An interesting progression today led me to Dido’s “For Rent” and the tears that are now streaming down my cheeks. I was thinking about jobs again, jotting some things about work that I enjoy and that are meaningful to me. Somewhere along my Facebook perusals, checking my mail, reading a bit about the law of attraction, and pursuing music to listen to while grading, I came across an advertisement for Dido’s new CD. I love Dido! I have two of her CDs that someone gave to me long ago. I looked into her bio to see if she’d had any other CDs put out since then, and listened to samples of those songs. I enjoyed listening to them and decided I would put Dido on shuffle this morning. As I was pouring a glass of water in the kitchen I was suddenly jarred by these words: “I’ve always thought that I would love to live by the sea.” (A recent obsession of mine.) Transfixed, I listened to the rest of the lyrics, and something stirred inside, and I came undone.
“I’ve always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live more simply
I have no idea what’s happened to that dream
‘Cause there’s really nothing left here to stop me
It’s just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don’t learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine”
Why am I settling? Because I’m still a prisoner of my thoughts and fears. But I have hope that I will soon be free.