Actually, I am a huge proponent of dual language programs. But that can be another post. . .
What I mean is, I no longer want to be part of “us” vs. “them.” I want to look at something for what it is and not pick sides. I am a part of everyone and everything. And even though there are some things and people I am not pleased with at the present, I can make that part of the past. As long as I dwell on what was, I am not being a part of what IS. And what is, is right now: sitting on the couch and typing this post. That is all.
And I also want to work on what thoughts and language I use toward myself. Becoming self-confident starts there. If I believe I can’t do something, I won’t. If I believe I’m not something, I won’t be. People give me encouragement; I’m given signs — but I don’t believe them.
I want to be the type of person that I want to be with. I don’t want to be critical. I don’t want to be self-conscious and afraid, overly apologetic and pushed aside. I know that once I believe in myself and stop criticizing myself, I will stop judging others. I will open myself up to positive experiences.
I can do this. I am awesome. I will find awesomeness.