There is more, isn’t there?
Will the 2nd one be better? Most likely. I know, I know what you’ll say. There is no “better.” (deep breath) I think that’s what I need to reach a deeper level of awareness. A complete release of judgement. You told me through something I read that judgement is the absence of love. Maybe Mary Morrissey said it? Such a conundrum. Judgement helps us evaluate, helps us survive on this planet, and yet it is the “absence of love.” Hard to wrap my head around.
I try to wrap my head around many things. I realize my mind is super big. Out of control, it feels. But I guess I’m focusing on the conscious mind, the ego. It wants to know everything, control everything. I guess I can just decide not to let it anymore. Which part of me is deciding that?
It’s good to be alive. It’s good to be here another day. Sometimes I lose sight of that. I lose sight of how precious life really is. I don’t want to. I won’t lose that. That is why I am placing myself in circumstances that will help me remember. I will be a healing presence, I will grow, and I will also remember.
I feel that is enough.
So be it.