Archive for the ‘Uncategorized’ Category

Perspective

IMG_2111.JPG

I had a huge breakthrough today on the lesson of “Perspective.”  Years ago I received my Dharma Report.  It told me that I had spent many lifetimes exacting what I saw as “justice”.  Justice is my dharma, or life’s purpose.  However, it went on to say that it was now time to evolve this dharma through an understanding of the Law of Karma (of Cause and Effect).  I didn’t understand this report AT ALL when I first received it.  I was thoroughly disappointed, even.  I had a dharma that wasn’t even a good dharma?  I had to evolve it? What??  At the time I couldn’t even fathom it.  I’m to be an observer?  I’m to let people make mistakes?  I just. . .  watch them. . .  Isn’t that too passive?

But today I pieced things together.  On my morning walk I was contemplating this and other intuitive reports I’d received. I’d heard things like ” energetic constriction of the heart” and “a great love for her  ideas.”  A great attachment, it sounded like.  Suddenly, this morning it suddenly clicked: I have a very strong attachment to my perspective.   Perspective is often tied to judgment.  Judgement is what colors what is.  A situation has no meaning until we give it meaning.  We are the ones who label what’s “good” or “bad.”

Have you noticed that many people talk about their greatest challenges as some of the most influential parts of their lives?  They sure struggled, but they also came out a different person at the other end.  They learned things in a way that no book or class could ever teach them.  They were wiser, stronger.  Would it have been fair to rob them of those experiences?  Do you know the story of the child who cut open the cocoon of the struggling, new butterfly? In the end, the prematurely freed butterfly was not strong enough to fly.

And sometimes we’re just plain wrong.  I was blown away by how many times I was “wrong” on the Camino.  I sometimes misread the map (argued over it, too!), or misjudged a person’s actions, misunderstood a person’s words, or dismissed the effectiveness of certain treatments.

“What am I supposed to learn here?” I wondered afterward, “Is the lesson that I’m not to trust myself?”

It was actually teaching me to let go of my perspective.  It was teaching me openness, flexibility, and letting go.

So, what do we do then?  Trust the process.  Observe.   Listen and receive carefully and completely before we dismiss. Do the best we can.  Offer our perspective when asked or called to share.  Do what we can with what he have.  Experiment, learn, grow.  And then, release.  Let it go, let life flow.

Love, light, and many blessings. ❤

Camino Gratitude

rose-266785_1280.jpg

As you may have heard me say before: I intended to walk the Camino alone.  I did this, but not really.  And I am grateful for everyone who took the walk with me emotionally, spiritually, and physically.  I would like to acknowledge them here.

My Inspiration

First, I would like to thank Goldie Matthew.  I first learned of the Camino at her Motivational Movie Night, when I saw Walking the Camino: 6 Ways to Santiago for the first time. (The seed was planted!)

Father Don Elias

I also want to thank the priest, Father Don Elias, who revived the Camino and whose yellow arrows guided me so perfectly all the way to Santiago.

My Family

I am also grateful for my family, who supported me immediately from vision through completion to readjusting to normal life!  My fiancee made sure I checked in every day and gave me a perfect welcome home. My dad was immediately excited for me and offered me some travel gear to help me on my journey.  My sister helped take care of our pets while I was gone, supported me financially in some of my travel costs, and helped me download Relaxercise, which saved my feet from tendonitis and any other possible foot ills!  My mom bought me the two guide books that helped me set the perfect foundation for a successful trip, as well as my amazing hiking boots, sleeping gear, and other odds and ends.  It was truly a group effort!

My Grandmothers

Next I would like to thank my grandmothers!  My Ukrainian grandmother prayed the “Little Flower Novena” for me every day, followed my travels on a map from town to town, and told me to watch for roses (which I saw EVERY day!)  My grandmother-in-law encouraged me with her Facebook comments on my trip updates.  My Illinois grandmother sent me off with the most beautiful, loving phone message that touched me and made me cry.

The Pilgrims

I am so grateful for the many people I met along the way, some who I met in passing — some who I’m still connected to!  I met people from Mexico, Argentina, Puerto Rico, many parts of the U.S., Canada, Scotland, Ireland, England, Spain, Portugal, France, Italy, Germany, Switzerland, Austria, Tunisia, South Korea, China, Norway, Sweden, Slovenia, Poland, Lithuania, Belgium, Denmark, the Netherlands, Australia, and New Zealand! (And I’m probably missing some!)

Though I needed my solitude, it would have been incredibly challenging for me to have walked the whole way alone.  I am grateful to those who shared dinner with me, albergues with me, part of the Way with me, or even just a “Buen Camino!” with me!

My Home Community

The outpouring of support I received from the community back home was unbelievable, and I was amazed by how powerful and pivotal that encouragement was for me. Some supported me through texts, some through social media.  I posted updates on Facebook maybe 15 times, and the amount of loving, supportive comments I received was staggering.  I am truly grateful to anyone who was a part of this journey, on any level.

My Spiritual Community

I would be remiss if I did not give thanks to those in the spiritual realm who were with me every step of the way.  Of course, I give thanks to Source, the Creator of all (including me, Spain, and the Camino!)  I thank the angels and spirit guides who keep me safe, nudge me with guidance and teachings, and who support and unconditionally love me through every little detail.  (May I learn to love as you do!)

I give thanks again to everyone mentioned here, to anyone I may have missed, and to you readers, who have also been a part of my journey.  Your love and support means more to me than you could ever know.

Love, light, and blessings. ❤

Reintegration

IMG_2239

Still walking a mini-“Camino” back home!  Do you like my mini backpack?  (So much lighter!)

I’ve been giving myself time to “process” the Camino.  But now I’m pretty convinced I’m just procrastinating — and people have been asking about it — so it’s time to get writing again.

I’ve been reintegrating myself into “normal life,” but it’s been a little weird because most of my tutoring clients want to wait to start up again until after I return from next week’s Shaklee conference.  And as far as coaching, I haven’t started the ball back rolling yet.  I’m still looking at where I want to tweak things, as I continue to reinvent myself.

So, really, this week, I’ve mostly put “life” (work) on hold and have turned to my house and other parts of my life.  My sister has been a wonderful support this week.  I’ve continued to do my daily “Camino”, now with my sister for an hour or two in the mornings, which has been wonderful for mental processing.  We’ve also been reorganizing the whole house, a project she started with my fiancee, even before I’d returned!  The kitchen is now the most organized it’s ever been, the living room looks fantastic, and the office is becoming more inviting.  We moved a set of the bookshelves into the basement, and I replaced them with a wall of plants!

IMG_2255.JPG

It’s a jungle in here!

Another blessing in this transition has been the connections I made through the Camino.  I decided I was going to “bare bones” it with technology and get a very minimalistic plan and rely on wifi.  (This was supposed to be a spiritual experience, right??)  This became a little tricky when I began to make friends and wanted to stay connected with people along the route who who had better internet access.

 

Camino friend: “Do you have “WhatsApp”?

Me: No.

Camino Friend:Well, you can download it from the App store.”

Me: Yeah, but I have no internet access anyway until I get to the next albergue with wifi. . .

So, FINALLY, on the last day of my trip I download the app, and have therefore been able to stay connected with one of the groups of friends I made along the way, vicariously walking on to Finisterre with them and also bonding over post-Camino transitions and issues.

Me: Weird random question: Did anyone else’s feet balloon up big time after you stopped walking?  I think mine are finally returning to normal . . .

Camino Friend 1: Yes, (Camino Friend 2) is having that happen now, lol

Camino Friend 3: It happened to me yesterday! A little today.

Camino Friend 2: I’m surprised it happened to me but yes, it helps to prop your feet up.  Usually it gets bad when I’ve been sitting for longer than an hour.

Me: Glad to know I’m not completely abnormal!  I’ll have to do that more.

Camino Friend 3: I went shoe shopping in Porto yesterday.  Was kind of embarrassing!

Camino Friend 4: The same Way happened to me as you, as we. . .  in fact.

Camino Friend 5: YES.  The 11 hr flight also didn’t help.  Everything was swelling and getting super stiff.

I’ve also kept contact with my  young French friend through Facebook messenger and also reconnected with a friend that I met my very first night!  I joined the Facebook group American Pilgrims on the Camino (APOC) ® before I left for the Camino, to get advice for the trip.   I was stunned this week to see a posted picture of an American pilgrim standing alongside my Beilari Scottish dinner mate and rose-tatooed Canadian friend! She wrote this beautiful message:

Camino good byes are so difficult! I’ve spent the past 36 days with Craig and Virginia. We met on June 28, our first day, each of us setting out on our own. I met Craig on the way up the mountain, while trying to catch my breath. Virginia and I met up shortly after, taking a small break. Who knew that that first day would set the tone for my Camino. It’s strange for pilgrims to walk together for so long, but we just clicked. These two made my Camino incredible. We’ve shared a unique experience that’s impossible for others to understand. They’re my family now. They will forever be a part of my life and forever be in my heart. I can’t thank them enough for everything. The Camino works in amazing ways. They came into my life when I needed it the most.

In the past when I’ve gone on trips, we’ve tended to quickly lose connection as the memories of the trip fade into the background, and our lives come back to the foreground.  Here’s to hoping this time will be different — especially since I plan to continue on other “Camino”s!

Sharing this with you has been wonderful.  I plan to schedule a post for every day this week, even while I’m away at conference.  (Keep an eye out!)

Love, light, and blessings. ❤

Camino Withdrawal

IMG_1617.JPG

It is good to be back at my laptop. I finished the Camino (“The French Way”) on July 28th, 2017.  Today I am back home and experiencing some serious “Camino” withdrawal. I understand this is normal, and it does feel good — cathartic, despite some pain.

At 5am this morning Brian woke up early to start his “Miracle Morning.” I got up with him (though a few minutes later). I stepped into his routine, started a pot of tea, and helped him make a smoothie — and then it hit. As we sat drinking our morning tea I related to him: “Right now I might be getting up, or maybe a little later (though on Spain time). I’d be putting lotion on my feet in the dark. Then, I’d roll up my sleeping bag liner. I’d wrap my big toes, put two layers of socks on, and fill up my water bottles . . . Then, I’d pack up, put my hiking boots on, and often leave in the dark. . .” Then the tears flowed. I think it concerned him, but I assured him this was normal.

Just this last Friday morning is when I reached Santiago. There wasn’t a big fanfare; I reached it alone. Friends had already arrived before and would continue to arrive after. I started the trip alone; I ended it alone — and I think I’d wanted it that way. On my way down the streets of Santiago that Friday, walking toward the Obradoiro Plaza, I heard city violinists played Sting’s “Fields of Gold.” How did they know to play that song? Memories of the first few days and my first walking companions swam back into my memory. My South Korean friend was once again playing the song on his phone for me and my Camino friends from France and the UK, as we walked along our own “fields of gold”, our feet swaying with the rows of wheat along the “French Way”.

I don’t want to forget. The tears remind me that I won’t. I still have not fully processed everything, and that’s ok. Thank you for taking this journey with me.

Love, light, blessings. ❤

59 Days ‘Til El Camino: Stay the Course

backpack-1867591_1920

Long day today, but I did get a couple short laps around the circle in today with my huge backpack on.  I’m still debating whether to bring my Rick Steve’s backpack on the trip.  My joints were a little funky today, and I did some reading on low blood pressure because I was rejected for giving blood yesterday.  No more crossing the legs, and I’ve got to make sure I’m eating enough and the right foods.  I’ve got to keep health at the top of my list.  I forget how valuable it is sometimes.  It can be the most important abundance we have.

Much love, many blessings.

Be the Change

self-confidence-2076788_1920.jpg

Everything I’m doing is for me.  This is a challenging concept for myself.  It makes me feel “selfish.”  It makes me feel separate.  But it’s anything but.  It’s not that at all.  Because I am a part of the whole.  When I improve, the whole improves.  The world improves. Will you join me?

Just over a year ago I was lost.  I knew I was in a bad place in my thoughts (and therefore in my outward manifestations), and I was desperate for change.  That’s when the universe introduced my sister (and then me!) to Mary Morrissey and the Life Mastery Institute.  I knew I’d found something.  I still remember thinking:  “I need this.  And I think I can give this to others, too.”

I needed it.  And I still do.  I needed to know how to dream again.  Fast forward, and now it’s a year later.  A year of dreaming.  And I’m still getting clearer on who I am and what I desire.  But one dream has always been consistent from the very first time I did the dream exercise: I love traveling.

So, now I’m putting it first.  Ahead of everything. I’m walking el Camino this summer. And I’ve experienced what my clients experience — that first rush of excitement when I made the decision this past Saturday.  And also ALL of the paradigms that rushed in afterwards, starting in a slow trickle on Saturday and rushing in a  SCREAMING stream on Sunday and Monday. . .  But I’m a DreamBuilder.  I know this is all part of the process!

I’m following my heart and the guidance I’ve received.  I’m an example for those dreamers who will follow.  How can I tell others to live into their dreams — if I am not stepping into my own?   So, I’m walking el Camino.  Now.  This July.   Ever since I saw Walking the Camino: 6 Ways to Santiago, I knew I wanted to go.  And I’m grateful for the intuitive support to back it up:

  • I need to know myself and my authority
  • I connect to God/spirit best through nature
  • Nature and exercise together are the best for me
  • I connect best through internal stillness.
  • I love travel, and travel is a part of my future.

And this finally sparked the flame:

We see this one is considering taking some time of journey. We see it would be important for this one to do this, as there is much available — in terms of —  in the field of this one’s vibration, there is much moving in this one’s vibration, and this journey will assist this one to tap into that and then draw these desires into physical form, as this one’s vibration will change in this journey.

I desire this so much!

I’m stepping out again.  Last year I made a huge leap when I signed up to be a DreamBuilder Coach and Life Mastery Consultant, and with the help of my angels (both in the ethers and on Earth), I accomplished that dream.  Now, it’s time for my next dream.  I’m on to the next stage of my evolution.

I encourage you to do the same.

Last week during my mastermind I was asked: “What would you regret if you died tomorrow? What would you wish you had done?”

“Travel” immediately popped in my head.  And so it is.

Now ,I turn it to you, fellow dreamers. What would you do if anything were possible?   If you knew you were going to die in the next few days, what would you regret?  What is at the top of your bucket list?  Why wait?  What’s the next step you can take into your dream?

I’m changing the world.  Are you with me?

Much love, many blessings. ❤

Flat, Narrow Feet; Sloping Shoulders — And I’m “Perfect”!

umbrellas-984149_1920.jpg

Here’s my full title: Flat, Narrow Feet; Sloping Shoulders; Long Torso and Short Legs; Far-Sighted and Astigmatism — And I’m “Perfect!”  (And those are just things that I was born with!)

I picked up Light Emerging: The Journey of Personal Healing again by Barbara Ann Brennan, and it’s fascinating.  I love how she separates us into 3 selves: the Mask Self, the Lower Self, and the Higher Self.  The Mask Self is the facade we create to fit into society, the Lower Self is the part of us that focuses on separation and has lost sight of who we are and where we came from.  And the Higher Self is the part of us that is “clear and loving without any struggle” and “connected to our individual divinity within.”

What I picked up from Brennan today is both the value of awareness and acceptance.  Ultimate pain and sickness is not created by who we are but by what we repress.  We come into this life trying to protect ourselves, afraid of pain.  Pain that we bury within ourselves becomes a part of ourselves that is either later triggered into expression or buried deeper and deeper, becoming a wound that never heals and eats away at us.  We heal ourselves by going back into the pain, by bringing light to what we’ve kept in darkness.

I have a few things I’m practicing this week:

  1. Use the reframe: Ask myself: How can I see the light in this situation?  How can I use it for my own good and for the good of others?
  2. Recognize and accept: What am I feeling in this moment?  What am I afraid or ashamed of and wanting to repress?  And then fill myself with loving light and accept myself for what I am experiencing in that moment, remembering again who I really am.

Much love and many blessings. 

Tag Cloud

%d bloggers like this: