I Miss This

I miss blogging.  So, here I am.  I’ve felt very overwhelmed lately.  I’ve made some huge changes in my life, and I realized today that I just can’t do it all at once.  Baby steps.  I’ve tried to do too much, and  last week I began to shut down. Thankfully, my body is still supporting me!

I kept having frustrated, angry feelings.  I wanted to blame everyone and everything for the stress I was feeling.  The funny (ironic) thing is that I am the one who creates my own environment.  I am the one with the thoughts who manifested the reality that I face from day-to-day.  So, who was I really upset with?  Clearly, myself!

#3 on my 10 Most Wanted List is faith.  Faith that everything will work out.  My angels continually encourage this.  I saw 1144 today:

(from Joanne Sacred Scribes)

“Angel Number 1144 is a message from your angels that you are to look to new ways to go about getting your work done more efficiently.  Listen to your intuition as your angels are ushering positive energies towards and around you and giving you information about your next steps.

Angel Number 1144 tells you to keep your thoughts positive and optimistic as you undertake an important new role or venture.  Your positive energies, intentions and actions will manifest your expected results. Trust your angels to deliver all that you will need in your endeavours.

Angel Number 1144 encourages you to keep striving ahead, and don’t take ‘no’ for an answer.  You are on the right path so do not let anything deter you.  Expect miraculous answers and solutions to appear as you need them.”

It is a beautiful day today.  Perfect weather. I feel more relaxed.   I’m enjoying the fresh air and a fresh start.  I’m brainstorming some longterm goals.   I will be clear, concise.  I will tier my activities, create my own plan.  The universe is a facilitator, not a dictator!  I will align with my true self and watch the magic enfold!

Angels

I received this message yesterday: (looked it up on Joanne Sacred Scribes Angel Numbers site)

Angel Number 1414 is a message from the angels that your thoughts and feelings are being elevated to a more positive state.  Give any fears or concerns of any kind to the angels for healing and transmutation, and have faith and trust that you are being supported, encouraged and guided by the angels along your path.  You are safe and protected  –  always.

Angel Number 1414 is a reminder to maintain a positive attitude  mind-set and optimistic outlook to attract positive energies and auspicious circumstances into your life.  Practice positive affirmations and prayers to maintain a strong connection to the angelic and spiritual realms.  Be mindful of the Law of Attraction as the energy you send out comes back to you.

Angel Number 1414 is a message to be careful what you wish for, as you just might get it.  Stay positive, optimistic and practical to ensure that you manifest what you want, rather than what you don’t.  Building strong foundations from well-laid plans ensures future stability, progress and success.  Put your efforts and focus towards your long-term goals and aspirations and work with purpose, passion and drive.  Courageously step forward in the direction of your true life purpose  and trust that the things you require will manifest when needed in your life.

At each new phase in our lives we are somewhere we have never been before.  Have faith and trust that you have the skills, talents and abilities to face all that lay ahead of you.  You are where you are meant to be at this time.

We do best what we enjoy and feel passionate about.

That’s exactly what I needed to hear.

Dreams

I was able to make sense of my dreams this morning!  The key really is to know what is going on with myself the day before.  If I KNOW the struggles and learnings I’m going through, if I’m aware — then my dreams make so much more sense!

Dreams and Interpretations:

Going up and down hills (snow or something on hills?)  Indoors?  Brian opts to take the route on the ground level.   I stay above.  Way is treacherous.  I’m creating unnecessary challenges for myself, and this relates to being stuck.

I’m looking at the cats and I see Misty!  I ask Brian why Misty is with us.  Something about trouble with Tigger maybe.  Old, familiar habit that doesn’t belong.  I’m giving it safe haven.  (Could be my return to a lack of attentiveness? Or the increased running of the mouth?)

Need to put on (music?)  My cousin is to help.  Is she doing a performance, maybe?  Lots of people around in unknown building.  (And my Aunt there?)  An assured, business-like aspect of myself desiring harmony.  I believe this is relating to my struggles with how to be the best teacher I can be.

Dancing on my parents’ balcony with Dad but a little awkward for some reason. Not an easy flow and not an ease with closeness, though it is pleasant and sweet!  Song unexplainedly stops, so I go back in to house and forget about dancing, though Dad wants to go on.  I am in a place hovering between conciousness and subconsciousness (balcony), and I am harmonizing with superconscious.  It is not as seamless as I would like, but it’s good!  I believe this related to my meditation yesterday, which was wonderful.  However, I cut it a little short, a few minutes short of the whole meditation, thinking I was complete.  I believe this dream is telling me I should have done at least the full 30 minutes.

Scene between woman and Hugh Grant.  I notice her roots are showing.  They are in bed.  Affectionate, but no hanky panky.  Imagination — imagined connection between conscious and subconscious, not complete or clear; and the thoughts have not been refreshed.  They need to be updated.  (Perhaps relating to my understanding of metaphysics and subconscious and conscious mind in general.)

Some comment to someone — between guy and girl of disinterest, not offended, just nonexistent. The need/desire for further connection between the conscious and subconscious minds.

Summary:  A lot of male/female here.  Subconscious presence and superconscious presence.  There are not complete connections, but attempts — making progress.  Follow the subconscious — take the way of lease resistance!  Stick with the superconscious today.  Keep your mind focused on your life’s plan, on the good of all concerned — and meditate for the full 30 minutes!  (Or more!)

Hey!  I haven’t disappeared!   Really working on the Law of Proper Perspective and time management.  I am still writing, and here is my latest creation:  (Please check it out!)

10 Natural Remedies That Work for You AND Your Pet

 

 

Image courtesy of Serge Bertasius at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Image courtesy of Serge Bertasius at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

I want to be with people

I want to know lots and lots and lots of people!

I see myself laughing and conversing easily with them.

I am confident.  Strong posture, open stance.  Powerful, in a comfortable, welcoming way.

I care about them and remember the things that are important to them and their lives.

I spend time with them.

I am fully present with them.

They are all that matters in those moments.

We connect.

I am a healing presence.

People feel safe with me.

People feel at home with me.

When people are with me, they remember that they are loved — They are washed in love!

They remember that the universe supports them.

All they have to do is be who they are.

 

I will no longer be afraid.

I will no longer be self-conscious or insecure.

I will no longer worry about what I’m wearing or how I sound

or what facial expression I’m making.

I will not be full of nervous energy!

I will get things done.

I will not revert to helplessness.

I will complete on my own, take initiative, even in asking for help.

 

I organize events.

I bring people together.

We do fun things.

We do new things!

I am full of love, excited energy, and peace . . .

 

I am organized

I am comfortable in my own skin.

I take risks!

I make “mistakes”!

And I laugh and learn.

I learn from EVERYTHING!

 

I will not avoid out of fear.

I will not procrastinate out of fear.

 

I will see the world as my laboratory,

as my playhouse,

as my stage,

as my mission,

as my life’s work.

 

I will leave the world better than when I left it.

I will do what I’ve come here to do.

Please check out my latest article on lifehack.org: 10 Things Your Dreams Can Tell You About Yourself.  It goes into detail about common dreams and dream symbols: what they mean, and how you can apply them to your life.

I had two different dream themes this morning — one realistic, one more imaginative.  One half of my dreams had to do with singing.  In one I’m at a concert but haven’t been attending any of the rehearsals and therefore don’t know some of the words and am pleasantly surprised when each song begins. (Oh!  Great song!)  Later, a teacher from the College of Metaphysics — who led the Cantata last year — is talking about solos that we’re going to do, and she asks me if I want to do one of them today.  I think that I can do it, but I’m not sure.

In the other dreams people’s clothes were different.  They reminded me of Robin Hoodish plain, peasanty garb.  In one there is a girl sneaking through the woods to get a glimpse of her father.  Someone who would seem to be her enemy senses movement in the woods and suspects it is her.  He sneaks up on her and covers her mouth so that she doesn’t scream.  He wants to help her.  In the other instance I am going somewhere; I’m on my way out.  I’ve promised my sister and someone that I would see them before I went.  I must walk down a LONG paved way to get to the end of the path, past some people at picnic tables.  Then I have to double-back and go all the way down a path to the back of the woods where my sister will be.  I wonder why I didn’t just stop there first afterall, to save some of this time and walking.  As I’m walking a small black dog (like my neighbor’s dog) comes running up, barking ferociously.  I talk to it sweetly and emit a calm feeling, in hopes of calming it down. I think it works.

The first dream has to do with harmonization and with being unprepared.  I suspect this has to do with initiations I’m going through and with ways I’m seeking to grow within myself.  It’s time to perform, time for me to show my stuff and present something awesome, but I haven’t done the work, the practice, to really, truly pull it off.  I’ve been thinking a lot about my scattered mind and about do my metaphysical exercises the best I can.  I suspect this is what that dream is about.  The last part is likely about a dream class my teacher asked me to teach.  I would really enjoy doing it, but I’m not sure I’m ready for the time commitment.  This is what I’m hesitating on in the dream.  To apply these dreams I need to make sure I put in my best effort in my exercises and work on being present and concentrated throughout the day.

In the second dream the clothes and environment stand out to me.  It could be a past life memory, but I’m not sure it was. (Even if it was, it can still be interpreted symbolically.)  The garb is of peasants, which suggests an expression of lacking self value.  The forest is a place of subconscious mind.  The mixture of women and men in the dream suggest interaction between conscious and subconscious, although there is some secrecy, confused trust/loyalty, lack of planning and wise direction choices, etc.  The dog is a distracting, unpleasant habit!  To apply this dream I would want to work on trusting myself, particularly relating to my subconscious state of mind.  I would want to be open and try to create a clear plan or direction using my subconscious, free of distraction, particularly bothersome, unproductive ways of thinking.

Happy dreaming!

I know I’ve disappeared for a while.  Here’s part of the reason why:

LIfehack.org: 10 Ways to Slow Down in a Fast-Paced World

It’s very metaphysical, so it works out perfectly for today!  Another article is coming soon on ways to understand yourself better through your dreams.

I just came off of a long bike ride: 70 miles in the Door County Century.  It was just the right amount — not too short, and a little bit challenging in the middle.  I told Brian I would never do the century again (I did 100 last year) unless I got road wheels or a new bike — or both!  He did 100 miles this year, even after minimal training.  Apparently he isn’t human. . .

The weather was perfect this year, and I had a lot of time to myself on the road to just enjoy the sights.  At one point my “to do” list began to creep in, and I began to start worrying and panicking about things coming up this week.  I had to remind myself repeatedly: “All I have is right now.  I am here.  I am now.  All I have is now.”  It became something of a mantra, and I was able to calm down.

I’ve been reading the book Dharma: Finding Your Soul’s Purpose.  There is a part in there about a woman who wastes a lot of energy through her excessive thinking.  I was reminded about how much I get lost in my thinking — what an energy waster I am!  And I dislike inefficiency!  Here was yet another reason to redirect my mind to the present.

That’s all we need to do.  Concentrate on the present.  One task at a time — the one we are currently doing!  I was talking with my mom the other night about how scattered my mind is.  I was frustrated because I’ve been in classes for a year, and lately I feel nearly as scattered as when I started!  I told her it was hard feeling this way, noticing the stillness of others around me.  She reminded me not to compare.  It is about me, just as for every one of us, it is about ourselves only. And all we need to do is redirect.  Thoughts will come, and thoughts will go, and we gently redirect.  Over and over.

I’m really looking forward to the Still Mind, Present Moment, Open Heart experience on September 27th.  The presenter, Dr. Daniel Condron is known for his still-minded influence and has written many, many books on related topics and on spiritual work, some of which include: Still Mind, Present Moment, Open Heart : The Hope of the World, The Emptiness Sutra, Permanent Healing, the Bhagavad Gita Interpreted and Explained, Tao Interpreted and Explained, The Seven Secret Keys to Prosperity and Abundance, and Understanding Your Dreams.

Have a wonderful, present-minded day, everyone. Namaste.

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It is dusk.  Adelaide grabs and kicks at cracks in the concrete, climbing the thick cement wall beyond the workyard.  She begins the slow walk of the balancing gymnast, one leg swinging out, returning, teetering, and then the other, repeat.  Standing straight, she pauses and looks down to her left, into the workyard.  The buildings are gray, surrounded by thick barbed wire fencing.  Adelaide remembers how miserable she felt there.  She also remembers that she was safe.  She was secure.  There was a place for her to stay, there was structure, there was security.  She sighs and then moves her attention over to the thick wired fence of the perimeter beyond.  She shivers at the sight of the steel knots and slowly turns to the right.

The night is growing darker, thicker.  All she can make out on this side is the jungle.  Gigantic leaves form layer upon overlapping layers, cascading forms from canopied trees, large umbrella plants, and flourishing ground cover.  Perhaps there is no ground!   She sees some broken brush that may lead to a path, but she is not sure.  Again, she shivers — but in fear.  There is no security on this side.  No one will tell her what to do, where to go.  She will have to find her own way.  She has never had that freedom.  Freedom.  There are no fences.  There are no overseers.  There are no schedules.  There are no directives.  But . . . she strains her eyes, trying to see the edge of the jungle.  The jungles edges merge with the darkness.  She doesn’t know what is out there.  She has heard tales, both wonderful and horrifying.  How does she know what is really true?  What is it she will find?

What will she decide?  For now, she continues her slow, teetering walk along the fence.  She thinks shoe knows what she must do, but she wants to be sure; she wants a sign.  So, she does not make the leap.  She decides to wait for sunrise.

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