened to the exact same presentation and had felt it had blown my mind and expanded my awareness in at least 5 different ways!  Our metaphysics teacher explained that we need to “find the gold” in any experience, in any person — in anything!  If we want to find something valuable — we will!  If we expect to find something awful, we will.  (And we’ll miss out on the good stuff!)  Our teacher then began to talk about famous “good” people and how even they were not perfect.  (But they still did some pretty awesome things!)  Look for the gold; look for the good.  Every moment has treasure and meaning.  We can be grateful for this.  All we need are open eyes and an open heart.

This morning I found myself judging a situation again.  I was suddenly aware of the processes of my mind and how I was quickly concluding with “disgust” (another aspect of myself) and a certainty in my opinion.  I then paused and recognized something greater than my opinion — a desire to connect with someone and be a support for him in a situation that could be for his highest good.  And I recognized a few ways I modify the situation for myself to make it moderately pleasant for me.

We cannot change anyone.  We can only change ourselves.  Sometimes we can’t change a situation, but we can change how we look at it.  We can find the gold. . .  and then let it go.

Many blessings of love and joy to all of you. ❤

A Little Duality

ID-100286034I felt a little dip in energy last week, and I dipped again today.  I can recognize some factors, and I think the strongest one is my struggle with the duality of my present state of mind.  There is a discrepancy between what I know I can be and what I have been.  Change comes from a shift in perspective, and the whole of me has to catch up!  We are habitual beings with habitual ways of thinking and doing.  Awareness is just the first step — Though an important one! —  in our evolution.

So, today I find myself struggling the old struggles and frustrated with the whys.  The lesson in this?  To keep my eyes on the prize — my ideal.  And yet have patience with myself.  I can see clearly now.  It is my responsibility to act.  However, I must love myself through it.  Though, life is filled with peaks and valleys, the path leads steadily upward into the beyond.

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