(On the plane.) Here we go — the story begins. The funny thing is, here I am leaving for the trip of a lifetime, and I’m worrying about that there are 36GB of cellular data on my phone. What?? How did that happen? I’m worried I’m costing the family plan an arm and a leg. This is why I like controlling everything. I like to know what’s going on. I’m seeing from this. . . lost that thought — oh yeah! that I must take one day at a time, steps at a time.
(Written in the notebook margin.) I am now determined to use the sides of the notebook, too. No waste! Write, write, write! This will be a discovery journey. What do I need? What don’t I need? What are my strengths? What are my challenges? I do want to stick to $40 (spent per day), but I would love the freedom to spend however I choose. At least this will force me to go the more traditional route and meet more people. I wonder who I will meet on my journey. . . I hope they come from all over! And I hope they speak English! English is truly a blessing for its universality. That is truly, truly a blessing. And I feel really bad that I did not give a donation for the passport. I will have to give a good donation next time. Just even my first day in France will be a blessing! Everything else is a bonus! I’m . . . lost that thought. Oh yeah. I’m not sure I will want to come back. I’m enjoying tutoring less again. Time to perk it up! But also find ways of working that fit my dream. Tutoring is simply not my dream, just as nothing but Shaklee is Brian’s dream — although, there is also the idea of the health center.
I was terrified today. Terrified and scared. And I don’t like this pen. And I feel sick. The Snickers bars were NOT a good idea. I probably should have bought some food with the $6, but I didn’t. I wonder if I could exchange it. For $1 Euros. So silly. At least I have money for the transport. I can’t believe we only have 1/2 hour. I guess I should have taken a look at that .
But I can take a book or two. I hope I get to say on the same plane — when in England. I dislike getting on and off. I’d like to feel some freedom with what I do there. Maybe I could send my journals home – and items I no longer need. my back back is ridiculously huge. Watching a bit of the movie in front of me. Almost want to watch a movie, but don’t. I’ll read el Camino books.
Really excited about what I will see there. Kind of wishing I had more phone access now, but I will look for wi-fi.
Perused the guidebook — even more excited about the trip now! Pretty hungry, though. What will I do with the notebooks is send them ahead on the 25th day. I don’t know how this will work. I’ll see how much I write in them, too. 10 pages per day. It will take me 15 days to finish the 2 notebooks. (I only finished one notebook.) Maybe I will buy one more along the way. And send all 3 ahead. I can be frugal. I think I need to really enjoy this, though. Spain looks absolutely wonderful! And limit technology, yes. I will need to hop on wi-fi immediately at the end of the day to be able to talk to the U.S. 3pm will be 10pm! (I was backwards here. . .) Will definitely have to be during a break, I think. Or maybe on a weekend when Brian can stay up a little longer. 5pm call? Texting? And I have 1 text a day, anyway.
We are in Canada now (overhead). The blessings from everyone really meant a lot to me. particularly the one from Grandma. Really sweet. I wonder what Dad told them. (text omitted)
This notebook is not the most important part of my experience, though it is important. My spiritual journey is more so. It’s me, God, and the angels right now! I definitely have to come back here with my family — Brian in particular. If this goes well, and I’m anticipating it is going to go very well — I think I may actually come back many times. I may bring others here. Can’t wait to start walking! Gotta keep that adrenaline, right! Argh! So excited! I just kind of wish I had Brian with me. But I know I need to go there alone. It would probably be good for him to go it alone — or something similar — too. I don’t know if I’ll ever do the Appalachian trail. It’s not really my thing. I don’t feel a need to prove myself amidst the crazy elements. I’m really excited about meeting many different people. I will just need to be sure that I get some Teri alone time. It will probably need to happen when I am on the trail. I wonder if the one woman in the documentary was mostly alone. I think my “theme of the journey” is “connection.” Could also be “gratitude”, but I feel “connection” is stronger. Connection with myself and connection with spirit/God/Goddess. Maybe I will even figure out what I want to call them. Thought a bout getting up and going to the bathroom because my seat partner did, but I don’t need to. I think I’ll wait. Better to practicing holding the bladder? Not sure. I think my seat partner looks a little like the (unintelligible writing) guy.
Still trying to understand humility. . . (to be continued)