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I want to be with people

I want to know lots and lots and lots of people!

I see myself laughing and conversing easily with them.

I am confident.  Strong posture, open stance.  Powerful, in a comfortable, welcoming way.

I care about them and remember the things that are important to them and their lives.

I spend time with them.

I am fully present with them.

They are all that matters in those moments.

We connect.

I am a healing presence.

People feel safe with me.

People feel at home with me.

When people are with me, they remember that they are loved — They are washed in love!

They remember that the universe supports them.

All they have to do is be who they are.

 

I will no longer be afraid.

I will no longer be self-conscious or insecure.

I will no longer worry about what I’m wearing or how I sound

or what facial expression I’m making.

I will not be full of nervous energy!

I will get things done.

I will not revert to helplessness.

I will complete on my own, take initiative, even in asking for help.

 

I organize events.

I bring people together.

We do fun things.

We do new things!

I am full of love, excited energy, and peace . . .

 

I am organized

I am comfortable in my own skin.

I take risks!

I make “mistakes”!

And I laugh and learn.

I learn from EVERYTHING!

 

I will not avoid out of fear.

I will not procrastinate out of fear.

 

I will see the world as my laboratory,

as my playhouse,

as my stage,

as my mission,

as my life’s work.

 

I will leave the world better than when I left it.

I will do what I’ve come here to do.

Please check out my latest article on lifehack.org: 10 Things Your Dreams Can Tell You About Yourself.  It goes into detail about common dreams and dream symbols: what they mean, and how you can apply them to your life.

I had two different dream themes this morning — one realistic, one more imaginative.  One half of my dreams had to do with singing.  In one I’m at a concert but haven’t been attending any of the rehearsals and therefore don’t know some of the words and am pleasantly surprised when each song begins. (Oh!  Great song!)  Later, a teacher from the College of Metaphysics — who led the Cantata last year — is talking about solos that we’re going to do, and she asks me if I want to do one of them today.  I think that I can do it, but I’m not sure.

In the other dreams people’s clothes were different.  They reminded me of Robin Hoodish plain, peasanty garb.  In one there is a girl sneaking through the woods to get a glimpse of her father.  Someone who would seem to be her enemy senses movement in the woods and suspects it is her.  He sneaks up on her and covers her mouth so that she doesn’t scream.  He wants to help her.  In the other instance I am going somewhere; I’m on my way out.  I’ve promised my sister and someone that I would see them before I went.  I must walk down a LONG paved way to get to the end of the path, past some people at picnic tables.  Then I have to double-back and go all the way down a path to the back of the woods where my sister will be.  I wonder why I didn’t just stop there first afterall, to save some of this time and walking.  As I’m walking a small black dog (like my neighbor’s dog) comes running up, barking ferociously.  I talk to it sweetly and emit a calm feeling, in hopes of calming it down. I think it works.

The first dream has to do with harmonization and with being unprepared.  I suspect this has to do with initiations I’m going through and with ways I’m seeking to grow within myself.  It’s time to perform, time for me to show my stuff and present something awesome, but I haven’t done the work, the practice, to really, truly pull it off.  I’ve been thinking a lot about my scattered mind and about do my metaphysical exercises the best I can.  I suspect this is what that dream is about.  The last part is likely about a dream class my teacher asked me to teach.  I would really enjoy doing it, but I’m not sure I’m ready for the time commitment.  This is what I’m hesitating on in the dream.  To apply these dreams I need to make sure I put in my best effort in my exercises and work on being present and concentrated throughout the day.

In the second dream the clothes and environment stand out to me.  It could be a past life memory, but I’m not sure it was. (Even if it was, it can still be interpreted symbolically.)  The garb is of peasants, which suggests an expression of lacking self value.  The forest is a place of subconscious mind.  The mixture of women and men in the dream suggest interaction between conscious and subconscious, although there is some secrecy, confused trust/loyalty, lack of planning and wise direction choices, etc.  The dog is a distracting, unpleasant habit!  To apply this dream I would want to work on trusting myself, particularly relating to my subconscious state of mind.  I would want to be open and try to create a clear plan or direction using my subconscious, free of distraction, particularly bothersome, unproductive ways of thinking.

Happy dreaming!

I know I’ve disappeared for a while.  Here’s part of the reason why:

LIfehack.org: 10 Ways to Slow Down in a Fast-Paced World

It’s very metaphysical, so it works out perfectly for today!  Another article is coming soon on ways to understand yourself better through your dreams.

I just came off of a long bike ride: 70 miles in the Door County Century.  It was just the right amount — not too short, and a little bit challenging in the middle.  I told Brian I would never do the century again (I did 100 last year) unless I got road wheels or a new bike — or both!  He did 100 miles this year, even after minimal training.  Apparently he isn’t human. . .

The weather was perfect this year, and I had a lot of time to myself on the road to just enjoy the sights.  At one point my “to do” list began to creep in, and I began to start worrying and panicking about things coming up this week.  I had to remind myself repeatedly: “All I have is right now.  I am here.  I am now.  All I have is now.”  It became something of a mantra, and I was able to calm down.

I’ve been reading the book Dharma: Finding Your Soul’s Purpose.  There is a part in there about a woman who wastes a lot of energy through her excessive thinking.  I was reminded about how much I get lost in my thinking — what an energy waster I am!  And I dislike inefficiency!  Here was yet another reason to redirect my mind to the present.

That’s all we need to do.  Concentrate on the present.  One task at a time — the one we are currently doing!  I was talking with my mom the other night about how scattered my mind is.  I was frustrated because I’ve been in classes for a year, and lately I feel nearly as scattered as when I started!  I told her it was hard feeling this way, noticing the stillness of others around me.  She reminded me not to compare.  It is about me, just as for every one of us, it is about ourselves only. And all we need to do is redirect.  Thoughts will come, and thoughts will go, and we gently redirect.  Over and over.

I’m really looking forward to the Still Mind, Present Moment, Open Heart experience on September 27th.  The presenter, Dr. Daniel Condron is known for his still-minded influence and has written many, many books on related topics and on spiritual work, some of which include: Still Mind, Present Moment, Open Heart : The Hope of the World, The Emptiness Sutra, Permanent Healing, the Bhagavad Gita Interpreted and Explained, Tao Interpreted and Explained, The Seven Secret Keys to Prosperity and Abundance, and Understanding Your Dreams.

Have a wonderful, present-minded day, everyone. Namaste.

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It is dusk.  Adelaide grabs and kicks at cracks in the concrete, climbing the thick cement wall beyond the workyard.  She begins the slow walk of the balancing gymnast, one leg swinging out, returning, teetering, and then the other, repeat.  Standing straight, she pauses and looks down to her left, into the workyard.  The buildings are gray, surrounded by thick barbed wire fencing.  Adelaide remembers how miserable she felt there.  She also remembers that she was safe.  She was secure.  There was a place for her to stay, there was structure, there was security.  She sighs and then moves her attention over to the thick wired fence of the perimeter beyond.  She shivers at the sight of the steel knots and slowly turns to the right.

The night is growing darker, thicker.  All she can make out on this side is the jungle.  Gigantic leaves form layer upon overlapping layers, cascading forms from canopied trees, large umbrella plants, and flourishing ground cover.  Perhaps there is no ground!   She sees some broken brush that may lead to a path, but she is not sure.  Again, she shivers — but in fear.  There is no security on this side.  No one will tell her what to do, where to go.  She will have to find her own way.  She has never had that freedom.  Freedom.  There are no fences.  There are no overseers.  There are no schedules.  There are no directives.  But . . . she strains her eyes, trying to see the edge of the jungle.  The jungles edges merge with the darkness.  She doesn’t know what is out there.  She has heard tales, both wonderful and horrifying.  How does she know what is really true?  What is it she will find?

What will she decide?  For now, she continues her slow, teetering walk along the fence.  She thinks shoe knows what she must do, but she wants to be sure; she wants a sign.  So, she does not make the leap.  She decides to wait for sunrise.

Image courtesy of Stuart Miles at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Image courtesy of Stuart Miles at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

I’m grateful for insights on dreams.

Tuesday I called my metaphysics teacher.  I was frustrated with my dreams.  I didn’t feel I had a good connection with my subconscious.  Maybe that side of me was fine, but my conscious mind just wasn’t getting it.  My teacher showed me how to look at the theme of the dream so that I could connect it to the day before and then apply it to my life.  She also told me to take time during the day to recognize my learnings, to assimilate throughout the day.  Finally, in response to my frustrations with understanding some dreams, she told me to ask my subconscious to give me simple messages.

That day I’d had a dream about a ceremony with a man becoming a godfather.  We worked through the dream.  She said to ask myself: “What do I know about superconscious mind?”  “What do I know about godfathers?” I believed a ceremony was an initiation.  Some sort of initiation is occuring in my life, and the superconscious is involved in it.  Yesterday morning my subconscious apparently honored my plea for simplicity because part of my dream was a written message that I wrote out in sidewalk chalk.  I wrote “Be ready!  You’re next.”  Because we received a new exercise in class that same night, I believe that was the message from my dream.  This morning I dreamt that I was back at my most recent job and that I was doing a block shift.  I was told by one of the guys (like a manager, but not quite) that I wouldn’t get paid for the block because of something.  wasn’t there for quite the whole time or there wasn’t as much work or something.  I was upset.  I was thinking about quitting and was telling people so (or a protest or something.) The theme of this dream is that I wasn’t receiving the value that I thought I deserved for the work that I had done.  This could mean not receiving internal recognition for work I had accomplished that day or it could have meant believing I had not received recognition/appreciation for work that day.  I could see a connection to both of these the previous day.  My learning for this would be to honor my accomplishments within myself and also to find a greater good and purpose in my work so that I do not feel I need the compliments and appreciation from others.

I’m grateful for progress. (Any!)

And so. . . I honor my baby steps today.  Today with Cindy, my life purpose coach, we went over breaking things down into steps again, but even more simply “What is my next step?”  I often freak out at the totality of a project, but I can handle that little step, right?  And if that “little” step is too big, I can break it down even further.  I’m noticing resistances and procrastination at every corner these days.  But I’m making some progress. :-)  I’m working through some of my awkwardness, too.  I’m starting to open up more to people in my networking group.  I had a couple of really interesting conversations today because I overcame my insecurities and stuck with the conversation.  Little-by-little.  And today I made some progress at the library, doing an activity with a child and leaving a flyer with a parent, and then talking with a librarian about setting up a make-and-take workshop and resources for getting a children’s book published.  (I’ve been thinking about reworking my book Tiny a little bit and getting it published.)

I’m grateful for reconnecting with old friends.

I’m trying to accept more invites and hang out with more people.  It’s difficult to know when to say “yes” or not with everything going on these days.  I think I should make it a daily practice to take a moment to pause, go within, and reflect before I make decisions. Tonight I met up with some friends that I hadn’t seen for years and years (some 5, some more!)  We had some interesting conversations — even some very deep, and metaphysical/philosophical ones —  and it felt great to reconnect with people.  In a strange way I felt like things hadn’t changed, like some people hadn’t changed. I’d changed.  Had they changed?  What was really going on inside of all of us?

What are you grateful for today?

Image courtesy of Stuart Miles at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Image courtesy of Stuart Miles at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

My recent intuitive reports made a few things clear: #1  I need to stay in the physical (get out of my head and into my  body) and #2: I need to be with people.  In particular, I need to care about others more than myself.  Yeah. . .  The akashic records are straight-up honest like that!

So, I’ve been trying more to put others first.  I’ve tried to give from the heart.  However, I’ve noticed that I often have to force myself.  And this has frustrated me.  I’ve seen how others give so selflessly, so easily.  I want to be one of those people.

Today I realized an area of my life where I am beginning to give in that way.  Being a metaphysics teacher.  My heart opens every time I am with my students.  I always experience such a great love for them, a joy in teaching them.  Today I called them to see how their week had been.  And I loved that, too — and I’ve learned so much from them!  So, I know that at least in this area, I know what I am doing.  Despite my confusion along my life’s path — this is part of my life’s purpose.  I am grateful.

The best part of this is that now I know how it feels.  I have tasted selfless love.  (I’ve received it plenty, but it feels good to be on the other side!)  Opening my arms, I allow myself to step into the loving arms of the universe. . . Wishing all of you love, and the joy of giving and receiving.

Fun Friday: Homeostasis

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Image courtesy ofzirconicusso at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

On top of the world

Understanding what it all means

In the moment

Appreciating

Excited

At Peace

–Neutrality–

At war within

Fearful

Doubting

Lost in my head

Confused and scattered

At the bottom of the pit

 

In just one day!

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