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Dreamy Wednesday (Belated):

Sometimes when I go away and my routine gets disrupted, I find it harder to remember my dreams.  Fortunately, my dreams have come back, and with a vengeance!  Here are the last two days:

Yesterday

  • Substitute aid for a P.E. class.  P.E. teacher is in a classroom (a bit larger).  He is gathering up all of the materials when I come in.  Makes a comment about materials left in the hallway by someone else.
  • I am hugging a bunch of men to say goodbye.  For some they seem very attached to me.  One I kiss on the lips, not meant sexually, but the guy’s eyes light up in surprise.  And one guy and I end up dancing a bit.  Some older woman (teacher/authority) breaks us up, and we find another way to dance further apart, holding each other’s hands with arms out.
  • Sitting in chairs, including students, reminiscing over old days.
  • Girl not treated fairly.  We investigate.
  • ___________ ?  people help me move shelves?
  • Climbed a mountain — looked out around as if to try to seethe whole world (as if talking to someone.  Then kind of slid down the mountain.  Went back to my house.  (Slid a little lucidly in the dream.)  Was moving fast through neighborhood.  Car there, but I imagined my route would be clear.  Back to my house (flat?)  Greeted my boys with a hug and kiss.  I was male.  Wife there.
  • Some kind of movie-like scenario with bad guys coming after more laid-back good buys, but they have ingenious home-made contraptions to knock out the bad guy, including a barrel that explodes and lets out farts while the guys are already trapped down.  Later wife is upset because these shenanigans have destroyed the house a bit.  Huge crack against the wall.  We have a fight, and I say to her that she doesn’t appreciate me, basically.  I clarify that I think I’m awesome, but she doesn’t.  I get no reaction from her.
  • Sitting in a car.  (Larger car)  Certain way to sit.  By twos.  (Concert?)
  • Visited YMCA to talk about my business.  Some distractions.  (And her fixing up area.)  I don’t know that we end up talking about it.
  • My sister is upset.  She and Mom have been together and she has had some items stolen from her purse/bag (or at least, they are missing).  She begins replacing some, like nail polish and maybe other make up.  She and Mom are pretty concerned it happened in their quick stop at a hotel.  I ask them which hotel because I say I don’t want the same to happen to me.
  • Mom (at Bobi’s — grandma’s) showing me some jewelry she is wearing (maybe necklace?)  She laughs about how Dido goes/would go around the house opening all of the blinds, and Bobi closes them.
  • My body was freaky skinny.  I had like no behind at all, and I just felt really flimsy like there was no sustenance for me. 

Today

  • Planning to move to Hollywood.  For a moment I identified with Marilyn Monroe (felt I was her).  I began to change my mind, though, knowing how expensive the city would be.  (I think that I told my boss it was going to be my last day.)  Saw a medium-sized model of the city.
  • Something with a girl sitting on my lap and then getting up and telling me how she wanted to be at her pool at home.
  • I remember walking somewhere.  I think we changed the traffic signals accidentally by saying “green” by them.
  • Raffle?
  • Guy walking around with goodies.  I was trying to decide, choose from the plate of sweets.  I chose a chocolate cupcake with white frosting, since I had gotten this one knocked over as I was looking.  But then the whole plate ended up flipped over.
  • Some talking about a presentation to be happy/happening?  3 or 4 lion-like creatures (animatronics or real?)  and talk that the dragon would emerge — just on that day!
  • 3 characters; seems went up into the sky.  The first two were serious and the last one was fun-loving.
  • Talking about talking to people at a party.  When asked, I said it would be different if I were at my particular friend’s house and talking to people.  I’d be like “Hey! Loosen up.  Have some fun.”  People thought this was funny.
  • Some guy did some questionnaire-contest thing.

Day 1 Symbols and Synthesis:

I’m a substitute, P.E. teacher, class materials, hugs, men, kiss, dance, older woman authority figure, hands/arms, chairs, students, girl, shelves, mountain, house, car, sons, hugs and kisses, I’m a male, wife, bad guys, crude/rough good guys, home-made weapon contraptions, farts, wife, crack in wall, car, people sitting, concert?, YMCA, sister, Mom, purse/bag, hotel, make-up/nail polish, Mom, jewelry (necklace?), Bobi, Bobi’s house, Dido, blinds, skinny body.

I’m not going to analyze every bit, so what strikes me about this dream first is that I’m a substitute P.E. teacher.  My intuitive reports talked about the importance of me being grounded, rooted in the physical, and in the importance of touch.  I believe this means I am exploring this.  I am also really connecting with subconscious mind, in the interactions I have with the men and with my two little boys.  PLUS I actually identify as a male.  Really seeing myself subconsciously.  There is some dissonance that I experienced with the battling men and in my interactions with the older woman and with my wife.  The crack in the wall is probably a good thing — it is breaking down limitations.  However, my conscious mind is unhappy about it.  I am intrigued by the hotel and jewelry situations.  We have the common theme of expression between the two.  In one, I am consciously, rapidly trying to replace self-expression that I have lost while going in and out of universal mind.  In the other, a superconscious aspect is showing off some self-expression.  The blinds make me think of allowing awareness and light in and out of the mind.

Day 2

Move, Marilyn Monroe, boss, model of Hollywood, girl, lap, traffic signals, raffle?, guy, dessert plate, chocolate cupcake, real/machine creatures, 3 characters, the sky, party, party people.

These dreams just seem really fluffy to me with the Hollywood, Marilyn Monroe, the desserts, the magical creatures, people floating into the sky, being at a party.  What I get out of this for myself is that I need to get myself grounded, relax, make wise moves, get out of my head, and take in wholesome knowledge from my experiences.

Do you want to share your dream?   I love to hear others’ dreams!  Please e-mail me your dream: teri.karl@gmail.com.   If you’d like, I’ll respond with some suggestions of possible meanings and see what resonates with you.  Then please share how you would apply that to your life and let me know if you’d like to be featured in a “Dreamy Wednesday” post!

Happy dreaming!

 

Dreamy Wednesday: Imagination, Good Naturedness, and Faith

Back to visit with ex-boyfriend.  Go to computer room.  Computer has been moved to different spot.  I question if he even lives in this complex/apartment/condo anymore.  I do find his room and knock.  There are multiple doors because nearby door is overlapping.  He calls out and says is in the bathroom.  Dog? at apartment complex when I come in to see ex.

Someone invites me to event.  I don’t think I can because of SOM Dreamcatchers.   But I think it’s ______  Sandy ._______.

Some dress-up thing.  We are all in costumes.  We are walking to somewhere.  I am dressed as Mother Teresa.  I question whether I have the headpiece on right (to look authentic).  I hear murmuring, at least one person (woman) recognizes who I’m supposed to be and says she loves Mother Teresa.

SOM is __________.  SOM Michael is there.  He looks different.  I tell him so.  I tell him that he looks more confident.  (Some event or something or new class has maybe happened.  I see Jesse (tall).  He has a BU shirt on.  It is from graduation.  90-something is on it.  Years and years ago.

Something about how classes were done and the quality of education.  Assessments?  I don’t believe my college experience was of quality. 

At large gathering.  Concert?  We are singing (whole crowd) along with video lyrics or screen.  A famous? guest woman is singing, too, but we are not matching with her; we are matching the recording.  (She is off from it.)  Whoever is running the show stops the whole thing because we are off.  They play another song, but none of us join in.  We don’t know the song.  Then they play another song.  I say I love it!  And join in.

I share something from my cousin Tyler.  His work.  Artistic.  Maybe __________?, too.  I appreciate the color.  It’s as if I am proud as if I was his teacher.  Person going around to have us present notices I’m off, asks if I’m ok.  I say I’m getting choked up (nostalgic?)  He says “Good” and smiles.

Symbols:

  • ex-boyfriend
  • computer room
  • non-existent computer
  • apartment
  • doors
  • bathroom
  • Mother Teresa costume
  • SOM Michael
  • Jesse
  • BU shirt with 90-something
  • concert venue
  • songs
  • guest singer
  • Tyler
  • Unknown male
  • work
  • work tables

Analysis

My ex-boyfriend was fairly non-expressive.  I remember wanting to hear more from him.  A computer room is a place for the computer, which is symbolically our brain.   My brain was not where I thought it would be. . . .  Something about a smaller space but kind of Universal Mindish with all the surrounding people living there.  A bathroom is for cleansing.

Mother Teresa is one of the people I want to emulate for my ideal self.  A costume suggests I am trying a new way of expressing myself related to her.

My word of the day was “Faith”, and I believe SOM Michael represents that, with the choices he has made in his life.  Jesse represents good-naturedness and innocence to me.  He is expressing learning, and the number may be symbolic, or else he is expressing learning from the past.

Many, many, many aspects of self are gathered together to harmonize with each other.  They are not in sync with this new imagined aspect.  There is a perfectionistic aspect there, wanting to start the show over.

My cousin represents even-keelness and good-naturedness.  This part of me was younger than real life in the dream — developing? And I am working with it, since I am the teacher.  Superconsciousness in the form of the boss, and it is pleased with the creation happening with this aspect of self, and my emotional response to it.

Summary:

We are going from a focus on the brain and lacking expression — which is unsuccessful — to trying myself out in the role of my ideal self (loving), to focusing on faith and drawing upon past learnings with the good-natured and innocent part of me.  Some harmonization is attempted and is successful with many aspects of self, but not regarding imagination; in fact — I am almost ready to scrap the whole thing, losing interest, but then I get reanimated again.  Finally, I have had some success in creativity and teaching myself, related to the development of even-keelness and good-naturedness.  My superconscious is overseeing this.

This sounds about like my day.  I am developing my imagination and creativity, and struggle through the ups and downs of seeming failures and successes. Looking forward to my dreams tonight!

Dreams: Auditioning and the Takeover?

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My dream was not as vivid this morning.  I think it’s mainly because my morning routine has been messed up.  I’m trying to get up early so that I can get a lot done in the morning.  I aim for 5:30 or 6:00 but actually get up at 6:30, which messed with my dream recall.

HOWEVER, I’m determined to start looking at my dreams, and I’m not going to use my struggle as an excuse not to start.  So, this is wrote in my dream journal:

Something about auditioning.

Something about being in a lower level.  Through wall windows or spaces I see dangerous people approach from above (stairs?)  I warn the female leader of our group a few times as I seem them approach closer and closer.  She is not concerned.  Finally, they come.  I believe they are all male, and we are female, and they intend to be our captors and have their way with us.  The guy who is matched with me does not seem overpowering, seems flexible, so I begin to take charge.  That’s all I remember.

Symbols: (using The Dreamer’s Dictionary by Dr. Barbara Condron)

  • auditioning — trying out/experimenting with imagination
  • lower level of building — lower level of consciousness, possibly unconscious
  • window — awareness
  • females (unknown) — unknown conscious aspects of self (since I am female)
  • males (unknown) — unknown subconscious aspects of self (since I am female)
  • intended deflowering — potential refusal to receive what the conscious mind is offering (since I am female; it is different for males)

Summary:

So, it looks like I am trying out the use of my imagination, but I’m not really conscious of it.  I have some awareness of my subconscious trying to manifest through me, but I am wary of it and rejecting it.

Connection to the last 24-48 hours

The day before I was mostly tutoring/prepping for tutoring, and I watched part of Inception.  The day before I watched an awesome documentary: Inner Worlds, Outer Worlds.  I also watched some documentaries on dreams, blogged about my intentions to share about my dreams, and listened to some great metaphysical discussions.

Perhaps the dream refers to my desire to share about my dreams and get connected to my subconscious.  Perhaps I am not as committed to my subconscious as I would like to believe, and I am unconsciously sabotaging it by not getting up on time in the morning.

It may also refer to my struggle with my thoughts.  My new affirmation has been: “This is the best day of my life!” But I’ve lost some momentum with that.  When I used the affirmation, my days actually were pretty wonderful.

Finally, it may also refer to my desire to be more creative — more journaling or sketching — but not actually doing it.

Application:

Tomorrow I will wake up at 5:30am.  I will make sure I sit up and record my dreams immediately.  Then, I will proceed with my planned morning schedule, including journaling/sketching.  I will continue to observe my thoughts, being thankful for everything in my life and affirming “This is the best day of my life!”

Subconscious, I am ready to receive!

Dream A Little Dream With Me: My First Class Fundraiser Experience

This was inspired by a request to put something in our Metaphysics School newsletter Vibrations.  I don’t know how much of this is going to go in yet, but you get to see it first! 🙂

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Image courtesy of samarttiw / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Who knew a fundraiser could be so much fun?  Our class put the “FUN!” in fundraiser when we had our “Fun Night of Dreaming” Saturday, October 12th.

When Golbahar, my Metaphysics instructor, told us that each class has fundraiser projects, my ego snapped to attention, and the internal whining commenced.  Giving and receiving is something that I’ve struggled with my whole life; thus, fundraisers are not my favorite events.  However, one of the many things I’ve learned through Metaphysics class  is that retreating to one’s place of comfort means missing opportunities for growth.

SO, when Golbahar mentioned that she was going to go around asking for food donations, something inside me told me to go with her.  Unfortunately, my schedule was packed, and Golbahar and others were getting ready for the 40th Anniversary Celebration, so finding a time to meet up got complicated.  Suddenly, me watching how donations were done turned into ME getting donations done!  At first, I panicked, but after some comforting suggestions from our guest teacher, Rudy – and not wanting to let my classmates, or myself, down – I determined that I would give it a shot.  Even just doing it would help me build self-confidence and experience, no matter what the result.

And no, it did not turn out to be a happily-ever-after experience. I quickly learned — useful for you future fundraiser-ers out there – that most places now want 21-30 days notice to process your donation request.  (Now, I know!)  However, I gained confidence  each time I got the guts to speak to a manager — a total of 5 times! — and I got a wonderful “Yes!” from Olive Garden who generously supplied us with some tasty breadsticks and bruschetta.

The event was perfect.  I panicked again when we only had a handful of people at the beginning, but our guests gradually began to trickle in, and we ended up with enough people to all comfortably squeeze into our downstairs meeting space.  We had a great time discussing what dreams are, we shared and interpreted dreams (Kids got in on it, too!), we had our “50-50” and “Dream Coach Session” raffles, and we even played a little Dream Bingo.  (I won the first round and won some beautiful tealight candles that are perfect for my candle exercise!)

What did I learn this event (besides that fundraisers don’t have to be scary)?  I learned that I am stronger than I think I am and that I can achieve what I desire, if I focus my attention on it.  What did we gain as a group?  We came together as a team and gained an appreciation for each other’s special talents.  All of us had some part to play in the preparation of this event; all of us did an amazing job speaking to the group, sharing our dream experiences with a charm and honesty that made the presentations really fun to watch.

So, a month ago, if you’d dropped the word: “Fundraiser!” I’d have said “What?!  No!”  But now I’m looking forward to our next event!

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