My life is filled with abundance.
I started the Deepak Chopra’s 21-Day Meditation today. It’s on abundance, which I’m really excited about. The last one was over the summer, and it was about love. I’m really sorry I missed that one. I had a rough start, and then I went away to Canada for 10 days (for a bike trip in the Rockies), so that meditation was doomed to fail. But this time I’m determined.
Today was my first day. Was it perfect? No. (What is perfect, anyway?) But I was much more spiritually prepared this time. My thoughts drifted off less frequently; I wasn’t as antsy. In the summer, I freaked out when I peeked at the time meter and discovered the meditation was 15 minutes long. This time I was surprised by how quickly it was over.
I did notice how shallow my breath is. I notice it every time I start yoga. But despite this, I was able to relax. These days I find — for the first time in as long as I can remember — I can just . . . sit. I can sit on the couch, looking at nothing, thinking of little, not moving, not planning . . .and be fine. Yes, eventually I begin thinking about things I need or want to do, and I do get up, but for a while I can just be. And be ok with that. And this is definite progress.