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Everyday Extroardinary-ness

ID-10052095“When your life is filled with the desire to see the holiness in everyday life, something magical happens: ordinary life becomes extraordinary, and the very process of life begins to nourish your soul!” — Rabbi Harold Kushner

I’ve been on a break for the last 2 weeks (unpaid, but still wonderful!), and at some point I finally hit the point when I felt a little bored.  I realized I had finally slowed down enough to just be.  I thought of the above quote and how I’m now focusing on “being”, more than “doing”, and I realized that “boring” can really be where it’s at.  This will take a revamping of my identity.  I’ve always associated myself with being busy.  I think it made me feel important.  Now I want to feel important because I AM.   It’s not about the destination, right?  It’s the journey.  Make every moment count!

“Slow Down!”

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Image courtesy of zirconicusso /”.

Presently all of my life experiences are  telling me to slow down/ de-busy-ify/stop and smell the roses, etc.  But as long as I can remember I’ve kept myself busy, moving.  It’s a tough life lesson to learn, and I’ve been resisting it.

For example,  it was a “slow” day at work today — The perfect opportunity to practice slowing down, right? — and I couldn’t handle it.  Instead of letting off the accelerator and coasting through my activities, I kept myself busy.  I picked up a broom and swept.  Multiple times.  I wiped counters; I grabbed carts that could wait; I rushed crammed in as many carts as I could at the end of the day.  Why so frenetic, Teri?  What’s the rush?

Yesterday I was late for almost every appointment I had.  I was incredibly stressed about the first one, and yet I proceeded to be late for each proceeding event.  Strangely, I felt I had no control over it.  It was like I was on auto-pilot, disconnected from myself and watching in amazement and horror as I re-lived the same mistake again and again.   What was going on?  I figure I was squeezing too much in.  And it was compounding to the point that I had lost control.

Now I’ve finally noticed that I’m so accustomed to rushing around, that I’ve unconsciously been visualizing rushing around. Before I go to sleep, as I’m planning out my morning, I actually see myself rushing around the house, flying from room to room and sweeping my lunch bag, book, water bottle, and study materials into the whirlwind that is me, as I put Bowser away in his crate and fly out the door.

I cram every minute of every day with something.  I take classes, I add tutoring students, I do homework, I go to events.  While driving I listen to my intuitive reports, practice with the holiday concert recording, and do metaphysics exercises.  I find myself contemplating what to squeeze in while I’m waiting to punch in to work, waiting for my next tutoring appointment, or waiting for my food to be ready.

What would it be like to be bored?  I sometimes wonder if that’s what I am afraid of.  Or maybe it’s something deeper?  A memory pops into my mind: I’m a kid, and I hear a friend talking about how bored she was the past weekend, and I remember thinking “Oh, not me.  Never me. I’m never bored.”  So is that it?  Am I afraid of being some kind of bored loser? Does being busy make me feel important?  Or is it more  of a metaphysical issue, that I am afraid of  quiet . . . of simplicity . . .  of nothingness. . . (of everything-ness?)   What would happen if I were just . . .  still?  What would it be like to have nothing to do, nothing on the agenda, nothing in the works?  What would it be like to let it be and not fill in the blanks with work/projects/visits/chores/homework/Facebook/e-mail, etc?

How about you, out there?  Are you a void-filler, too?

Here’s my plan for this week:

  • First, notice the needs to squeeze.  When I have those extra minutes, am I using it as a nice traffic buffer for my commute?  Or do I feel the need to squeeze in one more metaphysics exercise or check my mail?
  • Second, take those 15 minutes to just be.  Instead of pulling out my phone to make a phonecall while sitting at that red light, how about I just sit there at that red light?  Instead of trying to read my lesson while standing at the time clock, what if I just stand there at the time clock?  I can relax.  Breathe.  Notice my surroundings.  Feel what it’s like to be inside my body, and feel what it’s like to still my mind.
  • Third, take a good look at those big events and commitments.  (Proper perspective!)  No more tight back-to-back scheduling.  Or, in positive form: leave lots and lots of space! Allow myself to just relax,  linger.  Maybe I chit-chat a little with one my tutoring parents or a random stranger.  Maybe I sit outside for a bit, if it’s warm  Maybe I read or journal a bit. . . or maybe not. Maybe I just sit.  There’s no rush.  There is time.   I have an abundance of time.  (Affirmation alert!)

This lesson is a big one. (I think I’ve been working on this one since fourth grade!)  What have you been learning this week?

Wouldn’t It Be Nice

"3d Man With Question Mark" courtesy of Master isolated images/

“3d Man With Question Mark” courtesy of Master isolated images/

Last weekend I went downtown to Chicago with a friend for a tattoo appointment.  (Related post to follow soon.)  I was inspired to write this post from what I saw at the tattoo parlor and the vegetarian restaurant, Chicago Diner, where we went for dinner.

Imagine a World:

where people can go to any job with whatever hair color and hairstyle they want.  People can show their tattoos and piercings; people can wear whatever clothing they want.  They can listen to whatever music they want, and it will be “good music”, as long as they like it.  People can have whatever religious beliefs that they want, any political opinions — or any other opinions — that they want, as long as they don’t force them on other people.  People can comfortably eat what they want and have any body type possible — without judgement.  They can comfortably have any sexual orientation that they want and be any gender that they want.

People can have any type of educational experience and past job experience, as long as they are committed to and qualified for their current job.  And they are chosen based on being the best qualified, not because they are friends with the boss.  And they keep their job because they did their job, not because they’re good at office politics.

People can have any hobbies that they want.   They can have whatever movie and book interests.  People can have any bad day that they want, as long as it doesn’t interfere with their work and with the lives of others.  They can take breaks if they want, as long as their work gets done.  They can eat anytime during the day and go to the bathroom anytime during the day.  If there’s no work to do, they can do something pleasurable, like read, write, make a phonecall, surf the web, go for a walk, stretch, etc.  If they don’t have anything to do the rest of the day, they can go home.

People can take sick days anytime when needed.  They get 3 months worth of vacation time — as long as they have a full year working with the company — and they can take it during any part of the year (as long as it can be worked out fairly among the employees). They can get any health care they need, including preventative health care and natural health options.  Everyone gets two bonuses at the end of the year: one for the worker, and one to be used for the worker’s charity of choice.

Bosses trust their employees.  Employees respect their clients and each other.  Employees feel respected as the person they actually are, not for individuals that they are pretending to be.  They leave their work rejuvenated, happy to work the next day.  They don’t even call their work “work” because they love what they do.

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