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It is dusk.  Adelaide grabs and kicks at cracks in the concrete, climbing the thick cement wall beyond the workyard.  She begins the slow walk of the balancing gymnast, one leg swinging out, returning, teetering, and then the other, repeat.  Standing straight, she pauses and looks down to her left, into the workyard.  The buildings are gray, surrounded by thick barbed wire fencing.  Adelaide remembers how miserable she felt there.  She also remembers that she was safe.  She was secure.  There was a place for her to stay, there was structure, there was security.  She sighs and then moves her attention over to the thick wired fence of the perimeter beyond.  She shivers at the sight of the steel knots and slowly turns to the right.

The night is growing darker, thicker.  All she can make out on this side is the jungle.  Gigantic leaves form layer upon overlapping layers, cascading forms from canopied trees, large umbrella plants, and flourishing ground cover.  Perhaps there is no ground!   She sees some broken brush that may lead to a path, but she is not sure.  Again, she shivers — but in fear.  There is no security on this side.  No one will tell her what to do, where to go.  She will have to find her own way.  She has never had that freedom.  Freedom.  There are no fences.  There are no overseers.  There are no schedules.  There are no directives.  But . . . she strains her eyes, trying to see the edge of the jungle.  The jungles edges merge with the darkness.  She doesn’t know what is out there.  She has heard tales, both wonderful and horrifying.  How does she know what is really true?  What is it she will find?

What will she decide?  For now, she continues her slow, teetering walk along the fence.  She thinks shoe knows what she must do, but she wants to be sure; she wants a sign.  So, she does not make the leap.  She decides to wait for sunrise.

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Image courtesy of Stuart Miles at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

I’m grateful for insights on dreams.

Tuesday I called my metaphysics teacher.  I was frustrated with my dreams.  I didn’t feel I had a good connection with my subconscious.  Maybe that side of me was fine, but my conscious mind just wasn’t getting it.  My teacher showed me how to look at the theme of the dream so that I could connect it to the day before and then apply it to my life.  She also told me to take time during the day to recognize my learnings, to assimilate throughout the day.  Finally, in response to my frustrations with understanding some dreams, she told me to ask my subconscious to give me simple messages.

That day I’d had a dream about a ceremony with a man becoming a godfather.  We worked through the dream.  She said to ask myself: “What do I know about superconscious mind?”  “What do I know about godfathers?” I believed a ceremony was an initiation.  Some sort of initiation is occuring in my life, and the superconscious is involved in it.  Yesterday morning my subconscious apparently honored my plea for simplicity because part of my dream was a written message that I wrote out in sidewalk chalk.  I wrote “Be ready!  You’re next.”  Because we received a new exercise in class that same night, I believe that was the message from my dream.  This morning I dreamt that I was back at my most recent job and that I was doing a block shift.  I was told by one of the guys (like a manager, but not quite) that I wouldn’t get paid for the block because of something.  wasn’t there for quite the whole time or there wasn’t as much work or something.  I was upset.  I was thinking about quitting and was telling people so (or a protest or something.) The theme of this dream is that I wasn’t receiving the value that I thought I deserved for the work that I had done.  This could mean not receiving internal recognition for work I had accomplished that day or it could have meant believing I had not received recognition/appreciation for work that day.  I could see a connection to both of these the previous day.  My learning for this would be to honor my accomplishments within myself and also to find a greater good and purpose in my work so that I do not feel I need the compliments and appreciation from others.

I’m grateful for progress. (Any!)

And so. . . I honor my baby steps today.  Today with Cindy, my life purpose coach, we went over breaking things down into steps again, but even more simply “What is my next step?”  I often freak out at the totality of a project, but I can handle that little step, right?  And if that “little” step is too big, I can break it down even further.  I’m noticing resistances and procrastination at every corner these days.  But I’m making some progress. :-)  I’m working through some of my awkwardness, too.  I’m starting to open up more to people in my networking group.  I had a couple of really interesting conversations today because I overcame my insecurities and stuck with the conversation.  Little-by-little.  And today I made some progress at the library, doing an activity with a child and leaving a flyer with a parent, and then talking with a librarian about setting up a make-and-take workshop and resources for getting a children’s book published.  (I’ve been thinking about reworking my book Tiny a little bit and getting it published.)

I’m grateful for reconnecting with old friends.

I’m trying to accept more invites and hang out with more people.  It’s difficult to know when to say “yes” or not with everything going on these days.  I think I should make it a daily practice to take a moment to pause, go within, and reflect before I make decisions. Tonight I met up with some friends that I hadn’t seen for years and years (some 5, some more!)  We had some interesting conversations — even some very deep, and metaphysical/philosophical ones —  and it felt great to reconnect with people.  In a strange way I felt like things hadn’t changed, like some people hadn’t changed. I’d changed.  Had they changed?  What was really going on inside of all of us?

What are you grateful for today?

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Image courtesy of Stuart Miles at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

My recent intuitive reports made a few things clear: #1  I need to stay in the physical (get out of my head and into my  body) and #2: I need to be with people.  In particular, I need to care about others more than myself.  Yeah. . .  The akashic records are straight-up honest like that!

So, I’ve been trying more to put others first.  I’ve tried to give from the heart.  However, I’ve noticed that I often have to force myself.  And this has frustrated me.  I’ve seen how others give so selflessly, so easily.  I want to be one of those people.

Today I realized an area of my life where I am beginning to give in that way.  Being a metaphysics teacher.  My heart opens every time I am with my students.  I always experience such a great love for them, a joy in teaching them.  Today I called them to see how their week had been.  And I loved that, too — and I’ve learned so much from them!  So, I know that at least in this area, I know what I am doing.  Despite my confusion along my life’s path — this is part of my life’s purpose.  I am grateful.

The best part of this is that now I know how it feels.  I have tasted selfless love.  (I’ve received it plenty, but it feels good to be on the other side!)  Opening my arms, I allow myself to step into the loving arms of the universe. . . Wishing all of you love, and the joy of giving and receiving.

Fun Friday: Homeostasis

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On top of the world

Understanding what it all means

In the moment

Appreciating

Excited

At Peace

–Neutrality–

At war within

Fearful

Doubting

Lost in my head

Confused and scattered

At the bottom of the pit

 

In just one day!

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Gratitude is key.  It is the magic switch that can bring joy from despair.  It turns frustration and fear into peace and understanding.

I am grateful for spiritual focus sessions.  I received my Atlantean report this past weekend.  It was not what I expected — my reports never are! — and it was a wonderful weekend.  I went on three spiritual focus sessions this summer, and I see a common thread between all three.  All three express the importance of the physical, in remaining grounded and being connected through physical experiences.  Today I reread Dr. Laurel’s book Concentration during book club and got the same reminder.  How often are you fully involved in your experiences?  Do you use all of your senses to experience the present moment?  Or are you living in your head, removed from the opportunities in front of you?

I am grateful for reminders to keep my attention in the present.  Everything I experience is reminding me to be present-minded.  This morning I had another great conversation with my life purpose coach, Cindy Dove.  I kept resisting the direction she was taking today but ended the conversation so relieved that I almost cried!  I saw that I was sabotaging my progress with my thoughts again.  I was worried about years into the future without fully allowing and experiencing the present.  I was berating myself for not being on the “perfect life path” and had forgotten all of the potential opportunities for growth in my current experiences.  Romantic imaginings can lead to confusion and devastation.  What is reality?  By placing our attention on the moment, we can know truth.

I am so grateful for people! I have a new morning bike buddy who lives just a mile or two from my house!  We’ve met up because of a strong desire I had to include people more in my life.  This has also led to me joining the Plainfield BNI group to learn more about networking and supporting small businesses and also to educational activity visits at the Joliet Public Library.  Today was a day full of people, starting with a morning bike ride, continuing with a BNI meeting and library visit, and culminating in a delightful dinner with my family and an insightful book club.

I am grateful for faith, hope, and joy.  I am continually reminded that there are two sides to every perspective (at least!).  It is so easy to flip back and forth between extremes.  All it takes is a little present-mindedness and appreciation to get my thoughts back on track, to see the world as it is, right here, right now.  There is beauty without.  There is beauty within.  I just need to stop, be still, and receive it.

I didn’t have the will this morning.  I couldn’t recall my dreams.  I could have.  They were on the tip of my consciousness, but I let them go. :-(  Had a dream recently about computer games/video games.  I feel this symbol and everything else in my life is pointing to my mind being overly cluttered.

I will be disappearing again for the next 4 days because I’m going to one more Spiritual Focus Session this summer — Atlantis!  I will be learning about thousands and thousands of years ago when my soul first became entrapped in my body.  Very exciting!  I’m still trying to figure out what questions I want to ask.  (More to follow.)

And finally, I am branching out!  I am now also an author on Lifehack!  So, please check out my articles:

10 Things You Should Say “Yes” to More Often for a More Fulfilling Life

11 Small Things Anyone (Including You!) Can Do to Make the World Better

 

Have a wonderful day and weekend!

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

–Marrianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of “A Course in Miracles”

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