Dear angels, God, Ascended Masters, Entities of Light, saints, Mother Gaia (Earth) . . . and any and all beings for the good of all concerned, thank you for another day and for being a part of it.
Today Sra. Cranky Pants is back (my alter-ego). It occurred to me a few minutes ago — after riding out another of my many emotional rollercoasters — that I could actually be grateful for these experiences. With this much emotional impact, I’m bound to grow. It’s even inevitable for me . . . even when I try not to.
Yesterday I got triggered multiple times, this after being slammed a few days earlier on Monday and Tuesday with some high emotions and tough karmic learning. I just wanted to quit caring. I visualized closing doors over my heart. It just felt like too much.
However, thanks to a husband who can’t accept “I’m fine. I really don’t want to talk about it” — both honest “Thanks” and sarcastic “Thanks” there because I actually really didn’t want to talk about it, and yes, there is still a little bitterness there — a lot of it spilled out. I didn’t feel great afterwards, but I would also like to quit judging myself, particularly on how I think I’m supposed to be for other people.
So, I’m still a little edgy today. The ten degree weather really isn’t helping because I’m a sun and heat girl, and I’ve decided I’ll be riding out Chicago winters until our dream of living mobile happens — which is related to yesterday’s triggers, so I won’t be touching on that anymore today, thank you!
And in other news — though I am thinking this may actually be connected to what I was just writing about — I am on Day 2 of Self-Healing with Reiki. I decided it’s time to advance to the next level(s) of healing, and circumstances are pointing toward Reiki at the moment (though I enjoy the Healing Touch Chakra Connection sequence and will probably end up creating some combo of the two). I’ve reconnected with my Reiki I teacher, I read through the entire Reiki I binder yesterday morning, and I am completing 21 days of the self-healing practice before I touch base with her again.
Sometimes you’ve gotta clear out the gunk so the light can stretch further.
Much love and many blessings. ❤