Back to visit with ex-boyfriend. Go to computer room. Computer has been moved to different spot. I question if he even lives in this complex/apartment/condo anymore. I do find his room and knock. There are multiple doors because nearby door is overlapping. He calls out and says is in the bathroom. Dog? at apartment complex when I come in to see ex.
Someone invites me to event. I don’t think I can because of SOM Dreamcatchers. But I think it’s ______ Sandy ._______.
Some dress-up thing. We are all in costumes. We are walking to somewhere. I am dressed as Mother Teresa. I question whether I have the headpiece on right (to look authentic). I hear murmuring, at least one person (woman) recognizes who I’m supposed to be and says she loves Mother Teresa.
SOM is __________. SOM Michael is there. He looks different. I tell him so. I tell him that he looks more confident. (Some event or something or new class has maybe happened. I see Jesse (tall). He has a BU shirt on. It is from graduation. 90-something is on it. Years and years ago.
Something about how classes were done and the quality of education. Assessments? I don’t believe my college experience was of quality.
At large gathering. Concert? We are singing (whole crowd) along with video lyrics or screen. A famous? guest woman is singing, too, but we are not matching with her; we are matching the recording. (She is off from it.) Whoever is running the show stops the whole thing because we are off. They play another song, but none of us join in. We don’t know the song. Then they play another song. I say I love it! And join in.
I share something from my cousin Tyler. His work. Artistic. Maybe __________?, too. I appreciate the color. It’s as if I am proud as if I was his teacher. Person going around to have us present notices I’m off, asks if I’m ok. I say I’m getting choked up (nostalgic?) He says “Good” and smiles.
- computer room
- non-existent computer
- Mother Teresa costume
- SOM Michael
- BU shirt with 90-something
- concert venue
- guest singer
- Unknown male
- work tables
My ex-boyfriend was fairly non-expressive. I remember wanting to hear more from him. A computer room is a place for the computer, which is symbolically our brain. My brain was not where I thought it would be. . . . Something about a smaller space but kind of Universal Mindish with all the surrounding people living there. A bathroom is for cleansing.
Mother Teresa is one of the people I want to emulate for my ideal self. A costume suggests I am trying a new way of expressing myself related to her.
My word of the day was “Faith”, and I believe SOM Michael represents that, with the choices he has made in his life. Jesse represents good-naturedness and innocence to me. He is expressing learning, and the number may be symbolic, or else he is expressing learning from the past.
Many, many, many aspects of self are gathered together to harmonize with each other. They are not in sync with this new imagined aspect. There is a perfectionistic aspect there, wanting to start the show over.
My cousin represents even-keelness and good-naturedness. This part of me was younger than real life in the dream — developing? And I am working with it, since I am the teacher. Superconsciousness in the form of the boss, and it is pleased with the creation happening with this aspect of self, and my emotional response to it.
We are going from a focus on the brain and lacking expression — which is unsuccessful — to trying myself out in the role of my ideal self (loving), to focusing on faith and drawing upon past learnings with the good-natured and innocent part of me. Some harmonization is attempted and is successful with many aspects of self, but not regarding imagination; in fact — I am almost ready to scrap the whole thing, losing interest, but then I get reanimated again. Finally, I have had some success in creativity and teaching myself, related to the development of even-keelness and good-naturedness. My superconscious is overseeing this.
This sounds about like my day. I am developing my imagination and creativity, and struggle through the ups and downs of seeming failures and successes. Looking forward to my dreams tonight!