I’ve been going through a transition and have struggled with feeling stuck and lost without a purpose. Some of the speakers talked about how the universe is shifting and how what I’m going through is normal. That’s a relief. The whole thing has been very difficult for a sensitive, emotional person like me. I can’t compare myself to anyone else, because I don’t have the ability to climb into their brains, but the rolling emotions, especially the low lows have been hard for me. Sometimes I don’t know why I feel as I do and don’t know what to do with my depressed emotions. I do what I can: I improve my diet, I exercise, I distract myself, I look on the bright side, and I have special moments like last night when I take notice of how completely happy I am.
Last night I played dominoes with my grandma, Mom, Dad, my sister, and Brian, and I was all happiness. No sadness or worry. Some of you may be thinking: “Dominoes? People even play that anymore? That makes you happy?” I don’t know what to tell you; I used to think the same way. But I have the best time playing with this group, and I won’t forget it. Those are moments to remember and live for. People have told me that you can’t be happy all of the time. I think you can. Or you can much of the time, depending on how enlightened you are, how at peace you are with yourself and within yourself. But I think it’s true that for most people it is very difficult. And I think I will add to my toolbox (a term I got from my psychotherapist long ago) the “This Too Shall Pass” wisdom saying. All of the other stuff and techniques are good, too –like the sacred place in our minds (mine’s by the ocean) — but sometimes you’re just wallowing in the muck and feeling stuck there, and you just got to make it through, knowing it won’t last forever. Sad times pass, just as the happy ones do. The cycle continues. Lessons are learned. Life moves on.