The Power of Conscious Emotion
by Jorge Candelaria
Some people want to improve their lives, but they don’t want to do anything differently. They are addicted to their way of being. To improve one’s life and make the difference on the planet requires trying different ways of being. Sometimes it requires challenge and sacrifice, but sometimes it’s just about enjoying the journey.
It has been six years since I started my journey to know myself. I had no idea at that time where I was going to end up, and that allowed me the freedom to have new experiences and to be different, From my heart I knew that there had to be something more out there because nothing that I was doing was fulfilling me.
Some parts of the journey have felt like a struggle, and in other parts I am reaping the fruit of my efforts. The first step in my journey was exploring discipline, and I experienced how powerful it was. I learned the influence of discipline on my feelings and emotions, and I started to understand my environment at a deeper level. I also became aware of other people’s behavior around me and the influence of our thoughts and our choices on each other and each other’s behavior.
I fell in love with discipline, meditation, and spiritual exercises, that allows me to be in the present moment and get me closer and closer to have a quiet mind. I started practicing self-observation and objectivity with my thought; this process allowed me to discover all the baggage that I needed to change or get rid of. At some points I was face-to-face with anger, self-pity, and sorrow. Sometimes I reacted, blamed, and complained, blending all of those emotions. In those moments I realized the effect of discipline and commitment in the process of spiritual development, in being able to see how I was actually creating my reality. I also observed past patterns of thinking, including coping mechanisms I used to hide myself in, using unproductive habits like overworking or excessive internet use when things got tough. Then instead I started developing ways that I could be in those challenging emotions, experiencing them. I observed myself in the present moment, observed how I was creating the experience. I could then see if the feeling was habitual, an addictive behavior that was that an unconscious reaction to the experience. In that process, I learned that I had so many wounds that I needed to heal, like blaming other for triggering a negative emotion. I realized it was something that I learned at home when I was little. Through this process I began to discover and trace how I developed my personality, and how I became who I am.
I also started to observe the usefulness of discipline to consciously create in my life. This is something that I have always enjoyed. I see the benefits of discipline in creating a business and focusing on one direction without the hassle of the standard ways of marketing, just maintaining the positive and direct thoughts of serving and loving what I do.
The objectivity and mindfulness I have developed has helped me stay conscious in my work. The unconscious habit that I catch myself in is thinking that just working harder is going to help me to solve a problem in the business, in my life or in being ‘productive.’ I think I am going to fill some emptiness. In those moments I now stop and look for what I am avoiding, what problem or what emotion I need to face.
In the journey of breaking my addictive behavior, I have found that the most important thing is to experience a deeper understanding of love. I am looking to receive all new people in my life into my heart, to experience divine friendship. Also, just as importantly, I look to experience and practice self love.
Archive for the ‘Gratitude’ Category
I wish I’d written down my dreams immediately this morning. What I do remember is this:
- In the dreams I considered myself a “healer.”
- I was in a room with individuals, but I don’t remember any touch interaction.
- In one dream a woman was talking to me directly about the value of “struggle.” And how it made her grateful for her life.
- There was overall a feeling of gratitude.
- In at least one dream, children were involved.
I’ve been looking into healing touch again. I was poking around in Barbara Brennan’s Hands of Light book. And today I’m poking into a book a friend lent me: The Healing Energy of Your Hands by Michael Bradford. Sometimes I ask myself if I’m just distracting myself from other things that I currently have in the works. And sometimes I think: You’re being guided that way. And anyway, maybe that doesn’t matter if it makes me happy.
Much love and many blessings to you all. ❤
As you may have heard me say before: I intended to walk the Camino alone. I did this, but not really. And I am grateful for everyone who took the walk with me emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I would like to acknowledge them here.
First, I would like to thank Goldie Matthew. I first learned of the Camino at her Motivational Movie Night, when I saw Walking the Camino: 6 Ways to Santiago for the first time. (The seed was planted!)
Father Don Elias
I also want to thank the priest, Father Don Elias, who revived the Camino and whose yellow arrows guided me so perfectly all the way to Santiago.
I am also grateful for my family, who supported me immediately from vision through completion to readjusting to normal life! My fiancee made sure I checked in every day and gave me a perfect welcome home. My dad was immediately excited for me and offered me some travel gear to help me on my journey. My sister helped take care of our pets while I was gone, supported me financially in some of my travel costs, and helped me download Relaxercise, which saved my feet from tendonitis and any other possible foot ills! My mom bought me the two guide books that helped me set the perfect foundation for a successful trip, as well as my amazing hiking boots, sleeping gear, and other odds and ends. It was truly a group effort!
Next I would like to thank my grandmothers! My Ukrainian grandmother prayed the “Little Flower Novena” for me every day, followed my travels on a map from town to town, and told me to watch for roses (which I saw EVERY day!) My grandmother-in-law encouraged me with her Facebook comments on my trip updates. My Illinois grandmother sent me off with the most beautiful, loving phone message that touched me and made me cry.
I am so grateful for the many people I met along the way, some who I met in passing — some who I’m still connected to! I met people from Mexico, Argentina, Puerto Rico, many parts of the U.S., Canada, Scotland, Ireland, England, Spain, Portugal, France, Italy, Germany, Switzerland, Austria, Tunisia, South Korea, China, Norway, Sweden, Slovenia, Poland, Lithuania, Belgium, Denmark, the Netherlands, Australia, and New Zealand! (And I’m probably missing some!)
Though I needed my solitude, it would have been incredibly challenging for me to have walked the whole way alone. I am grateful to those who shared dinner with me, albergues with me, part of the Way with me, or even just a “Buen Camino!” with me!
My Home Community
The outpouring of support I received from the community back home was unbelievable, and I was amazed by how powerful and pivotal that encouragement was for me. Some supported me through texts, some through social media. I posted updates on Facebook maybe 15 times, and the amount of loving, supportive comments I received was staggering. I am truly grateful to anyone who was a part of this journey, on any level.
My Spiritual Community
I would be remiss if I did not give thanks to those in the spiritual realm who were with me every step of the way. Of course, I give thanks to Source, the Creator of all (including me, Spain, and the Camino!) I thank the angels and spirit guides who keep me safe, nudge me with guidance and teachings, and who support and unconditionally love me through every little detail. (May I learn to love as you do!)
I give thanks again to everyone mentioned here, to anyone I may have missed, and to you readers, who have also been a part of my journey. Your love and support means more to me than you could ever know.
Love, light, and blessings. ❤
I have seen the above video a couple of times, and could watch it much more. I think this was the inspiration for one of my Einstein shower thoughts about being grateful for every bit of my existence.
What if I remembered that I wasn’t taking any material things with me after this lifetime? (Even my physical body!) What if I woke up in the morning, grateful for the opening of my eyes? Grateful to have this physical body? Grateful for breath, for heart beats, for working body parts? What if I were grateful for the carpet, floor, and house when I swung my feet over the side of the bed? We could go on and on, right?
But, do you see? I’m beginning to see that there is gratitude, and there is GRATITUDE. Something I’d like to strive for, for sure. I hope you enjoy the video. 🙂
Much love, many blessings. ❤
I wanted to title this “Grateful for Myself. ” But besides sounding a bit egoic, I realized it really isn’t what I fully meant. The word “myself” designates separation. And that is not my intention at all. I am grateful for my spirit, or maybe just “spirit.” I am grateful for that which connects all of us.
I’ve decided it’s about time I get “woo woo” here and acknowledge who I really am. I’m sure you all knew it — and I was not really doing an effective job of skirting it — so, here’s the truth: I am spiritual being living a physical existence. (I believe we all are!) I am interested in all things physical, astral, and spirit. I believe I’m here on a mission, and now even the angels and the Absolute are compelling me to accept this and to share my understandings with others.
I don’t wish to freak anyone out. I don’t wish to extol “a way.” Even my coaching is of an evocative model. This means I believe you know the truth for you. I wish only to be a guide along your way, for however long our paths may cross.
I looked up my numerology birth number today for a personal refresher. If you’re interested in checking it out, I invite you to do the same for yourself. (Add up the numbers of all your digits. July 3rd, 1921 would be 7 + 3 + 1 + 9 + 2 + 1; which is 23, then add 2+3 to get a single digit number: 5. If you get 11,22, or 33, keep those, as they are Master Numbers. (Sometimes the other doubles are considered Master Numbers as well.) Here’s a portion on “11” from Joanne Sacred Scribes:
Master Number 11 is usually called ‘the Illuminator’, ‘the Messenger’ or ‘the Teacher’ and relates to those who are here to be inspirational guiding lights, and their mission is to bring illumination to others and to help raise spiritual awareness.
Angel Number 11 encourages you to contribute your unique perspective and philosophy to instigate a new consciousness. Seek out some form of outlet where there can be active participation, whether it be through one’s own profession, or some charitable organization. Working with others gives the opportunity to be the inspirational leader, setting an example for others to learn from.
Angel Number 11 encourages you to assist and inspire the human race via your natural abilities, relying upon your inner-wisdom and intuition to guide you.
Angel Number 11 encourages you to be an inspirational guiding light to bring illumination to others and help raise spiritual awareness. Trust that the angels support you in your lightwork.
Please feel free to share your own discoveries about yourselves! I am grateful for all of you. One in spirit, one in love.
Much love, many blessings. ❤
Not only is nature a great healer, it is a wonderful teacher. In 4th grade, my teacher gave each one of us a small sapling pine tree, and I planted mine in my front yard. The neighborhood kids stepped on it and nearly bent it in half. I cried and gave up on the little tree, convinced it wouldn’t survive. Boy, was I wrong! 26 years later it is STILL going strong and is now as tall as the house!
The inspiration for my tall tales story “Harry and Me” is my actual garden. I do indeed have a row of yellow marigolds, and if you look at the picture above, you can see that each single marigold flower I originally planted has now become a marigold bunch! The picture on the far left is of a single orange marigold that my mom gave me from the Chicago Botanic Garden. It was a boring single stem when I got it — no bloom at all — and now it’s a plant in itself! For months I wondered why it didn’t look like the other marigolds! Most miraculous of all is the middle picture — the infamous purple flowers! Beautiful when I’d first bought them, they were nothing but stems for MONTHS, even up to a few weeks ago. I’d debated pulling the ugly bunch up out of the ground, and now I’m so grateful I didn’t!
I become emotional as I experience the process nature takes. It makes life out of death. It takes its time. It germinates, it appears to hibernate, and suddenly iy explodes in delightful colors!
Aren’t we much the same?
Every dream we plant in our mind is a flower ready to bloom. We can’t see what it’s doing. Sometimes we give up. But if we give it a chance, a little water, enough time — we get results beyond our awesomest dreams!
Much love, many blessings. ❤
Hello, everyone! This is Teri Karl, Life Mastery Consultant. I hope you’ve had a wonderful holiday weekend, and today I would like to talk about value.
So, when you think about value, what first comes into your mind? What image? For me the first one is money, which I believe most people would think of — money and things that cost money. And the other one that’s pretty big is time. And something that we discuss in our Vision Workshop and our coaching is 4 quadrants, and the big value one I would say is “time and money freedom.” That’s a bugaboo for a lot of people.
So, what I’d like you to think about today — and I’m going talk a little bit myself about it — is how is the inflow for you in time and money? And how is the outflow for you in time and money? What does that look like in your life? What do you place value on and what kind of value are you willing to receive? So, for example, take a look at your income. Income is a reflection of the value that you are receiving and what you are willing to receive. For me, personally, my first job as a teacher — I realized as I was getting ready to leave that I didn’t think I was worth what I was receiving in money. And I know it’s sad, but it was a good realization for me. I started recognizing the thoughts behind how I felt about teaching. I realized that I had thought that I’d gotten the job because of the connection I had and that maybe I didn’t even deserve it, and I think that was a big reason why I ended up pushing myself out and leaving. And soon after that I took on tutoring and I took on some part-time jobs, and my amount of income started to match more of how I saw myself and how much value I thought I had, to the point where I actually worked in a warehouse for a year. And part of the reason I worked in the warehouse was because I just wanted to clear things out and just have a very physical job, but I realized that another part of the reason that I was there is because that’s how much value I had for myself, that’s how much I felt I was worth. And when I first started in the warehouse, I was making just over minimum wage. So, that’s how low my self-value was.
And soon after that, when I left, I realized I have a little more value than this! I took on some entrepreneurial jobs as well as continuing with tutoring. I still was not as successful as I wanted to be. And I saw that it was still related to value. I was not allowing myself the value. And over time I’ve come to see a shift. In tutoring it’s been very clear for me as I’ve slowly raised my rate. And I have had people attempt to haggle with me on my rate, and I won’t do it. Because I’ve seen that there are people who really do value me, and I’ve felt the resentment at imagining taking on that lower rate. I’ve realized it’s just not acceptable to me. I value my time more than that. And that’s still something I’m working on.
So, I encourage you to take a look at that and also take a look at your time. What is your time worth to you? And what are you putting in your calendar? Because that is a good indication of where your attention is related to your time and what you value. And if you need to switch things around in your calendar — what’s the first thing to go? So, for example, for me, a lot of times with my tutoring appointments, that sticks, I don’t move that around. But if I have something that’s maybe something enjoyable for me, I’m willing to push that out for work or for whatever may come up with my charity organizations or whatever. So, that’s another indication of how much you value yourself because that’s your time. That time for yourself you’re moving around.
So, what is really important to you? And how much are you valuing all those parts of yourself that need the play time and that need the exercise time for your health. Do you value your health? Do you value that inner spirit that needs to play? So, I encourage you to take a look at that as well. And also take a look at do you even have it on your calendar? Because I don’t! I realized I don’t have meditation on my calendar. I don’t have play time on my calendar. And when I went to a training just recently for this coaching, for consulting, I remember Mary Morrissey saying it’s important to give yourself one day — a whole day out of the week — just to do whatever you like to do that day. And that — I couldn’t even conceive of that! I thought I can’t even imagine giving myself one hour where I allow myself to think and do whatever I want without feeling guilty or thinking I should be working. And that’s really sad. So, that’s something that I’m working on. Up until now that’s been an issue, and that’s something I’m changing.
So, again, I’d like you to take a look at that. Take a look at: What do you have on your calendar? Are you giving to all the parts of yourself, your health, and your play time? Are you giving yourself the time that you need? What are you moving around in your calendar? And what are your boundaries? What are you not willing to move and what are you willing to accept value-wise as far as your time and your money? And I encourage you to set up what you would love so that you have the life that you love living.
Again, I hope that you’ve had a wonderful holiday weekend and have a beautiful rest of the week.
Much love. Many blessings. ❤