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It’s Not About Me

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I’m facilitating an Artist’s Way group.

Today was the start date of official meetings.

In chapter 1 Julia Cameron introduces the “Censor”.

 

I did not expect

to come face-to-face with mine

outside the pages . . .

But instead . . .

inside, as group leader.

 

“You’re not doing well,” it says.

“Not enforcing the guidelines,” it says.

Then old memories resurface.

Of struggles

in other times I have lead.

 

Then, I want to hide.

I want to quit.

I want to lay down

and relinquish..

 

But Instead I breathe,

focus on my heart.

Focus on the others.

 

And  everyone seems happy.

They connect.

I see it now:  the group itself is a work of art.

The Creator spoke to me, and we made this.

And it is beautiful.

And I am grateful.

 

Much love and many blessings. ❤

 

 

 

 

Just Be Yourself!

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I drew some cards for some people today and also picked one for myself.  Spot on again!  I’ve been thinking about this quite a bit — I get into this rut sometimes, thinking that things need to be a certain way, that I need to conform.

I’ve realized that really being myself can mean being spontaneous, random, illogical — and sometimes downright magical!

How about you? 

Much love and many blessings! ❤

Dusted Off Dream

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I’m official!  I can officially teach Zumba!  Now I to just need to get ready for my first class and find a place to teach it!

I was reflecting during the Zumba training today that the universe works in mysterious ways.  If you look carefully at my vision board below (some images many years old), there are actually three images related to dance on there. (And still willing for the Dancing with the Stars one to happen!)

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I knew I wanted to dance — I just didn’t have a clear picture of what I’d be doing.  Brian and I have talked about taking a dance class together — and I’ve been playing Zumba on the XBox360 on-and-off for years now — but that’s as far as things had gone until today.   Today in training as I was grabbing a water break, I had a flashback to 2002, to that that cute instructor and aerobics class that I took when I studied abroad in Mexico.  It may have actually been my first Zumba class!

Now I feel like the doors have really opened since I accepted the universe’s nudge.   I’m sure I’m making that little girl happy, the one that used to dance around the house to The Nutcracker on my parents’ old record player.

Here’s to your dreams! Much love and many blessings. ❤

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Pests

Asian beetle eats my rose bush.

So much damage.

Should he stay or should he go?

Are we not also . . .

the world’s pests?

A Blog Post Every Day???

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I’ve been thinking about how I want to start this blog going again, and I just watched a great interview between Seth Godin and Marie Forleo, currently two of my favorite people.

Seth Godin says to blog EVERY day.

He says that if you know you have to write a blog tomorrow (about something you’ve noticed, or a useful opinion, perspective, piece of knowledge, etc), you will open your expectations to receiving those things, to inventing and noticing those things.   This is great for you!  You can’t help but get better yourself.  AND if other people actually read it and enjoy it — so much the better!  He says his goal is not to sell,  but to be trusted. And to help make the change he seeks to have happen for the world.

Beautiful stuff.  SO, I’ll see you again tomorrow!

Much love and many blessings. ❤

Guest Post from Jorge Candelaria: The Power of Conscious Emotion

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The Power of Conscious Emotion

by Jorge Candelaria

Some people want to improve their lives, but they don’t want to do anything differently. They are addicted to their way of being.  To improve one’s life and make the difference on the planet requires trying different ways of being.  Sometimes it requires challenge and sacrifice, but sometimes it’s just about enjoying the journey.

It has been six years since I started my journey to know myself.  I had no idea at that time where I was going to end up, and that allowed me the freedom to have new experiences and to be different, From my heart I knew that there had to be something more out there because nothing that I was doing was fulfilling me.

Some parts of the journey have felt like a struggle, and in other parts I am reaping the fruit of my efforts.  The first step in my journey was exploring discipline, and I experienced how powerful it was. I learned the influence of discipline on my feelings and emotions, and I started to understand my environment at a deeper level. I also became aware of other people’s behavior around me and the influence of our thoughts and our choices on each other and each other’s behavior.  

I fell in love with discipline, meditation, and spiritual exercises, that allows me to be in the present moment and get me closer and closer to have a quiet mind. I started practicing self-observation and objectivity with my thought; this process allowed me to discover all the baggage that I needed to change or get rid of.  At some points I was face-to-face with anger, self-pity, and sorrow.  Sometimes I reacted, blamed, and complained, blending all of those emotions. In those moments I realized the effect of discipline and commitment in the process of spiritual development, in being able to see how I was actually creating my reality. I also observed past patterns of thinking, including coping mechanisms I used to hide myself in, using unproductive habits like overworking or excessive internet use when things got tough.  Then instead I started developing ways that I could be in those challenging emotions, experiencing them. I observed myself in the present moment, observed how I was creating the experience.  I could then see if the feeling was habitual, an addictive behavior that was that an unconscious reaction to the experience. In that process, I learned that I had so many wounds that I needed to heal, like blaming other for triggering a negative emotion.  I realized it was something that I learned at home when I was little. Through this process I began to discover and trace how I developed my personality, and how I became who I am.

I also started to observe the usefulness of discipline to consciously create in my life. This is  something that I have always enjoyed.  I see the benefits of discipline in creating a business and focusing on one direction without the hassle of the standard ways of marketing, just maintaining the positive and direct thoughts of serving and loving what I do.  

The objectivity and mindfulness I have developed has helped me stay conscious in my work.  The unconscious habit that I catch myself in is thinking that just working harder is going to help me to solve a problem in the business, in my life or in being ‘productive.’ I think I am going to fill some emptiness. In those moments I now stop and look for what I am avoiding, what problem or what emotion I need to face.

In the journey of breaking my addictive behavior, I have found that the most important thing is to experience a deeper understanding of love. I am looking to receive all new people in my life into my heart, to experience divine friendship. Also, just as importantly, I look to experience and practice self love.

Follow-Up on Pride

Verdict on pride: neutral.

“Everything in moderation, including moderation.” — Oscar Wilde

Pride came up last night at a party.  A person had recently come back from a trip and told me about how proud the people there were of their heritage.  The word stabbed at me as they crossed their ears. And I noticed. . . there was even a sense of pride in the way he talked about their “pride”!

But I  believe in the value of moderation.  Pride in accomplishments builds confidence, builds self-esteem.  I know from personal experience that not enough pride — an overemphasis of and misunderstanding of humility — can lead to depression and self-hatred.  Yet. . .too much pride can lead to isolationism. It can mean an over-emphasis on the qualities of an individual, group, or organization over the qualities and potential of others.

Whereas love of the self is necessary, love of one to the detriment of others is the seed of misunderstandings, fighting, and even war.

I will no longer completely reject pride . . . nor will I absolutely condone it!

Much love any many blessings. ❤

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